” Here are some obvious things about the weather: It’s real. You can’t change it by wishing it away. If it’s dark and rainy it really is dark and rainy and you can’t alter it. It might be dark and rainy for two weeks in a row , BUT It will be sunny one day. It isn’t under one’s control as to when the sun comes out, but come out it will. One day . ”
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Like all humans the boy had limits.Limits to what he could do.but also limits to what he could take and after all the time that had passed he finally understood one fact.He would always be alone.the boy had tried harder than most people would have…he tried harder than he should have….he gave up.he was done.he decided to not care anymore.he cut himself off.he showed nothing.that darkness in his heart had once again warped him.his face grew blank.no smiling.no more crying.nothing…he gave in to the lonliness.he kept it all inside.his feelings of pain and resentment and sadness…he decided to close them in his heart and pretend […]
You normal people do not know how it feels to be different.
It’s like being lost in a dark forest, surrounded by a heavy fog. You sometimes see lights casted behind the fog, but only barely. You tried to follow the lights, but even if it is leading you to walk in circle, you could only keep on walking.
No one hear you scream. No one hear you cry.
You thought you have reached the end. In fact it is only more darkness.
You normal people sometimes give us positive feedback, give us hope, but most of the time you found us strange, weird.
I am confused. I don’t know […]
“And ever has it been known that love knows not its own depths until the hour of separation.”-Khalil Gibran
Today has been a heart-wrenching day. I woke up knowing it was the 2 month mark of when my little brother took his life. It has been a devastating loss that has shattered my world. He is a part of my soul and always has been and I feel tremendous loss.
And then I received an email this morning from a dear friend known here as Iamzero, stating that he was sorry but that he could not go on any longer and wished me thanks and love. Love […]
i see my self not just as a wast of space but as a thing to be toyed with its all i have been all my life i had hope but now shes drifting away im loseing evreything i love in the space of a few weeks befor i left for a wile befor i came back here i had some ider of what i was doing but now love and my mind are fading and my hope if i had any is gone
my sole is cold and leeking out of my body im a ship in space drifting a hulk thats all i am a emptey […]
life is an abstract concept to me…
its like a dance that you cant really understand the concept of the movment seems destorted its like when you first read a script back or a story that you’ve just wrote you know it will make sense when youve ironed out the funny littel bits that arnt sapost to be there but its not like that i cant get rid of the littel bits im reading my life and non of it makes any senes it looks like a blood splat on a wall its got no struchure to it its just a mess some one said to me once in basic befor […]
Michael the angel but not yet of the arch
A battle and confrontation like black and white
The eternal Morlock, and the last chance
A little north by the water, we will go
One day, for peace and prosperity
The muck by the coastal, I will be alone
Will the Gengar come, or maybe Jynx
One day, will I ever have the power
I miss you Machop, and I need you
Hope you can come, too.
Ok let be real
our life is suppose to suck
If you think no one wantes you
your wrong
your parents love u
if they dont so
they’re just people
im 100% someone likes you
even if its 1 person
Listen if you lived in peace
Then your life is going to be boring
find something you like
i like singing and playing piano
that help me
you have to find something that makes you happy
watch apple dance that should help if your sad
i seen it work
1 girl was going to take her life and she watch that
and she started laughing
i hope you dont take your life
i hope
…..i hope
-brian
i think i have sleep apnea. im excited, cause if i do, i might be able to get my life back! even though im frustrated that i took medicine that i didnt need,and they damaged my body, but that might be reversible. i hope this works. i need it too. its either this or suicide….
i cant help but feel that no matter what i do what pills i take who i talk to it, its never gonna be good enough. suicidal thoughts will not go away, the only thing that makes them dissapear for a minute is self harm, i hope other people understand but nobody i know gets it.
i hope this week i really do it. to all on this website who have encouraged me: thank you so much. I will probably wuss out and be here again next week 😛 If for some reason i actually do it, i love u all, and i hope to see you all in heaven.
Hello.
I have returned after over 2 years to this place where I have kept my thoughts and feelings in what is a private, but public place, in it’s own way. A type of blog, specially for people like me. This place has helped me and others so much, and sadly I must admit once more I have returned for it’s much needed support.
I was formly ‘LastLove’, but have since lost my account/email/password, so I won’t be retrieving my old pieces any time soon, so quickly I’ll add an overview of my, well, ‘problems’ as they may be called, my story, one of many.
I was sexually […]
well, mhh, lets get this started, im 22 yo male and i have been trought depresion since i was 15 yeah this have been very hard 7 years, im not goig to give details about that because if you are here you may know how i feel rigth now, the fact is that im a transgender, so yes im kind of a girl in the body of a boy and i have knew since i was 12 that is like the age when you can ge treatment and stuff to “solve” that trouble so rigth now im in a dead end i can either become […]
So I posted a few night ago about my situation and now I feel worse. I stood up to my bf and he admitted to me that he was no longer in love with me anymore after 2 months of hiding it from me. And I knew something was wrong and he kept calling me crazy. And I’ve been depressed for so long now I’m sitting at home locked in my room staring at a bottle of pills wondering if I should swallow them or not. And it’s not because of my now ex bf. It’s because I’ve had so many fucked up things in […]
I can’t begin to describe the hell that I’ve been put through for the last 8 months. I won’t even try. All I can say is that I have been scammed, robbed, taken for all I have/had and left to suffer the financial consequences, the shame and the betrayal. I can’t believe that someone that I helped through the worst times of their life could do this to me. Bottom line, they robbed me for close to 30k.
All I can think about is that if there was ever a time to end my life, now is it. This is rock bottom. This person has made […]
I have been looking for a place to share my frustration with people who can understand me and help me come out of my depression.
Here goes my story-
I was in college when I met a guy and fell in love with him so deeply that I had to marry him at any cost. I always believed he loved me as much as I did. I had an amazing college life with my life revolving only around him. Seldom did he papmper me, he never said a “I love You” to me on face but still i always believed he loved me the most in this world. […]
I can see it in the dull yellow streetlights glaring off the sidewalk at night, and I can smell it in the exhaust fumes from passing cars
I can see it in my parents’ creased faces, and I can see it behind my friends’ glassy eyes
Despair
Desperation
Abandonment
Loss of hope.
I’ll run from it until I’ve taken another hit, until I’ve taken another shot, until I can’t be any more numb than I already am
But it’s always lurking right around the corner
Despair
Desperation
Abandonment
Loss of hope.
Now, I know what you’re thinking. “Wait, Lucy, you’re not actually going to try to end it again, are you?!” Well, the answer, my dear friends… is no. I’m not going to try to kill myself again. Not for a little while, anyway. I mean, I doubt I’m going to live to see 2015, but that’s still a ways off, so I’m still here.
Basically, I just wanted to make this post just to tell everyone one last time how I’m doing. I know it’s been a while since I made an update, so a lot’s happened, but… here goes.
Shortly after I made my post “My […]
I wish that there was someone who understood what this feels like..i wish i could trust..iv been broken by so many.. over and over.. i just cant believe there is anything other than people who lie… is there anyone out there that does not lie and cause pain for there own selfish reasons..they don’t even realize what they are doing..i hope….and if there is someone…one… how would i know?.. i want to have faith in people.. i want there to be someone else like me.. someone who knows…
will i perpetually be in this cycle of pain..waiting for someone to show me its going to be […]
My mother’s schizo finally did it, she can’t work anymore, still doesn’t admit she needs treatment, I don’t know if she’s taking her meds but knowing her it’s the last thing she’ll do, it’s way too nice to make my life even more of a hell. I can’t earn more, I can’t get a better job, or I can’t get a second job, whether she accepts it or not. Nobody understands me. I don’t, either. Why do I still care who’s gonna take care of her when I’m dead, I don’t know! I definitely don’t want to do anything for her anymore. Yet I still […]