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Overdose.

by Lawli 3/2/2016

written by Lawli

So last night before I went to bed I took 12 Panadol tablets and 10 nurofen. This morning I took 10 more nurofen and 2 more panadol.

I just got home from school and not much has happened other than my usual depression + a headache. I was wondering if there is any likely symptoms at this point.

The other day I took 10 panadol and nothing happened either. Along with taking 14 paracetamol a couple weeks ago.

I was wondering how many it takes to affect me in some way other than a headache? Or should I use something else?

3/2/2016 15 comments

My mother killed herself and I found her body.

by Goldie 3/2/2016

written by Goldie

My mum had always romanticized death. I suppose she thought she’d pass away, be found, and after some tears and a funeral, people would get over it. To say she was wrong is a vast understatement. I know my mum, and if she knew things would have turned out the way they did, she never would have done it.

Being that this is posted in what the effects of suicide has on friends and family, let me dump it all out.

I last saw my mum on a Friday and told her I’d pop by on the upcoming Monday or Tuesday. She seemed totally fine. I woke […]

3/2/2016 23 comments

Don’t pity the dead pity the living

by Drowning 3/1/2016

written by Drowning

The dead don’t have to struggle day to day the dead don’t have to suffer emotional pain the dead don’t have to battle with them self everyday we are not living just merely surviving each day….

hate waking up dreading to face another day well off I go to the doctors to see if they can fix me with more meds sitting with people coughing at spluttering everywhere some of these people are actually ill yet I’m sitting here physically fine but only if they knew if the doctor could give me a pill to put me to sleep for ever I would proberly go home […]

3/1/2016 3 comments

I am scared

by HatedGirl 2/24/2016

written by HatedGirl

Things was good me n him then he relaspsed pycosis im scard it will take him away from me i had to get u help but everytime u call u say hurtful n things like u r not with me but before u relapsed we was good i am scared idk what i can do with out u i wait for u to.come bk home or will.u ever as ur mind right now thinks diff i hope u hold on to us i have nothin with out u but i will be patient things right now feel as if my world is falling hello all […]

2/24/2016 3 comments

One Day.

by GTSuicide_6 2/22/2016

written by GTSuicide_6

I am sad. So sad. I am so sad to the point where the prettiest things feels the ugliest. Where the most vivid images in life seems the most dark. Where the joy feels like sadness, and the excitement feels like fear. I am sad. Sad to the point where when happiness is present, it is enveloped entirely by a deep sadness.

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As mentioned yesterday on a post, I got the opportunity to attend a concert with performers, dancers, and motivational speakers today.

When everyone else enjoyed themselves during the break, I locked myself in the bathroom and cut myself.

When everyone found happiness and joy throughout the […]

2/22/2016 2 comments

Avoiding College

by JiminyCrispies 2/21/2016

written by JiminyCrispies

I have college tomorrow. I can’t go. I need to figure out a way to stay off. My mum will most likely yell and still send me in. Still, I need to try. The hard part is thinking of a way to put his into words. Most of the time I point blank refuse to leave my room without an explanation until 3/4 hours later. I doubt I’ll be able to do that this time round.

The voices and Angels have been bad all day, and the shadow people have been constant. I managed to get through last night with minimal injuries, so I haven’t mentioned […]

2/21/2016 15 comments

Idk why but i feel like crying

by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful) 2/21/2016

written by deadmanliving(hopefullyhopeful)

It started when at the gym about 90 mins ago. I just got the sudden urge to cry. I was able to not do it and i could have it was empty at the time. Ive since finished my workout come home walked the dogs taken a shower and its back. Could be all of the deaths the past week. Could be seeing a recent pic of * when i considered emailing her. Could be all the “self-help” exercises ive been doing. Ut i just want to cry. I hope it doesn’t symbolize anything unless it is tears of joy for some reason. This ever […]

2/21/2016 6 comments

A body dysmorphic story

by Rotted_Flesh 2/20/2016

written by Rotted_Flesh

So when I was around 17 years old, I was quite the insecure little guy (still am, just not as bad). I always hated how I looked, thought I looked weird, that everyone was always staring at me, never satisfied with my appearance. I was in and out of school, really only attending classes if any friends were in it, art class, etc… So I remember one time I got my hair cut and I thought it just looked awful and too short (I had my bangs covering my eyebrows because I really fucked up plucking them and they looked awful), I was unaware and […]

2/20/2016 5 comments

Wind and Panic

by Cordless 2/19/2016

written by Cordless

Today it is very windy.

Strong winds give me panic attacks, and here’s why:

About 15 years ago a windstorm destroyed my home in the middle of the night. It ripped off the roof while I was in bed sleeping. I heard this horrible loud ripping sound, and I rolled over in bed, still in sleepy confusion.

Instead of my ceiling above me, I saw stars.

The wind had this constant ROAR, and it just wasn’t stopping.

I couldn’t turn on the lights, because the windstorm had knocked out the power earlier that evening.

So there I was, in total darkness, trapped in a windstorm, in a home with no roof.

I […]

2/19/2016 60 comments

The Fuck?

by Alan Ominous 2/18/2016

written by Alan Ominous

I’m a train wreck. Moods swinging on a damn pendulum. I’m happily depressed. I’m miserably excited.

I’m too alive to die, but too dead to live.

My brains churning out 60 ideas for things a minute. Simultaneously explaining why I’m a stupid piece of shit and deserve to die.

I’m getting so much encouragement here, but discouragement at home. I’m drawn to some of you like the insane idiot I am while compulsively closing myself from reality. I don’t know what the fuck I’m even saying.

2/18/2016 42 comments

Naproxen

by peachy 2/18/2016

written by peachy

Did you know naproxen causes
Nausea
Blurred vision
Vomiting
Movement problems
Dizziness
Coma
Incoherence
Slow labored breathing
Stomach pain
And ringing in your ears?
A lot of the times it’s given to people who’d look like they’d abuse zanex.
A handful of these or more and you tear stomach lineing and end up with ulsers even brain hemorrhage after waking up from coma.
But coma sounds so sweet. Sure I’ll wake up with a couple ulsers and my stomach lineing will get torn but at least I get to sleep for more than just a day. Maybe a couple days or a couple weeks who […]

2/18/2016 0 comment

sorry

by Alan Ominous 2/16/2016

written by Alan Ominous

Sorry everyone. Miles from home. Resources are scarce. My options limited. Chosen method effective but requires commitment and determination. Going to vibe to my favorite tunes. Trying to prepare. A few loose ends I wish I could tie but there’s no time.

Sorry I can’t finish Super Suicide Squad. Sorry.

There’s a lot I want to say to a specific few of you. I’m afraid I’ll back out tonight. So I’m not going to. Just know I think a few of you are just swell.

Sorry.

2/16/2016 46 comments

Today…

by Ylem 2/15/2016

written by Ylem

I fucked up really bad. I messed up my presentation. I had a panic attack in class. It was so embarrassing.

I had to leave school early. I was sent home so I can pull myself together. I have an exam tomorrow. I don’t know how I’ll make it through that.

When I got home to tell my parents I had a terrible day, that I couldn’t concentrate in class, my father threw a fit.

He told me, I don’t have the right to feel terrible. All of the problems in my family are because of me. I don’t have the right to say things are hard for […]

2/15/2016 20 comments

The winter of life

by thanaturge 2/15/2016

written by thanaturge

It’s weird how at times I get these incredible insights about my life, how it’s OK that I’m in the final days of my nearly 57 years. That this is the natural, organic conclusion of my life. I’ve lived long enough. And although it’s sad in a way, death is also not to be feared, but anticipated. I am witnessing myself in my end days. My decline and degenerative process are so apparent to me. I have no appetite and have lost the ability to digest food, so I am incredibly weak. My bladder and bowels have stopped working, I pee once or twice a […]

2/15/2016 8 comments

Update

by Alexther 2/12/2016

written by Alexther

Got back home. I didn’t want to cause my family stress/fear… Got semi-forced to continue attending my studies…

No escape… No fuckin’ escape…

Slowly losing the remaining bit of my sanity…

My head hurts…

Almost OD’ed three days ago… It was an accident, me and a couple of friends were celebrating my birthday and we had some chemical fun. I spent about 3 hours shaking and struggling to stay conscious… But I ended up going home safe and downing a couple more beers, finally going to sleep after that.

The way I feel right now is somewhere between really hot and really cold, temperature-speaking… My head feels as if I’m […]

2/12/2016 2 comments

by JiminyCrispies 2/9/2016

written by JiminyCrispies

I’m in college, and I can’t concentrate. I need to get away. I need to go home. I need to listen the Angels. They said I’ll get sent a message, but I’m going to miss it. I can’t leave, I won’t be able to. Even if I left, there’s no way to get home. It’s a two hour walk, and I can’t risk it anyway. The Others will get me. They all know the medication didn’t kill me, and the Angels said they’re angrier. I’m stuck in this building. I can’t leave until 5. I’m going to miss the message, and I’m going to get […]

2/9/2016 2 comments

Horrible Memory

by Ylem 2/6/2016

written by Ylem

It won’t leave my head. Maybe writing it on here will give me a bit of a rest.

Before my neighbours eventually managed to finally kill my brother, they had been trying for a few year.

In 2013, after yet another harassment from them when I was coming back from school, my mother told my brother about it. Of course, it pissed him off. He decided to confront them and ask them exactly what they wanted from me.

I was not home that day. When I got back, things were upside down, and there was so much blood. My parents were not at home. They had taken my […]

2/6/2016 10 comments

Bein transgender.

by Skeleton100 2/3/2016

written by Skeleton100

It’s a rusty needle that pierces every pore of your body, makes you hate your own fucking cells, chromosomes, DNA, your brain. It’s an ache that’ll never completely leave, I can rub it out with hormones and Tyenol, change my identity until nothing old remains but my genitals, but I can’t get reborn.

I can never give a woman a baby. I can never fit in truly with men. I can never know what it’s like to wake up with morning wood and chuckle. I’m separate, physically, a confused alien mutilating its flesh for peace. I am devil-wrecked blip of confusion and it’s too fucking much.

I […]

2/3/2016 5 comments

Angel Wanting To Go Home

by Suicidal Angel 2/2/2016

written by Suicidal Angel

“SUICIDAL PEOPLE ARE JUST ANGELS WANTING TO GO HOME”

Can you relate to this?

Are you one of God’s Angels, that has done good all your life

and now you are done and just want to go home.

Life on earth is not our real home. It’s just a temporary place we get sent to

for whatever meaningless & pointless reason.

Our home is in spirit. With God if you believe that, or just in the universal energy that we originated from.

Whatever your belief is about where we come from,

Do you have this strong pull and desire to go back there?

I’m not talking about being suicidal in a way to escape […]

2/2/2016 4 comments

A Social Anxiety day

by Slipknot83 1/27/2016

written by Slipknot83

I notice I start to get angry toughs whenever I have to go out, maybe it’s a reaction to prepare me to defend myself. Many times I give up leaving home, because I can’t handle people staring at me uncontrolably mad.

I tried to go anyway, everything happened as expected, couldn’t lift up my face to look at people. My eyes stuck the ground, I start sweating, and my face muscles become stiff, and i think, this never changes. Psychologists say you should keep insisting going out and facing your fears. But it never changes to me, it’s like the Murphy law “If something can go wrong […]

1/27/2016 14 comments

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