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Kill Myself

Money is happiness…

by sugarcoated 9/21/2017

written by sugarcoated

I am officially screwed.

People say money can’t buy happiness. But it can. And I need money to buy braces, new glasses, for future university tuition, etc.

I just turned 17 and found out that I need to get my wisdom teeth out, get braces, and all that. Overall it will cost around $10k, maybe more. I don’t have that kind of money, and my parents can’t afford it.

I can save a bit of money if I choose to get my wisdom teeth out on a simple dentist chair. But I’ll probably freak out and the surgeons don’t want that so I’ll have to be put to […]

9/21/2017 4 comments

Dead

by Aprilpup 3/9/2016

written by Aprilpup

Can I be dead, is that allowed? can I just die and dispear? I don’t think anyone will notice except my best friend/sister….

3/9/2016 1 comment

Life is not important

by wasd2333 2/13/2016

written by wasd2333

This month, I was a victim of abuse. Twice. No, not “use (something) to bad effect or for a bad purpose; misuse”, it’s “treat with cruelty or violence, especially regularly or repeatedly”. I’ve been abused many times now, but I think this month is the worst.

Abuse story 1:

So, one day I was in class, didn’t finish my work, so I was supposed to stay back for recess, but I didn’t want to. The teacher dragged my collar (I was about 3-5 meters away from the class when this happened) all the way to the classroom door, and threw me. I hit something, so I got […]

2/13/2016 3 comments

Deciding whether to Kill Myself

by whyblah 2/5/2016

written by whyblah

I’m deciding whether to kill myself. I have struggled with depression for a long time. I have seen many therapists, and nothing helps. I couldn’t even get an appointment with a psychiatrist. I had to call for months and I finally got an appointment in another week. I don’t know if I will still be around then.

I talked to the mental health department and told them I was considering killing myself. They said good luck.

The thing is there is nothing really wrong with my life. I don’t have any real hardships besides depression, anxiety, and being fat. My meaning is I don’t have a reason […]

2/5/2016 3 comments

When, fuck, when will it get better??

by breakfastinmymind 8/9/2014

written by breakfastinmymind

I am not done or anything, I think I don’t really want to kill myself, I just find it soothing to have the posibility at hand and I know I would be brave enough to do it. I guess I’ve always been addicted to something, whether it’s a person or a drug or a thought or a fantasie or an action. I’ve had a lot of best friends and I have been addicted to self-harming and alcohol and weed and I just can’t seem to land on reality because I am always daydreaming. Reality has always been a burden to me partly I guess because […]

8/9/2014 0 comment

desire for destruction

by NotReallyHereAtAll 9/1/2012

written by NotReallyHereAtAll

Do you ever get that overwhelming need to destroy everything? And I mean everything, the things you love included. It’s just that right now I want to destroy everything in my life. I’m sort of angry and I don’t know why. I just feel this rage deep inside me that wants to break everything, throw things across the room, tear pages out of books I adore, scream ugly things at people I love, slam doors really loudly and destroy my relationship with my friends and family.
But more than anything I want to destroy myself. Not as a coping method or as the permanent sleep […]

9/1/2012 6 comments

To Fade Away…

by Shelly 5/11/2011

written by Shelly

For me memories are like ghosts that haunt the perimeters of my conscious mind, often making me feel ill at ease when I donâ€™t even know why. The more upsetting memories are like demons that torment me from the depths of my unconscious mind, bringing up flashes of painful experiences when I’m least prepared for it and my defences are down. Both want to fill me with self doubt and self hatred and sap every ounce of confidence I once might have had, to leave me an utterly shattered and blithering wreck in the shambles that my life has become. And yet the more I […]

5/11/2011 8 comments

Im sick and tired of being sick and tired

by ImTired 10/9/2010

written by ImTired

I’m just about finished with my plans to finally go to peaceful sleep.
The doctors, hey they don’t care, never have. Too much in a hurry to see the next dope come in with another fee for them to pay for their swimming pool.

I went to a new doctor who seemed so different, seemed caring. NOT
He told me that all the constipation, pain, spasms of intestines, vertigo, these are just an anxiety attack. Up to then I cared about his diagnosis but after I decided its time to go to that eternal sleeping peace. The place I was before […]

10/9/2010 2 comments

No Easy Answers…

by Shelly 9/20/2010

written by Shelly

Okay so everyone always wants to know what my problem is, why I feel this way or why I seem totally unable to make things better. But for fucks sake they donâ€™t know me, or my history, so they’re in no position to judge! The fact is if they did, theyâ€™d probably understand why I want to die as badly as I do. And trust me it’s such a long, sordid and sad story that half the time I wouldnâ€™t even know where to start or how to explain.Â Sometimes I look at the way my life has turned out and it makes me fume with […]

9/20/2010 14 comments

I want to die!

by jacjacob101 7/24/2009

written by jacjacob101

Im about 13, ive been cutting my self ever sence i was 10.

im deeply depressed,

everyone hates me,

no one loves me for who i am,

people dont look at me for what i am, but what i have done,

i have been beaten when i was little,

ive lost over 50 pounds in a month, just becuz i stoped eating,

peoplel dont belive i will kill my self, i have tryed to multiple times.

i sit in class all day ignored

i dont talk to people

im always getting in trouble

i have thoughts of killing my self and others

i never have done anything for the world yet and i wont,Â people say i […]

7/24/2009 4 comments

Help for a plan to kill myself?

by youngblood 6/26/2009

written by youngblood

I’ve tried to kill myself so hard! In many times. I just wanna die, but I don’t know how. I mean, I need a plan toÂ execute. Make a plan, I don’t know.. Some times life is a fuck contest of status, or beauty.. I can’t see my life better than.. that. My whole life was a fuck lie, and I have never seen one reason to live. I have never a relationship goodness, I don’t have friends, I mean.. I do, but its not the point. Isn’t my life, I don’t have plan for the future, I aways think in die, or something like that.Â I […]

6/26/2009 26 comments