Does anyone here feel like they’ve lost their way? Â Six years ago I had it all – just graduated and landed a great well paid job, nice house and wonderful partner. Â I now find myself jobless, single and lonely, and back living with my parents. Â I’ve never felt so alone and vulnerable. Â All my friends are progressing with their lives, getting married and having kids, whilst I’m regressing into someone I don’t even recognise. Â I hardly socialise anymore, it just makes me feel worse. Â I’m really scared of the future. Â I know that if I continue as I am doing there’s only one way to […]
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I canceled my next appointment with my shrink. I feel as if I’ve given up on myself already. I started cutting again and it feels amazing to wake up from such blankness. That apathy, mind over matter. However, the tolerance is already building; fast this time. I’m already running the cuts under hot water for the extra wake up sensation.
What is it about our society that makes us fear and hate death so much? We are brainwashed, conditioned to value life and disapprove of death.
Maybe it’s because we are born selfish and our actions are primarily done in self interest. For example, let’s say I […]
can anyone help me.  I took an overdose a few months ago and wish I had died. I keep thinking about killing myself and then give myself more time hoping it will all be ok soon.
My husband got the sack from his job through something really stupid and he wrote a statement admitting it (foolishly) and I can’t get this out of my head that he would still have a job. I told him not to do it but he wouldn’t listen. I think about this every day and the only way I can see to rid myself of these thoughts is to kill myself […]
I was a pretty popular man in High School. Most people seemed to know and like me. But, 3 years after in a month, I’ve gone nowhere. No job, no school. I’m an aspiring writer but don’t know how that’s gonna work out. I guess the saying’s maybe somewhat true after all that the popular kids don’t do well after high school. I wasn’t mean to people unless I felt they were mean first so I wasn’t one of the stereotypical popular people in school. I also did feel suicidal 95% of 2008 and occasionally do this year. Thank GOD not to that extent though. […]
I am a 39 year old female, who has worked hard my whole life and up till a few years ago could not have been prouder of where I was, and how far I had came. I have never been in trouble with the law, and have been with my husband for over 20 years, and could never think of life any other way. Till 3 years ago. I had a siezure. I had not had any health problems at all before that, but after that first one, I had 3 more within 2 months. After many, many different doctors, we never found out why. […]
First I want to thank everyone for their replies to my 3 prior posts. Thank your for your time and concern, we are all loving, worthy beings who are joined by our pain and plight to regain our joy! This is part of a conversation I had with a dear friend of mine, who was also suicidal. I was explaining to him about an interview I had recently with an elderly gentleman who had been suicidal in his 50s. This is an excerpt of the conversation, but it makes so much sense, and it is true for all of us. The first part is just […]
I am 30 now. I was thinking a lot about suicide since I was a teenager, but i never tried it, all I did was cutting myself.
I always thought this sadness and lonelyness inside me would go away, but it just didn’t.
When i was 21 i was in therapy for a while and I stopped cutting myself after that, moved abroad and started school. But the sadness always stayed with me.
I graduated from school, I am an artist and in school i was really good, but now it’s of course very difficult. That’s probably how it is for everybody, but i don’t have the strength […]
I grew up with a mentally ill mother. She had dissosociative personallity disorder – it isn’t well known, but you have heard of its first cousin, multiple personality disorder. As a result, my entire life was a crisis – living in a home where even the slightest mistake in your wording could send your mother into a suicidal tailspin made me learn to turn all my negative feelings on myself (as a child, hating myself was always far easier than being blamed for a dissosociative episode or a suicide attempt – and, yes, she did directly blame me for some). I’ve been trying, in my […]
i’m suicidal all the time. it’s always on my mind. i’ve only made one “serious” attempt that got me in the hospital, but i’m scared of asking people for help and i’ve made dozens of mini-attempts (that no one knows about) or put myself in risky situations countless times. i just wish i could die already. i’m scared of what comes after death (i’m agnostic, i don’t have a particular belief because i don’t know.) but i’m scared of what living will bring me as well..
my story is not particularly abnormal or interesting. rejected by a drug abusing father, raped at 18, kicked out of […]
It saddens me to see these young kids considering suicide as an option. You have a long time left to live and you’ve got rampant hormones. You need to ride it out and see what the future provides.
Sadly I have seen what the future provided and now that I’m 45, I’m not sure I want to continue. I’m going on my second divorce. I haven’t had a sex life in 20 years. I spent 10 of those years looking for the right woman and 10 of them married to the wrong woman. The prime of my life has passed me by and I got robbed.
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I’ve been this way for years now. Antisocial. Never the popular guy. Kind of a hermit, I keep to myself. I’ve dealt with depression and feelings of suicide before, but they eventually went away. In the last year though, I’ve really gone back downhill. I’m living alone and I lost by job back in December. That kind of deflated me. For the last year, I’ve been employed for maybe five or six months and for the rest of the time I’ve been jobless. Nothing inspires me. Any job I ever work is thankless and uninspiring and I find myself depressed even when I DO have […]