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Goodnight

by safieeatszombies 11/18/2015

written by safieeatszombies

I’ve been here before.

Broken, alone, my heart so sore.

The sadness runs deep

My hill to steep.

My dreams a rumbling nightmare.

And All I can wonder is,

Why should I care.

I’m not in despair.

I just can’t figure out,

If this is fair.

They claim they’re is karma.

The good and the bad.

I should be glad.

You know?

I’ve done many good deeds.

And I should be freed.

Yet, here I am

Sitting in the dark.

Waiting for just a little spark.

A spark of good in life.

Can’t I give up?

This losing fight.

I’m tired of waiting for my light.

I want to sleep.

My last words to be goodnight.

But then I’d be a disappointment.

Like they all claim me to be.

I’m living in […]

11/18/2015 2 comments

Protected: Lonely, raving lunatic.

by whiskered-fish 11/18/2015

written by whiskered-fish

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

11/18/2015 6 comments

Lack of interest

by Salesman 11/15/2015

written by Salesman

I got Fallout 4. I have had it for 4 days now and haven’t played it. I haven’t watched a new movie in … wow I don’t even remember the last movie I watched. Must have been well over a year ago. I have no interest in anything anymore. I did some research and found that it is one of the many symptoms of depression that I definitely have. I will spend an entire weekend doing nothing and then hate myself on monday for wasting it. Anyone else suffering from a complete lack of interest in things you used to be passionate about?

11/15/2015 21 comments

Why do I do this?

by nicole123 11/15/2015

written by nicole123

Last night I got so incredibly drunk.

I was so drunk. I haven’t gotten like that in a while .

i still feel the aftermath now . And I’m going to work I feel like absolute shit .

but last night I was driving home an I wanted to go 100 mph and crash my car into something . I was so sad.

i get so angry and confused and sad.

im going crazy. I’m so tired

11/15/2015 7 comments

Lies!

by disgusting 11/13/2015

written by disgusting

Lies and begging for sympathy!!!

posts a long rant about me trying to make it sound like I’m crazy when I’m hurt by his avoiding me since he moved to the city and has his thin and popular friends around again, yet he will not allow me to post what I feel on facebook!

11/13/2015 33 comments

Strange medical condition – Social outcast

by witheringdaisies 11/13/2015

written by witheringdaisies

Hello. I’m 19 years old. Female. College student. Living with my mom. I just turned 19 last month. People always tell me that I’m young and I have a whole life ahead of me, and I have so much more to achieve. Well, that’s true, but how could I continue living with this weird sickness that causes everyone to avoid me?

It’s not the physical pain that kills me, it’s the emotional pain brought by it. To be honest, I’m embarrassed to even talk about it to my closest friends. I’ve been on this medical forum and realize there are others like me, and […]

11/13/2015 5 comments

i need help

by princessxx 11/12/2015

written by princessxx

I really need some help, i know i posted last night, i dont feel any better, is anyone there?

11/12/2015 70 comments

So what has been happening to me last months?

by Heiwana 11/11/2015

written by Heiwana

Nobody cares but I need to vent.

So after summer vacations and in the first week of school I tried to kill myself 2 times with pills, one of those times I got 3 days in hospital. After that I started medication and got a bit better. The friendship with my “best friend” is now in a strange phase. I made mistakes that I regret, he is really ice cold and has been avoiding me. This hurts so much that I am getting bad again. Actually I am good sometimes and bad other times, like a rollercoaster and the new medication I started this month is […]

11/11/2015 2 comments

Again and again….

by abisslover25 11/11/2015

written by abisslover25

I had several really good days.. Until last night

Today is another day, I can’t shut my brain off, the thoughts circling around in my head I want to die.

Why don’t I just end it because I know how this works, I have a few good days and then they turn bad, very bad. I feel like the good days aren’t even worth living anymore because I never know when my mind is going to switch. I hate everything. I hate living like this. This isn’t a life, it’s just full of pain.

11/11/2015 8 comments

Losing It All At Once

by abgctb14 11/11/2015

written by abgctb14

Hello all, this is my first post..and it just so happens that I am a horrible writer. But, here goes. I am 19 years of age. My birthday is a month away. I’m not even excited about it. The one thing that I looked forward to everyday was waking up to see the love of my life. But ever since last year, depression has had a toll on both of us…we have a beautiful 9 month old son. He is my everything. I just can’t imagine my life without his dad. Last year around Christmas, it was he who tried to commit suicide. […]

11/11/2015 2 comments

Suffering

by disgusting 11/10/2015

written by disgusting

I briefly saw the post today about wishing you had cancer, and have seen people here before talk about how unfair it is that those who want to die are perfectly healthy while people who have it all do die.

That’s sort of what a friend of mine has been going through for a long time lately. This friend doesn’t want to die and isn’t suicidal. He’s the 13 yr old gay kid I met when I was 18 and took on as my kid brother. Even though I haven’t seen him in about 18 years, he is and always will be my brother, blood or […]

11/10/2015 5 comments

Beginning of my Anxiety

by InhalingAnxiety 11/5/2015

written by InhalingAnxiety

Warning: This is extremely long, wordy, and unimportant.

I was just thinking.. Where did my anxiety come from? I used to be extremely outgoing. What happened?

11/5/2015 4 comments

Advice needed

by itsme3 11/2/2015

written by itsme3

Hi fellow members,

I’ve been depressed for a couple of years now and never taken any action. Because I always thought I’ll handle it and it will pass over.

Last weekend I had a total breakdown and did things I totally regret. I have decided to seek help locally, I have been given numbers of a couple of counselors. At the moment I’m abroad for work purposes and will be for the next two and a half months. My question is should I find help here and call the counselors or wait till I’m back home and then get myself sorted out?

Thanks,

11/2/2015 5 comments

Protected: Welcome Back Again

by daitya1989 11/2/2015

written by daitya1989

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

11/2/2015 3 comments

Guess I’ll stick around for a little

by maddie_kay 11/1/2015

written by maddie_kay

Welp. I’ll be 20 on November 6th. I came to this site to talk about. I don’t know. My feelings and shit I guess. To get a different perspective, that’s what I told myself. I honestly just wanted attention. My plans haven’t changed. Actually, when I had friends and someone who “loved” me, I used to say that I wanted to die. I meant it, but I knew I’d never do it. I should’ve never told them because they got tired of hearing me say that. They got tired of me.
Now there is no one. I’m empty. I feel nothing except when I think […]

11/1/2015 4 comments

by Sammi6xoxo 10/31/2015

written by Sammi6xoxo

I loved him until my last breath. I’m just so tired of hurting people. I fucked up. I hurt him badly. I didn’t mean to. He made me feel like I was worth something. Like I could do anything. He was the only one who made me feel that way. He hates me now. That’s okay. I hate me too. I always have. He made the voices go away. He made the nightmares go away. But now they’re back and stronger than ever. There’s something mesmerizing about blood running down a shower drain. Getting a little dizzy.. Maybe this is it. I’m sorry. You guys […]

10/31/2015 5 comments

this is the last time.

by Bouret.1 10/30/2015

written by Bouret.1

I try, ….

I try to love and find the reason to stay, but every day that I woke up I feel this fucking pain,
theres something wrong with me….
since I was a child I felt that I dont belong to anyone or anything…
I got a lot of feeling on me, and i cant control them

I know you may feel the same…
Im so fucking tired to try, try to live, try to die, try to do something else, always trying to get over this situation, but there no way out,

10/30/2015 4 comments

Are you ready for the last act.? to take a step you cant take back.

by Bouret.1 10/30/2015

written by Bouret.1

this song …..
this is about suicide, this is about me, trying to take that step…

10/30/2015 3 comments

The ultimate answer

by nias 10/30/2015

written by nias

I want to commit the gravest of all crimes, I want to kill someone…. myself; my last act on earth will be to murder thy self, my own self-destruction.

Why? Well, when life gets to a point where there’s no real pleasure left, just struggle, then surely it’s time to go. I see those around me having such a good life and as I approach 50 I feel the time has finally arrived. I know that if I keep going I will always live in the shadows wishing I was dead, I don’t want that, better to get it over and done with. Knowing there will […]

10/30/2015 9 comments

I am losing control again.

by DamagedGoods 10/28/2015

written by DamagedGoods

I am losing control, I am losing myself, I have held on to me for so long, but my grasp of reality is slipping, I feel it, with every word that is spoken to me, with every look that’s given, I fall more, I lose myself more, I am drifting back to that pool of sadness that last time almost ate me whole.

10/28/2015 3 comments

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