Hey i really need somebody to start travelling with full time, backbacker style. I live in montreal, so if you live in canada and are interested, really serious, hit me up and we can laugh, cry, exchange, travel and live together for a while. zamilee1@gmail.com for any info about me and talking about how we’ll organise our meeting! I don’t bite! I won’t say my life story here, so please write to me !!! I am so sick of this place and need to get away from this 🙁
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hello . this my first comment on this site. where to begin . well things are not good atm. I’ve no prospects. bad luck with money . no chance in hell getting into college so there goes my dream job of being a web developer . combined with the fact I’ve an awful case of dyspraxia which means I struggle with simple tasks. I’m 24 years old living a nightmare everyday. I struggle everyday afraid of what this year will bring. I see death as an answer . I tried to hang my self back in 08 but fucked it up of […]
So for about three years I’ve always wanted to kill myself, the thought never goes away, I tried everything to get it out of my head but nothing works..I feel like I’ve hit rock bottom, feels like I’m locked up in chains
please, how do I get this feeling away, how do I live a happier live witbout the consumption of poisons into my body, I’m lohelp my mind is slowing dying, my soul slowly vanishing, please help.
Contemplating suicide for the longest time, but the more I live, the more I yearn to die. Being human just sucks! If I were young, everyone would be concerned and talk me out of it right? But I am a senior. Now, you are not concerned and don’t give a damn right?
I am currently cleaning house. Purging my belongings. No one notices. No one cares. Good.
I am 15, I live in a house with my mum, my brother and my mothers partner, recently my mother had a baby, but that doesn’t sound so bad, however, earlier in life I was diagnosed with aspergers, and everything went to hell, this was before my mother met her partner, but anyway, after that I knew that I wouldn’t be able to have what every other teenager could have, and my mother seemed to know that too and is personally trying to ruin my life, ever since she heard that I was diagnosed she started treating me like a baby, I had less privileges […]
It’s so hard to get someone to understand you. It rips your soul apart when the look of incomprehension shows up. I have only just wanted some help and care. But I guess that’s a luxury that I won’t ever have.
I live like a zombie. My soul is dead. My emotions are dead. I have no passion. I just want to end this.
Frozen In Time.
Keeping everything to myself is how I live. I want to change.
I no longer care if I live or die. Nothing matters much anymore. Not sure if this is good or bad, just really a fact I guess
Well this its my story on how my life is only getting worse And more painful. My name is Matthew and I live in Nelson new Zealand I am 14 years old and am year 10 at Nayland college.
It started around term 3 last year and till this day my life has been torture. In class of I bend over to Tie up my sore laces I get shoved over. If I’m doing sport they spare tackle me from behind. If I sit out to try Getty a break but they say get up and.play you fat Cont. Btw I weigh 78 kg. Every […]
Wow. I almost forgot what it was like to be alone. I forgot how gut-wrenchingly horrifying it is. How it eats you from the inside out. boyfriend hast talked to me in over two weeks. We see each other all the time, and I try to talk to him, but it’s like we don’t know how anymore. I’m not going to be able to keep this up. All of my friends have been getting mad at me because I fuck things up all the time. My best friend though, is still there. She’d never leave…right? My only other actual friend is a guy in my […]
That’s all I fucking do. Why am I here? Because I have to take care of my Mother, because I don’t want to upset my brother. And what happens when I tell my brother how I feel? He uses my niece as an emotional bargaining chip. ‘Oh,’ he says, ‘don’t you want to stay alive to see her grow up?’
He doesn’t get it. How could he? It’s his fault I feel this way. The beatings, the emotional abuse, the sense of powerlessness and just being trapped. I’m 26 and I don’t feel alive, I never had a childhood or a real life, I’m just the […]
I Â hate my life.
i hate myself.
i hate the feeling of being alone.
I hate that life is a beautiful lie and that death is a hideous truth.
i hate that I want to die
I hate the world I live in.
i hate that I want to love .
i hate me , myself, and I.
i hate that I love someone who doesn’t love me back.
i hate that I am the way I am.
i hate that I want to be happy.
i hate that I love to […]
I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour
But heaven knows I’m miserable now
I was looking for a job, and then I found a job
And heaven knows I’m miserable now
In my life
Why do I give valuable time
To people who don’t care if I live or die ?
Two lovers entwined pass me by
And heaven knows I’m miserable now
I was looking for a job, and then I found a job
And heaven knows I’m miserable now
In my life
Oh, why do I give valuable time
To people who don’t care if I live or die ?
What she asked of me at […]
The poison of society is so severe, I’m willing to kill myself to escape.
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I am a male, still young, but I am most likely older than you probably think.
I live in America, this is a place were greed, lies, and aggressiveness have overcome the values of health, happiness, and peace. I am not referring to just the politics, I am referring to everyone. I cannot turn my head without witnessing bullying, toxic addicting foods, absolutely no leadership offered by those who were elected into government positions, and general soon-to-be facism. I hate this place. Currently, I have no friends or caring family, I can’t feel happiness, and I am constantly restless. I feel like I am being sucked dry […]
Since my Mom was killed due to doctor error two years ago I haven’t been able to string together three good weeks. My own health problems increased and I live like a shut-in. Only going to work and coming home and doing basic tasks. I recently had 3 decent days. 3 days where I didn’t wish for a painless death. That ended Monday. My never ending problems cropped up again. My face is damaged. The doctors can’t help and often create more damage. I have to get my Will done but I can’t even do that now with my current problems. I have the forms […]
The longer I live, the more I can’t help but think about how everything has the same fate. There’s a beginning, middle and end. From a term in school, a job, relationship, trip to the doctor’s office and even life. Nothing is forever, but plenty of things appear like they should last that long.
Life is composed of all these short lived events. One after another. They all bring different emotions. I want to know which ones are the best experiences that make you want to hang on for another chapter of life?,
I am haunted by ghosts of my past
past failures and mistakes
Failures and mistakes that makes my future dark
I am scared to live
I am scared to enjoy what is good
I am scared that it will end like my past
how do I brake these chains that’s holding me back
how do I brake free from these ghosts that’s haunting me
how do I live again???????
All men are mortal
Some men die old from age
Some men die of their own choosing to escape the hardship of life
Some men are murdered
and some men die courageously for their own principles
I hope to be one of these to die as I live; courageously
I dug myself a hole of depression. Now I’m stuck, so the only thing left to do is keep on digging and see where it leads. Well I found where it leads, in a girl from somewhere and a guy from somewhere.
Suicide- according to them is the answer; end result or whatever you want to call it. However, I live in fear of the day I’m told I’m going to die. Ironic, considering I want it most in the world some times.
Of coarse everyday I tell myself and numerous others that I’m “fine”. Which I am. I mean there is literally no other word to […]
I’m confused on whether I want to commit or live.
If I live, there is that possibility that life will be how I want it to be in the future, but it could tyrn out shitty like it is now.
If I just commit, it’ll be over.
I won’t have to suffer and struggle anymore.
I just, there are SO MANY positives and negatives with both.
I can never really see my future, when I try to it’s like “Yeah, I’m already gone so..”
BUT when I plan on attempting, I realize I’ll miss the videos my favourite youtubers make
I’ll miss listening to new […]