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It’s not enough.

by lulereign 6/26/2015

written by lulereign

I never believed when people said cutting was an addiction. But now it’s just not enough. I used to do baby cuts – just little ones – but a few of them at a time. They were small enough to go unnoticed even though I still wear short sleeved clothes. I didn’t want anything to be too obvious to people, but recently I’m noticing the are getting more inflamed and irritated – it kinda stands out too much.

Also I’ll admit I was scared of the pain. Initially that tiny pinprick was enough, but now it doesn’t hurt ENOUGH anymore. I want to cut deeper, but […]

6/26/2015 1 comment

by AKidWithAName 6/25/2015

written by AKidWithAName

Well, if anyone cares, here it is:

When I was in 5th grade (age 10), my father was deployed to Afghanistan for 6 months. During these 6 months, my mother drank every night. Because she didn’t take care of me or my siblings, I attempted to take care of them to the best of my ability. Needless to say, I failed miserably. We also didn’t go to church at all during these 6 months, because our mother didn’t take us. When my dad got back, I got in trouble for not raising my siblings correctly and not taking them to church […]

6/25/2015 6 comments

I fucking hate life

by Spoyald 6/22/2015

written by Spoyald

It’s been two years since my husband asked for a divorce and I tried to kill myself. He was engaged to another woman before the divorce was final. Sometimes it hits me hard that he left me. My kids tell me that I can talk to them any time but when I try they don’t want to hear it. I hate being alone. I feel I’m in limbo and just existing. Sometimes killing myself seems like the only option. I am so tired. Tired of the loneliness, the worrying about everything, the having nothing. I live in my sisters extra room. I have nothing of […]

6/22/2015 4 comments

How do I leave

by cowardgirl 6/13/2015

written by cowardgirl

I’m 20 years old. I’ve been tortured for so long now. I cut all alone my arm vertically but they stitched it up. I overdosed on medication but they took out the poison. I need something painless and quick but I live with my girlfriend and don’t want to have any evidence of my future plans. ideas?

6/13/2015 2 comments

Bout done

by Rickd 5/13/2015

written by Rickd

Well it appears this is the only place I have to talk about this. I have no one that understands what its like. I cant tell anyone from the proffesional field because they will just lock me up till I tell them Im all better. Has happened before. I cant take it anymore. Ive lost everything I possessed and everyone i loved. The one person left in my life that I truly truly love doesnt know it and never will. No matter anyway. i was content with having her as my friend but now she is not even that. I dont even register on radar […]

5/13/2015 1 comment

Lost New Girl

by Lostreadergirl 5/5/2015

written by Lostreadergirl

I am the outcast. I always feel like no one will notice if I am gone. When I go to high school I feel so trapped then I go home and I feel extremely alone. I never feel like I belong anywhere. There are moments where I came so close to committing suicide just I get scared. I get scared because what if I do it and it isn’t any better on the other side what if I am even more alone. My family life just is terrible and my school life is so much worse. I have to pretend to be someone I am […]

5/5/2015 2 comments

Going on to go on…

by Pretend Girl 5/1/2015

written by Pretend Girl

I am so upset at a friend. I am upset with me more. I am estranged from another friend. We’ve had a long time conflict and she does not listen to me. I finally have cut ties- almost formally. I mean, we talked and she said one thing- no I won’t talk about it. Okay. I can’t accept it but what can I do? Nothing.

THIS is what my depression is. I am estranged from my mother and father. I live far away from everyone. I am tired. I want to GO! BUT…

But I don’t want to die feeling this. I don’t want my last feeling […]

5/1/2015 2 comments

Do I look OK for you?

by pasdespoir 4/27/2015

written by pasdespoir

“Are you OK?”

I’m sick of hearing this question. No, obviously I’m not OK. But this doesn’t mean that I’m ready to share whatever is killing me with you.

I’m purposeless. I’m lost. I’m continuously crying. I’m craving for some love. I’m craving for someone who just makes me feel home.

But I don’t get this. I only get strange cold stares from people I meet everyday because I have to. I see the pity in their eyes. I can almost feel it filling the room whenever I walk by.

I just want to vanish and recreate a life of mine, a total new one, where no one would […]

4/27/2015 2 comments

london trains

by Ali 4/26/2015

written by Ali

okay I live in london and obvs I’m not gonna say where but um lately every time I take the train, I have the biggest feeling to just jump and end it all. I have been like this for ages and this feeling is getting stronger but I think the only thing that is stopping me is the fact that if I jump there will be a huge delay in the trains and I don’t want to disturb other people and their journeys. But even then, I’m too scared to do it myself and I need a push. I have decided that my death HAVE […]

4/26/2015 3 comments

I don’t understand

by justagirl777 4/18/2015

written by justagirl777

I don’t understand why sometimes I wake up feeling ok and other times I wake up and I don’t want to get out of bed…I sleep for 10 hours and still feel tired. I no longer get joy out of my appearance. I hide it as much as can because my boyfriend puts up with so much, with my panic attacks and anxiety. We try to rate how much I hate myself daily on a scale of 1-10. I live in fear of when he will leave me, because who could love an empty shell. I don’t understand why he hasn’t left me, I have […]

4/18/2015 3 comments

Why does this it happen to me?

by Depressed._.person 3/31/2015

written by Depressed._.person

So, I need help. I don’t know why I live anymore. My dad has been abusing me and bullying me since forever. Whenever I get picked up from him on weekends he just abuses me and calls me a failure. And compares me to everyone else as if I am not good. Now my best friend that I thought we shared everything in common with supposably thinks I’m lying because he boyfriend lied to her about something and of course girls choose their boyfriends. And the thing is she told me to change. And now she ended the friendship with me. By growing up I […]

3/31/2015 4 comments

a last time confession

by meepmeep 3/25/2015

written by meepmeep

This is my last time writing this to someone because I’m ending myself. Nothing seems worth living for except a few things, which are not yet here with me. What are those things? Having my first child. Having my first relationship. Drinking coconut juice, very refreshing. Anyways, here is my pouring out thoughts of you: I still think about you every day. I’m quite sure it’s not the same for you. But I wouldn’t know. Though you could say I’m still in love with you, I don’t consider I am, in fact, I feel I’m near over you. ‘We loved with a love that was […]

3/25/2015 3 comments

I don’t want to die

by BillyW 3/6/2015

written by BillyW

I don’t want to die. I don’t. I want a normal, happy life so bad. But I know that I will never have one. I’m 45, divorced, no children, unemployed for 2 years, My career is over. I live with my mom. I’m beyond lonely. Women won’t have anything to do with me. My money is gone. I wake up every morning scared to death. Any hope at salvaging a normal life is gone. I purchased a gun yesterday with the last money I had. God help me!! I’m so scared!!!!!

3/6/2015 3 comments

I found my perfect girl. She didn’t.

by ppcforpaperclip 2/26/2015

written by ppcforpaperclip

We are on different sides on the globe. She agreed to let me fly to her place for a few days. After that I learned I’m unloved, as usual.

She’s suicidal and have emotional problems. But she has an interesting life and all sorts of exciting experience. I have nothing.

I’m 25 years old and I’ve never been in a long relationship.

I have a stable 9-6 job. I have a master degree. I have good friends and family. I’ve always been a good student, employee, friend, and daughter. I excel in many areas but romantic life.

Don’t fucking ask me to just focus on other areas in life […]

2/26/2015 9 comments

Thirteen Minutes to Midnight

by Matt 2/25/2015

written by Matt

As I write this it is 23:47. 13 minutes until midnight.

The clock begins again in 13 minutes.

Life begins anew in 13 minutes.

It is 23:47 where he is.

It is 23:47 where she is.

It is 23:47 where they all are.

The last connection we have is time.

Time will always bind us together, until one of us slips outside of it’s domain.

In 13 minutes the day in which I die could begin.

In 13 minutes the day in which I live could begin.

I wonder what they will spend the next 13 minutes doing.

Are they dreaming? Or are they awake?

Are they dreaming of me?

In 13 minutes these thoughts will be the […]

2/25/2015 2 comments

Well this is me..

by James. 2/18/2015

written by James.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MK5dHqXCLbo

Well I just joined this site.. I read a few different stories and figured I’d write one myself.. I am 21 years old I have my own house and I live with my dog. I have severe depression issues. I find it hard to keep going through life knowing I will never amount to anything. I consider myself a decent guy I don’t get angry or violent I just kinda say or do whatever I have to to get through the day. Every day for the past 6 or 7 years I’ve thought about death. Even now I’m just thinking what is stopping me from […]

2/18/2015 3 comments

this is the end

by hangseok123 2/9/2015

written by hangseok123

Looking for partners who would like to end it with me together. A suicide pact. I live in nj and can’t travel. So you must be able to come to me. Email me at alexlee94@outlook.com to discuss.

2/9/2015 6 comments

I dont know what to do

by Nela 2/1/2015

written by Nela

I haven’t slept properly in days, I keep throwing up everything I eat, I’m having panic attacks. I live with my boyfriend and he’s sitting in the lounge laughing with his friend, he doesn’t know if he wants to be with me or not just making it worse. I have no-one to talk too nowhere to go all I keep imagining is how to kill myself. I’ve taken drugs they dont work. I just want to die. All I want is not to feel so empty. I just need someone.

2/1/2015 17 comments

hitting the hurdles

by tphg 1/13/2015

written by tphg

I used to be so good at the charade of living (going to work, paying my bills, staying fed, keeping up appearances etc). Now, every moment is a fight. I have no will to maintain my life anymore. Being at work feels like a joke. I want to jump in front of a train, but instead, I ride it to the office everyday. Why? So that I can maintain my lifestyle until I die.

I frigging hate living! Oh my god! Every moment feels like gravel in my bloodstream. I spend most of my waking hours doing things I’d rather not be doing, and the rest […]

1/13/2015 4 comments

Living in the “Nowhere”

by Voidt 1/4/2015

written by Voidt

The nowhere, is a place that does and doesn’t exists. Like most things, it’s in the mind; but it’s lives in every moment of your life. A special kind of void/emptiness exists in the Nowhere. Void is emptiness itself, Nowhere, is full of emptiness. all it’s emptiness stops you in your path, then diverts you into another road that is leads to another “emptiness”. Like the the universe, the emptiness is endless, unlimited, vast and unrestrained. And like the universe, it’s full of chaos, and only chaos. You want it to be more like the universe that has stars, planets and at least one planet […]

1/4/2015 0 comment

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