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ALL HAIL THE MANTIS SHRIMP

by scarsareforever 1/3/2015

written by scarsareforever

Hello, I am death. Aren’t I beautiful? I will cure all your problems in one quick move.

All you need to do is look and see. I am dazzling. Nothing compares to me. Have you tried talking to family, friends? Have you tried medication? Therapists? Have you tried getting your life in order? Have you done all you can but all still fails and you are left with grave regrets. Does your past haunt you? Is it impossible to move on? Is there no hope for the future?

When life is endless pain, and it seems there is no […]

1/3/2015 1 comment

My only way out

by flipnflap 12/16/2014

written by flipnflap

I lived alone with my brothers while my parents are living outside of country for 5 years. I miss the total privacy I had before doing all these attemps.. I used to lock my door and no one would even ask me why I did and I really miss that for a reason that partial suspension is my only way out.. could’ve taken all the time I want in my room to do it and get done with it with my room locked but I ruined this chance for myself.. I’ve done other attempts, ***** attempts (with pills) and now that my mom lives with […]

12/16/2014 7 comments

Ready to check out

by WiltedRoses88 11/5/2014

written by WiltedRoses88

I have been ready to “check out” if you will for the last fourteen years of my life. I feel that I have so much to say but have lost the desire to speak. The only reason that I am still here is because I can’t muster the strength to try again due to the fear of not being successful. I wish there were a way to put my worries at ease although I know that is an impossible need to fulfill.

11/5/2014 2 comments

psycho’s .. impossible for fairy tales

by psychoticbip 10/22/2014

written by psychoticbip

Cinderella , Sleeping beauty , Little mermaid , Snow White.. these are the princesses who get a happily ever after. What about my story? Can someone tell me about the evil psychotic bi polar disoriented Witch who still finds a prince charming who finds her worthy?

10/22/2014 4 comments

by natecat 9/24/2014

written by natecat

What’s the point of suicidal thoughts if they won’t ever be translated into action? They’re just torturous. Getting better looks like a giant, long, leaking tunnel- almost impossible to move through. Yet death isn’t an option. How do you remedy this?

9/24/2014 4 comments

Can someone make me brain dead so I can donate my organs

by DC001 9/14/2014

written by DC001

From what I’ve read the whole seven pounds scenario is nearly impossible to pull off. I’m looking for a volunteer to make me brain dead through strangulation. My goal is to save as many lives as I can. I want to die, but I want to try doing some good with my death. Obviously we can’t communicate via electronic means so finding alternate means I guess is the best method. I figure if I can pull this off I can save some lives by my death. The U.S should allow people who want to die and want to donate their organs to do so in […]

9/14/2014 7 comments

Unlovable?

by Kailee3 9/11/2014

written by Kailee3

I feel like my heart has just been stomped on, how could you tell someone you want to fix everything. It makes absoultely no sense to me how you could tell someone you still love them but you go off with their old best friends? It’s like you never even loved me as you said you did. Like why did i even have to care for you? Maybe i wasn’t meant to be loved by someone. I have this thing of giving people to many chances & I’ve now realized it, maybe it’s because I want to see the good in that person. Yet they […]

9/11/2014 2 comments

Gone

by emptyalways 9/3/2014

written by emptyalways

“Here comes goodbye, here comes the last time, here comes the start of every sleepless night, the first of every tear I’m gonna cry…”

Two months ago you were here.. and two months ago you died. Out of nowhere, and my heart has never felt so much pain. I keep trying to understand and I just don’t.. & I hate that I don’t.. This pain is unbearable. You were my best friend, my very best friend who knew every little thing about me and now you’re gone. We shared a connection no one understood and we loved each other so much. I can’t believe it would’ve […]

9/3/2014 1 comment

What am I meant to do?

by TishToshTash89 8/21/2014

written by TishToshTash89

So… I really don’t know where to start or what I’m even meant to say… My head is so full of racing thoughts that I can’t even work out what the thoughts are, they’re just a complete mess. I don’t want this anymore, I don’t want to live like this. I’ve tried so hard to beat it but I can’t fight anymore, I’m pretty sure fighting with your own mind is impossible anyway? I feel like there’s nothing left to do… I just desperately need to end this, I need to hurry up and do it. I just wish that this guilt wouldn’t stop me/ […]

8/21/2014 5 comments

Im ready to die

by Infectious208 8/5/2014

written by Infectious208

So, if any of you have been following any of my posts, Im going through a horrible time with losing my girls. I took over some lime skittles (almost impossible to find now and they were her favorite), a barbie for my little girl, and a card with some cash for her to use on whatever. I left them on her doorstep this morning and said in the card, “you dont need to call or text and thank me, I just want you to know I care and am thinking about you”

She sent me an email this morning that said, “I received your gifts on […]

8/5/2014 15 comments

Easy does it

by tbd 8/2/2014

written by tbd

I’m feeling really defective right now.

I went to a special “designer” research hospital in New York last month. Today, the super bill came with the diagnosis codes. I haven’t received their final report yet, but one of the diagnoses has sort of kicked me in the gut and I don’t feel like I can talk with any family member about it lest they throw it in my face.

It has to do with cognitive impairment which can arise from head trauma or prolonged medical treatments. Full recovery is rare. I guess you’d have to see what I have trouble with now, compared […]

8/2/2014 15 comments

Pointless

by itstilltoday 7/31/2014

written by itstilltoday

maybe it’s just me, it seems like more and more I’m thinking of how I could kill myself, each passing hour is another hour of pain. sometimes I don’t even know what exactly depressed about, I just know I am. I found this site by mistake by searching ‘how to commit suicide painlessly,’ but apparently that’s impossible. I’ve thought about shooting myself but the odds of actually dyeing are slim; and I just cant bring myself to it. I have also thought about cutting it’s supposed to help. right? I just don’t know what to do anymore, it feels like I’m literally living just for […]

7/31/2014 1 comment

Running out of options

by Rsguy3 7/28/2014

written by Rsguy3

I’ve thought it about for a long time and I’ve decided that I do want to end it. The problem is finding a method that is feasible for me and also reliable. I don’t have access to massive amounts of sleeping pills (and that doesn’t seem to work either). A helium bag seems like the next option but I don’t know where to purchase the materials. Hanging is impossible in the dorm I’m in. The only sure way is by shooting myself but I can’t find a place to purchase a gun. I read a post by another college student on here who said he […]

7/28/2014 4 comments

Dear Friend

by not here 6/30/2014

written by not here

I’m two days late. And a year late. It doesn’t matter to you but it does to me and I’m sorry. A lot has happened, but little has changed. I still miss you. A lot. I don’t think about you enough, it makes me too sad when I do. I wish I did though, it’s worth it to keep the thoughts of you fresh. It was nice to see your parents again today, it always is. I hope that they’re doing okay, as impossible as it may seem. I don’t want to say too much this year, I’m already having enough difficulty as it is. […]

6/30/2014 0 comment

Life without blithering assholes

by nozmoking 6/24/2014

written by nozmoking

How much better would life be without having to deal with mindless, narcissistic and self absorbed assholes? As if I don’t have enough shit sandwiches to eat every day, I have these useless bastards in my life that live for one and only one reason – to force everyone around them to kiss their asses. They never lose any sleep over unpaid bills or potential home foreclosure. They don’t ever get scraped up off the floor in the middle of the night and hauled to the Emergency Room because their lungs stop working. They don’t worry about how to get to work when their car […]

6/24/2014 0 comment

Faking Happiness? Oh, and I picked a date.

by elliecats 6/5/2014

written by elliecats

Has anyone had any success faking being happy? If so, I want to hear your ideas…. PLEASE.Â Iwork at this job that I don’t like at all and I am so depressed that it is getting hard to get up each day.Â But, I MUST appear happy at work. Our company serves these rich people and you must be nicey-nice and kissy-butt all of the time.Â I MUST be cheerful, sunny and bright, no matter how terrible or tired I feel.

I know I’m walking around with this stupid, fake goddamn smile pasted on my face, but I risk losing my job if I do not. […]

6/5/2014 2 comments

The World is a Prison

by Black_Heart2001 6/5/2014

written by Black_Heart2001

Drowning in the despair of my mind,

peace of soul I cannot find.

Demons are raging inside of me,

break my cage and set me free.

Trapped in a vicious game called life,

Sending only pain, loss, and strife.

Maybe one day I can leave this place,

I will be gone, without a trace.

I have no one to leave behind,

free of the war inside my mind.

We wanted to live not suffer,

All our hopes and dreams were smothered.

Weâ€™re all living, quietly bleeding,

suffering here, painfully breathing.

Nothing to live for, nothing to lose,

years and years of constant abuse,

All […]

6/5/2014 0 comment

by dead 6/4/2014

written by dead

If you can’t trust your own mind, can you really trust anything at all? I live in complete uncertainty, I can’t rely on myself or my own feelings. I constantly feel a whole bunch of nothing, or a whole bunch of everything. One day I’ll be head over heals for someone, and without warning I’ll wake up the next day and the only thing I feel for them is completely platonic, strictly friendly. The only thing I’ve found that feels right in this galaxy of wrong is completely impossible, a slap in the face. I vow never to have feelings for anyone, so why am […]

6/4/2014 2 comments

my life as i know it

by whereareyouolga 5/21/2014

written by whereareyouolga

I have difficulties expressing myself through writing. so I’m just gonna do it like this.

– I panic inside my body cause I feel claustrophobic. My body aches all the time and I have a constant headache and chest ache.

= I. just. want. out.

– I have no interest in a future what so ever. I don’t want to study, meet new people or get married and have kids. I have not had a moment in years and years that I could feel happiness and joy.

– I am not interested in anything. No hobbies that can take my away from the pain just for a […]

5/21/2014 2 comments

First Day…

by SuicidalProcess 5/19/2014

written by SuicidalProcess

… registeredÂ here. So far hasn’t been so bad other than that cluster fuck that caused me to register in the first place. See, we can all be kind to each other when we want to. Maybe, maybe it’s just my inability to get pissed off anymore that I wonder why others get so mad over silly things so easily. But I do appreciate the hospitality youÂ allÂ haveÂ shown me since I announced my pressence hereÂ on SP. Good Vibrations to you all, and may you be able to wade through the shit in your lives andÂ travel the extreme dissonanceÂ you need to trek through to have a better life. […]

5/19/2014 0 comment

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