This is my first post so bear with me if i make a mistake. My name is Curtis, Im 14 year old male and this is my story. My parents split when i was 3 and i never thought much about it and when i reached Grade 4 my dad came back into my life. I was so happy i couldn’t believe it i missed him so much. After a year and a bit it was October of my Grade 5 yead and it was my weekend to see my father. When i arrived i went to my room to sleep cuz it was late […]
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Heres my story i just need to talk to someone.
I will be 24 years old in a few weeks. I have lost everything. The love of my life left me 5 months ago. Im in so much pain but thats not even the start! It was all my fault she left. I have been hurt by 2 girls in the past i didnt open up my heart to this one soon enough! I was scared to get hurt again! I took her for granted and put my freinds first. Because i felt the would be the ones here for me in the end. I have […]
I think about how life can be. And to tell you mylife story its going to be a hell of a ride.
it began when i was only 6 yrs of age n my brother interfer with me. N wen i was 10 my father die. 13yrs my two sisters die n my mum die wen i was 15. But it didnt stop there my bother keeps on interfering with me until i was 17 n pregant . Then i ran away from bein abuse but he found me n beat me. Wen i make my girl child i was scared of what he might do. […]
i have been suicidal since i was honestly 8 but i had to take care of my mother and now shes fine and i want to finally fufill my wish to die but i dont know if i could do it alone or at all, i keep hoping things are going to get better but they never do, am i crazy? i dont know but if anyone in the texas area is looking for a possible suicide partner im here. i keep switching between wanting to do it and looking foward i need somone to do it with me for me to be able to […]
My father shot himself on December 27th 2007 i was 12 its been seven and a half years since that day. Every day i wake up and wonder why what could’ve possessed him to do it. What could i have done to stop it was it my fault was i not good enough for him.
On the 4th of July I relapsed. I’ve been struggling with self-harming for almost 6 years and drugs for almost 3. My mom’s been having problems with her boyfriend of 5 years and has been trying to get him out of our lives since he does drugs and only thinks about himself, so on the 4th that was the first time we’ve seen him in a month? So he was trying to act like everything was ok, but he drank a 6 pack and started acting stupid like always, so we went to go drop him off. They argued the whole way… was feeling really […]
yesterday I failed a test at school and was not suprised, I stayed positive and told myself I’ll pass it next time. I had a huge argument with my parents and my positive state of mind quickly turned to deppresion…I spent the whole day just lying in bed, thinking…why do my parents yell at me? why can’t they just say something nice instead of making me feel like I embarras them? I’m being treated like i was a mistake, like I don’t even matter to them. maybe I don’t…Today I woke up rested and despite everything I tried to be happy. I came into the kitchen […]
Hello all i beleive by the time you read this it will be to late so im just writing this for my family and ill leave it up so they can see. Ive finally reached the edge ive been battling depression and suividde since i was 13/14 years old and attempted it for the first time when i was 13 but i was not able to go through with it im 21 now i have streaches of good and bad but this year has really been it for me i recently moved back to my small hometown about 2 yrs ago after being away for […]
you can call me G,and i will tell you more about me,i am 24 male
and live on a third world country called brasil,being born in the 90’s and stuff i was used to talk with more smart people
the way they dress,talk and walk back then was completly different,crime was “rarer” compared to today,200.000 prisoners in 99 and 600,000 in 2015,you could walk on streets at night without being afraid of being assaulted,killed nor raped
maybe i am overreacting,just because i was a kid things maybe looked different back then or not,but for me things really changed,all this sudden change in the […]
Hi (again),
This is my first post since the one I made somewhere in Octobre 2014, where i said i’d probably kill myself on Sunday. My brothers suicide, loneliness, school, stress and general depression were wrecking me.
Needless to say, i didn’t succeed. Alot has happened since then. Ah, where do i even start?
Okay so things were shit then (still are now so that’s stayed the same) and i felt very very very suicidal. My self harming had gotten pretty bad and i was making solid plans of killing myself.
I never mentioned this, but somewhere around a year ago i developped an eating […]
I mean i’ ve never done this before,”speak in public”. The only thing i ve ever said in public was a druken “just stitch me up and let me go home,i need some sleep”. Yes i attemped a suicide 2 years ago only to find out that i was far more messed up than i thought. I will spare you the details.
This is more of a desperate move, i actually don’t want to talk, but the whole idea,and site which i found looking for the right,or wrong, dose of sleeping pills,distacted me so… I have gone really far since then. I got into a […]
I am starting to realize how down hill im going. I no longer feel the hope that i use to force myself to feel. Things use to seem beautiful to me, even when they went wrong. Now i feel as though i have no limits. No limits on substances or how much pain i will willing take on to myself. I dont have boundaries anymore. i dont have any typical eating disorder but i had so much built up anxiety i was going days without eating, i was weak and sad but physically didnt want food. I have the same thoughts of the same things […]
Things are just getting worse and worse, never better.
I’m sick of it and i am done.
So fucking done.
I am lizzy, a 32 years old woman.one month back, I had a good job.i was happy with my life and job.everything was fair and well, until a good looking guy joined my office on a high rank and started liking(?) me for no reason.most of my female colleagues ( married and unmarried)fell for him except me.when they found he was paying attention to me, they become furious and started to misbehave.
Last month i had to resign from my job for their grudge.i lost my job just because of him,inspite of being a prized employee.now i am jobless,tried many places but failed.that divorce awaiting guy now […]
for a number of years i have felt depressed suicidal i lost mum i was 21 then after went on a downward spiral lost my partner my kids because things got out of control i lost mum and i was just a mess i lost everything i ever live for, but can never find an easy way i have taken many overdoses have self harmed and i agree with some people on here totally that for some of us there is no way out we cant change our mind frame we dont see a light at the end of the tunnel maybe i will keep […]
Im not well, i suffer for bipola-disorder and last tuesday i had my first mental breakdown in over two years i was so scared but i had nobody there i contacted my fiance but she had just finnished work and said she was going out with her colleuges we didnt talk after this really till monday when she confessed 3 things …
– She has sexual feelings towards a co-worker. And it he asked on the tuesday night she would have gone home with him.
– When down town she gets alot of attention and she likes it.
– She made out with her assistant […]
i had a dream last night
i dreamt that i had died in my sleep and my spirit was standing by my dead body.
my mom came in to wake me up for school. she kept shaking and shaking me to get up.
i tried to tell her i died but she couldnt hear me.
when she realised i had passed she started to cry and my brother came in and cried too cause my mom told him what happened.
and i felt bad for leaving them so i stayed with them forever until they died.
but i couldnt go with them because i missed my chance so i was stuck […]
It’s been some time since I last was here. Sometimes I just disappear for a while without telling anyone. Like a rabbit down in the rabbit hole. It’s comfortable, disappearing at once, for an unknown period of time. People don’t like me doing that, but sometimes I need that air I can only breathe underground, here and now.
Here i am back in a psych unit… I saw my therapist on Tuesday and i was too honest with her. So now i get to spend a week in here! I really hope it’s only a week because I’ve got to finish off my last preparations before June 11th. wish me luck people
This is your captain speaking. jk its actually “londi” a.k.a. the bestie of “Freeman”
umm i hacked into this website cuz i caught her looking at this nd i was like … dafuq ? then she tried to trick me with the password shit but i caught her ass. well i just wanted to let all of you ppl commenting that I’m thankful that you guys take the time to respond back to all of this stuff she posts. I hope you guys can understand what some ppl are going thru and Im glad that you are trying to help ppl get through this tough shit.