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I have said it all to many times before

by falling_soup 2/18/2015

written by falling_soup

I have yet to say that I have found a plan and that it will work. I am sorry that I have said goodbye to many times and then not actually do anything about it, I am such a “wuss”. I feel like I can’t ever follow through with things and that I can’t seem to get it together these days..

NO I am not selfish for wanting to die
NO I am not trying to get attention or trying to get people to feel sorry for me because I am “sick”
I am always going to be broken, I can’t seem to get fixed
No one is going […]

2/18/2015 4 comments

I don’t know anymore

by notanymore 2/15/2015

written by notanymore

I don’t know what to do anymore and I could use some advice or something. On January 18 my boyfriend left me. He was the only reason I had to keep going. He was my only happiness in the mess I call a life. We had been together for four months. We’re both in high school- he’s a senior and I’m a junior. He just moved here from another state and has been through a similar but far worse past. We understood each other, or I thought we did. We were good for each other. The last month we were together my medications changed. I […]

2/15/2015 1 comment

FED UP

by ShirleyD 1/29/2015

written by ShirleyD

I am so fed up, I dont even know if it is me or if it is the people around me. I just feel like sleeping and just not waking up. I dont know if it is because I stopped going to church that the feeling of my heart drowning is hurting more. I hate my life. I just want to jump off a cliff and see who actually misses me.

1/29/2015 2 comments

by Pretend Girl 1/29/2015

written by Pretend Girl

I was encouraged by impefertluck to write tonight.

There are so many people hurting and so much pain. Know you can get through your personal struggle and hurts. It can often seem like you can’t. Feelings lie. Maybe that sounds pretentious. Feelings lead us to conclude things we never would have if the feelings hadn’t been so strong.

I have dealt with my depression for over 20 years. I had counseling but no one listened to me when I talked about the pain of my family life so many years before. So, instead of understanding that the depression came from a situation I had no control over, […]

1/29/2015 3 comments

Punching a bully…//Update

by Jihesshou xx 1/21/2015

written by Jihesshou xx

In my algebra class a couple of boys and girls that you’d typically catagorize as ‘popular’ decided to bully me today. I’m not weak, and I wouldn’t ever let up that I was. I can take some taunting and not act out in any way because I feel like i’m mature enough not to. Well, one of the girls in that circle decided to attack a sensitive area of mine, the history of my family. Calling my mom a whore and making fun of our financial problems. I wont get into exact details of what she said, but let’s just say I ended up in […]

1/21/2015 0 comment

No one will care…

by Ghost9er 1/15/2015

written by Ghost9er

My previous post was about my saving up but, due to recent events… I’m just going to do what I had in mind quite a few months ago… I am going to go out to the woods, take some pain killers, cut myself up(if that doesn’t work) I’m just going to climb up a tree and hang myself… No one will find my body, no one will care, no one will notice…
My life is just a nightmare that will never stop hurting me…
I have to end my pain… once and for all! :'(

1/15/2015 0 comment

A Story

by sad_face7 1/13/2015

written by sad_face7

My life feels like a story, but i havent gotten my happy ending yet so far things have being going wrong for me. I’ve always wanted to write a book about my life, but i dont know where to start. You think you guys can help me out? I think it would help me get things off my mind by not hurting myself. I think it would be better to write about my life then hurt it. Anyways just let me know if you want to help me out

1/13/2015 0 comment

I don’t know what to title this.

by Bri 1/12/2015

written by Bri

I may just be a dumb teenager, but, right now I’m hurting so bad… It may seem silly, the reason…

I liked someone since I was fourteen, well I was with him… for a year and then some, Christmas 2013 he ripped my heart out… well, yesterday was his birthday… And memories are still making it hard for me to breathe. Why does it still hurt so bad after a year? shouldn’t I be over this or something??? Everyone said that as a teenager I’d get over it in a couple months, but that couple months turned into a year… and I’m sick of it. I […]

1/12/2015 1 comment

Confused and fed up.

by MysteriousCloud 1/1/2015

written by MysteriousCloud

I’m getting worse mentally. Before I could hold it all in, now I burst into tears whenever I’m alone until I cant breathe and start shaking and feel sick. its so weird and I don’t like it. I get stressed out and scared more than I used to and its all starting to crumble and show on the outside. However I suppose on the good side I have stopped hurting myself. But I don’t know which is better to be honest, coz this shit is messing with me and I’m fed up of it, I’m fed up of being here.

1/1/2015 2 comments

Confused

by minxj 12/29/2014

written by minxj

I’m so confused…like during the day I’m fine and all but when I get home I just get these voices in my head telling me that I’m worthless and ugly and so many more names. I try to let out my pain by cutting but it doesn’t work anymore…I don’t feel it…I’m numb. I’m scared to tell my friends that I harm myself because they make jokes about people killing themselves and hurting themselves…I can’t lose them because they are all I have…I’m dying on the inside…I’m trapped…if I lose them then it’ll drive me off the edge…I’m scared to ask for help…I’m scared of […]

12/29/2014 1 comment

Here I go again

by IndigoMasquerade 12/25/2014

written by IndigoMasquerade

I’m in tears tonight. Not entirely sure what triggered it right now, but I’m hurting and I just don’t want to be here at all. I’m just ready to leave this world.

12/25/2014 4 comments

Biding My Time

by IndigoMasquerade 12/22/2014

written by IndigoMasquerade

Guess I’m on here a lot lately. I just have nowhere else to put these thoughts out there on…I’m hurting so bad. I can’t wait until January 5th, but I have to, in a way. It’s relieving to think about though. To think that my pain will end and I can just escape it all.

12/22/2014 3 comments

Why am I me?

by worthless_user 12/16/2014

written by worthless_user

I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I feel like I only hurt people that are close to me. All my girlfriend wants to do is help and I’m so afraid of losing her, but all I do is push her away. I punch holes in the wall, hurt myself (never her!), and cry all the time. I actually can’t even remember a day where I didn’t break down and cry. I feel like my life is meaningless and I always question people’s reasoning for even being around me. If I had the choice, I’d leave myself and never come back. I’m just a worthless […]

12/16/2014 3 comments

Horrible illusion

by dead_arsenic 12/16/2014

written by dead_arsenic

At the begining it was only to see if it would hurt as much as i was hurting inside. After, it became like an addiction. It pinched my skin and a soft line of blood ran down my skin. It felt wonderful. I didn’t know what real love is and didn’t have a single friend. So who would care?

It’s been 3 years now that I self harm and struggle with depression. I’ve tried to kill myself 3 times but each time i woke up in a hospital…alive. I thought these pills and alcohol would save me from this fucked up world but it was only […]

12/16/2014 1 comment

My first post here.

by gagaga11376 12/11/2014

written by gagaga11376

I have suffered from depression since around the age of 13I can’t really say if I thought about suicide back then. I know from things that happened to me my childhood was Rod I never got to enjoy some of the experiences young people did like normal relationships and that affected my life as an adult. I’m in capable of handling a relationship normally like any other person would I fall easily hard and even when a relationship is unhealthy for me I don’t want to end it I am currently in a toxic relationship and addictive relationshipand although I do love this woman I […]

12/11/2014 4 comments

The shoe’s on the other foot

by Stereotype 12/3/2014

written by Stereotype

My friend was found incoherent – little response, I don’t know anything further yet. I have been having these really dark premonitions about her killing herself. I hope she doesn’t die. I can’t do anything, I am powerless. I just texted her silly pictures and thoughts of her as often as I thought she could tolerate over the past several months. I was so afraid that she was mad at me because I used to be the one so depressed and cutting and so ill. I haven’t felt so depressed and cutting for several months. I don’t know how to treat her… I want to […]

12/3/2014 5 comments

Honestly…

by WaitAndBleed 11/29/2014

written by WaitAndBleed

….There are so many of us. So many of us who feel suicidal and want to harm ourselves. Yet most of us say we hide away and/or try to fit in. Why is there this pressure/stigma to depression that just adds to the guilt we already have. Scared of hurting family and friends by telling them how we honestly feel. Other people can be selfish, put themselves first, are taught to look after themselves if they are treated wrong or are ill, but feeling suicidal doesn’t get anything other than a raised eyebrow, or a look of fear from people like you are going to blow […]

11/29/2014 5 comments

by lo 11/27/2014

written by lo

11/27/2014 1 comment

Don’t wake me up in the morning, cause I will be gone

by stairway2haven 11/12/2014

written by stairway2haven

It sounds stupid, but I have many, many problems. I have ADHD, depression, and anxiety. All three of these things are bad, but when they are together at the same time, they are difficult to live with. My depression has been getting out of hand lately. I have a serious crush on a girl, ever since I was in high school. Her best friends are also my best friends, so I had the guts to tell them that I had strong feelings for this girl. Unfortunately, this girl only thinks of me as a friend. A best friend. She talks to me about her crush. […]

11/12/2014 2 comments

Guilt and Anger

by ScorpionC 11/12/2014

written by ScorpionC

For three years I’ve been depressed, as the doctors say. Last month I hit what felt like rock bottom. Still, I feel like I don’t deserve to talk about it here. I feel like I should be happy since everything comes so easy to me. I’m so angry with myself for purposely failing my tests and I just want to hurt myself for hurting everyone around me. I feel so guilty. I love my family and my friends and I’m only hurting them by feeling this way. The pain and emptiness inside is overwhelming, and only seems to be growing. I don’t know if I […]

11/12/2014 2 comments

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