So I called my work this morning and told them I was feeling sick, which I was but not that bad, and I told them I wasn’t going to be in this morning but I’d see how I felt around noon and come in. I just needed a little break from them and work is extremely overwhelming for me. Plus I don’t really have any urgent/important work to do today, so I didn’t feel too guilty about missing the morning. But T, who’s basically our whole HR department, said “This sure does happen a lot. You should probably go see a doctor. You […]
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Been trying to end it. all night. By using a scarf tied tightly around my neck and trying to sleep or just laying in bed, To suffocate, go unconscious, then finally death. Does anyone think this will work eventually? If I can make it tight enough. I can feel all the blood rushing to my head and it gets hard to breath, but I somehow get thru it. Any other simple ways to suffocate self to death. So desperate for an answer need to die tonight
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Well, hello everyone..
I haven’t written on a site like this before but tonight I needed to tell someone, anyone before I explode. Just as an over view I’m an 18 year old in the grey as hell country of England on the south coast somewhere..
I have always been treated for one kind of mental health issue or another. My mom had me put through Dragonflies which is a kind of bereavement councillor when I was in year six so around 10 / 11 years old, I think she was hoping I was just sad when my grandad passed. Don’t get me wrong I was but […]
In my previous post, http://suicideproject.org/?p=359010, I mentioned my life with chronic pain. I’ve been becoming more self abusive and suicidal. Trying to find new ways to cope. Family is pulling more and more away no matter how much I try to be apart of their lives. I shaved my head today. It made me feel better somewhat. I don’t feel as hideous as I did yesterday. Feeling a little bit more normal. At least it would be a handsome corpse. Lol. Bad joke, but I believe more people will have that sense of humor here. Just wish I could find an outlet to find happiness.
is it possible to be a Demisexual Aromantic
bacause if u can be Demi-romantic u can be A right ? Help me out guys
I hang out with a group of friends.but i feel left out most of the time. I have more friends then my group of about 5 but the jave there own groups. I need some one to talk to before i lose my mind. I feel alone and i want it to stop please.
I.. ugh.. everything’s getting worse.. i could use someone..
Text me or kik me.. please.. its in a previous post..
I am so depressed. I don’t know what to do, I don’t want my sister to die, she has terminal cancer. and she can’t be treated where I live ( Jordan ) And I dont have the money to send her outside for treatment. I tried asking people, the government, i made a campaign to raise money I tried everything nobody want’s to help me, I am so depressed I can’t even go to work. I live in the UAE and work here, what kills me is that I am not there with her and she is in so much pain. she is so depressed […]
Why is it so hard to get mental help when you need it? I’m a college student with parents that don’t know that anything’s wrong, and $10 to my name.
I started going through what I needed to do to prepare to commit suicide…one of my friends caught on and told me maybe I should go get help. I said I would do it for her. It’s been an uphill battle trying to find someone to take my insurance, and being able to get an appointment. Most places don’t take appointments for the intake paperwork, so I have to miss a whole day of class for […]
Hi.. I am MrSilent. There is not much to know of me so I won’t bother with the details. I will give a very broad background of why I have chosen this name..
For years and counting, I have been silent. Silent of my emotion, silent of my thoughts and silent of my life and it’s duration. Recently, I’ve stumbled upon this community. I thought it would be quite interesting to be able to speak through text.. I have much to say but I will save most for later if I am still living. There is not a doubt that I am slowly collapsing, so, […]
So my best friend (1) and my other friend (2) will be leaving tomorrow to Bali, and I know I’ll miss them heaps.
Today is the 22nd of September and they’ll be coming back on the 4th of October just in time for my birthday.
friend (2) has a crush on me and wants to date me but I don’t see myself dating him. He’s just not my type.
Best friend (1) likes my friend Jess and she likes him back but he told me today that he likes someone else and doesn’t want to date her.
Best friend (1) started sending me kisses more frequently, making me think […]
anyone know what happens when you take 30 3 mg lunesta pills? Can I die?
I’ve been feeling worse and worse. Today in class I didn’t make the effort to open my notebook and take notes. I blankly stared at the slideshows and pretended to be engaging in class.
I tried to start on the three essays that are due tomorrow for my Communications class but greatly failed as I spent time watching videos on YouTube trying to keep myself alive. I lied to my mom about my second class of the day and told her that once again my teacher cancelled class so I could just go to my psych appointment and then we could go home.
I should probably try […]
Psych class was pretty amazing. Learned that I’ve been having panic attacks and that it’s a thing that’s gonna keep appearing so I’m definitely going to talk to my psychologist about it and see what he has to say about that.
It’s very difficult to share something I enjoy with my family, especially with my mom. I try to tell her about how class went and what I learned and keep her informed that more stuff will keep pilling up with my depression … “You can change it, yeah it’s chemical reactions and all but you are able to control your thoughts and everything else that […]
I’m so discouraged on doing homework. I have no emotion, no energy to write a fucking essay.
I have class in an hour and then after I have work. Lovely, lovely work.
This essay is due Thursday morning and I haven’t even started it. Not even my name.
I don’t know what to do anymore.
Should I drop my class? I just don’t want to go to school anymore but of course my parents will never allow that.
I still have quite some classes to take before I graduate from community college …
Idk what to do.
What if I try to end it all again? What if one more time I […]
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I guess i could either give it a fancy title or just get to the point. Depression. Anxiety. Abuse.
I have actually not came out about it (abuse) and please do not think i am doing this so you feel sorry for me or anything! Yes at the age of 5 i was abused a lot till the age of 11. It wasn’t just by one person though. Since then i’ve always been scared and try my best to reduce attracting attention. i always blamed myself.
Last year, December, i realised i had depression and was diagnosed of it. Went to several people but none helped. Just […]
It’s not something as dramatic as suicide but I want your help.
The last three years, I have been in a very weird phase of my life. When I go outside , alone, I feel that people are thinking bad things of me and I feel that there is a big cloud over my head and they can see whatever I have on my mind. I am overweight and I eat unhealthy food with big ammounts on my plate. It’s not like I am a glutton but it’s like I force myself to eat it. I have never had a real friend. Noone that I could […]
I just wanted to share this song because I love it so much and I hope some of you do too. Also I recently found SP a few days ago and it’s really awesome. It’s something that I’m happy to be a part of now. People who understand almost exactly what I have been and am going through is just what I need. Plus, I know that nobody judges on here and thats such a relief:)