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Its hard.

by Cro0kedYoung 10/15/2015

written by Cro0kedYoung

I live with my mum. I don’t speak to my dad much. He ruined my life, quite literally. I wont go in to detail, but he destroyed my childhood, which still seems to be effecting me now, at 15 years old.

He turned up at my house the other week, dragging so much of my past back up. I haven’t spoken to him properly for over a year now, and he had the cheek to tell me, his daughter that he doesn’t know and hasn’t known for over 6 years, that I’m depressed.

I mean, I personally think there’s something along the lines of that there, but he […]

10/15/2015 5 comments

My story :)

by iwant2helpu2 10/13/2015

written by iwant2helpu2

Hi.. I just wanted to tell my story… So i suddenly one day find myself completly emotionless… This feeling continued for about some days. Then I started to cry without any reason. I just became sad because of… really nothing. So Things were bad but not like I wanted to self harm or end my life, yet. Then this boy came into my life… Ofcourse I fell in love With him… He showed me that he liked me to, told me I was beautiful, skinny, smart and more… We talked 24/7 and went out together… Then suddenly he tells me that what we are doing […]

10/13/2015 2 comments

Just feeling terribly alone

by lulereign 10/12/2015

written by lulereign

I’d managed to stop relapsing several times, especially after my university counsellor informed my parents of my so called ‘suicidal thoughts’. But that horrible feeling of spiralling down into an endless black hole returned, and I just really don’t know who to go to anymore. I suppose I’ll continue dealing with these shitty feelings. I just really want to know if this is depression or bipolar disorder, or am I just having a bad day. I’ve been having these ‘episodes’ for close to 7 years now, and I’d always thought that everyone felt this way. Now that I realise that it’s not, I just want […]

10/12/2015 1 comment

Protected: I was looking for a job, and then I found a job…

by Tristeza 10/3/2015

written by Tristeza

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

10/3/2015 22 comments

I’m ready

by twotif 10/2/2015

written by twotif

I got everything in the mail finally. About 10 mins ago I used an extra shoe string to bend the nozzle on the helium tank so it remains open and provides a constant flow.

I had to purchase a couple of small plumbing fixtures to create an adapter to fit the hose on the tank. But I’ve got an airtight seal so there’s no leakage.

Ive already learned how to put on the mask and got it fitted just right.

So I’m ready to go. Now the next time I get sick. Instead of laying here in agony for 3 days, I’m OUT!!!

Special thanks to whoever posted the […]

10/2/2015 16 comments

Afraid to be better

by chelle428 9/26/2015

written by chelle428

I’ve been feeling a bit better lately. I got a few calls for job interviews and even though I don’t have a guaranteed job yet I don’t feel as anxious about it. I just stared on antidepressants and counseling. My counselor is very nice which I’m glad because I was very nervous with her being from the same hospital at the horrible doctor I’ve talked about before. Even though things aren’t perfect and parts of me are still sad I don’t feel as consumed by it lately. But I’m also very fearful, it’s hard feeling for me to explain. I’ve been depressed since I was […]

9/26/2015 4 comments

Please.

by Take a Deep Breath 9/24/2015

written by Take a Deep Breath

Please don’t lead me on by saying I’m a nice girl. Please don’t lead me on by texting me for ten hours straight then not texting me for two weeks. Please don’t act like we had something. Because we obviously didn’t. I tried to be the one for you- and yet you left. Just like they all do. I thought you were different. Now I sit on my bed in my room with my knife in my hand, and I had thought I was different to. My friends told me you were the super shy, sweet guy who just had a horrible break up. I’ve […]

9/24/2015 4 comments

Oh everyone’s exited about the Pope coming

by wndozh8er 9/22/2015

written by wndozh8er

I will never forgive him for his horrible comments he made about Brittney Maynard saying that her choice to end her own life was a “crime against God”.

9/22/2015 8 comments

A year ago today, I came back from Texas…

by wndozh8er 9/22/2015

written by wndozh8er

what a horrible year it’s been – the worst year of my life. Just like last year, the leaves will soon turn, than fall off there trees. The snow will come and then the first flowers will rebloom next spring just before the scorching heat of summer….than September 2016 will arrive.

I wonder how 2016 will be for me. Seems like ever year is a cycle that keeps repeating itself as I sit and watch the world go by.

9/22/2015 4 comments

Very Angry

by FeelingFunny 9/21/2015

written by FeelingFunny

What a horrible day. I feel like a complete fuck up. I’ve decided not to eat today just to punish myself. Maybe I will do better tomorrow. Probably not though. I forsee things getting worse.

9/21/2015 0 comment

I Know

by BluDude976 9/21/2015

written by BluDude976

I already know how it’s going to end for me. My life has been a never ending nightmare and it’s getting worse not better. I grew up severely neglected in hellish poverty, my first suicide attempt was in high school, I don’t have actual friends just people that know who I am, my biological relatives hate me because I’m gay, I’ve had every horrible job a person can have even though I went to college, I have a mountain of debt from college, the only man I love won’t have anything to do with me, and in 2010 I snapped and drank a glass of […]

9/21/2015 10 comments

My Parents Hurt Me Mentally

by GerbzBaby 9/20/2015

written by GerbzBaby

I remember my recent birthday, it was horrible. My mom, and my dad kicked me to the dirt and left me to cry my eyes out in my bathroom because I went to a friends house that day (yes I did tell them). My dad smiled to me and said “happy fucking birthday”. How those words hurt me so much. And to this day I still don’t know what I did wrong. So much yelling and arguing, but for what? I don’t even know..

I also remember when I was supposed to go to a amusement park with some of my friends, but I got stressed […]

9/20/2015 1 comment

Just please someone kill me

by Chelseamx 9/19/2015

written by Chelseamx

I hate it so bad. Somebody kill me. I don’t think I can love. I’m such a horrible person. I feel like crying every minute of my life, but I don’t want to.

9/19/2015 0 comment

Losing my best friend

by chelle428 9/17/2015

written by chelle428

The latest in a series of shitty things that are happening to me is that my best friend has decided that she hates me. I had never shared with her anything about my depression until I learned that she had tried to kill herself and was put into a mental hospital, that was six months ago. Yesterday night me and her had been drinking, I told her I didn’t want to drink because I don’t like how she gets when she’s drunk. She didn’t listen and got very angry and upset. She wanted me to move in with her, but I don’t have the money […]

9/17/2015 3 comments

Everything

by BluDude976 9/16/2015

written by BluDude976

I hate everything about my body. I wish I could afford all the cosmetic surgery necessary to fix it. I wish there was some kind of medical procedure available so I could remove my mind and put it in a body that isn’t hideous. I know I’m genetically inferior because everything about me is horrible. Someone told me once that I look like a certain celebrity, it was not flattering, and after I realized how ugly everyone else thinks I am I wanted to put a gun in my mouth and die.

9/16/2015 3 comments

Protected: I need to run away…

by Tristeza 9/11/2015

written by Tristeza

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

9/11/2015 17 comments

Opiates

by Nobody915 9/10/2015

written by Nobody915

Hi everyone,

Hope you’re all well.

I was diagnosed with [condition] where I was prescribed codeine (sort of like morphine) to ease the horrible, physical pain. However, it really makes my head spin which also makes the sadness go away. In fact, I feel almost happy. I know this can happen when you take opiates and i’m trying my best not to become addicted to them (which I am not) but sometimes, I just wish I could take one whenever I feel down. It’s horrible thinking but I was just wondering if people on here know what I mean.

Comments are really appreciated. Thanks

Your Nobody.

9/10/2015 8 comments

I’m ok…not really

by adawgdarappa 9/10/2015

written by adawgdarappa

Alright well I can say I’m ok but I’d be lying. Then again it might be better to lie and smile and act as if I am ok and nothing is wrong… this is what I tell myself when ever anyone asks are you ok…or how are you… I guess its time I be honest. Well its been happening since age 6. My mom ain’t in the room, or my at school teaching, at the store whichever. So me and my dad and brother are home. We seem to get in arguements alot my brother overreacts easily as well as my dad next thing i […]

9/10/2015 3 comments

Im feeling better.

by Delisnak 9/5/2015

written by Delisnak

Im not sick and throwing up anymore. thank god that was horrible im never gonna try to overdose again. dont do it you’ll regret it.

9/5/2015 5 comments

on epiphanies

by internova 9/3/2015

written by internova

it’s kind of strange how and when you realize there’s something wrong with you. i haven’t really thought there’s anything wrong with thinking about death – i’ve been thinking about it for, what, the last three years now? it was almost like an unconscious epiphany that hadn’t hit me until, a few months ago, i stopped and just thought about it: what classifies as depression? what classifies as suicidal?

and for the longest time, i did not only believe, but i was convinced that i’m completely alright.

sometimes, i’d be trying to sleep at night, and i would think of how it would feel to hang myself. […]

9/3/2015 1 comment

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