They die or metastasize in the soul. It all depends. We either foster these gender roles that are completely and utterly wrong and bullshit and hold to ideals that were past down from lesser ideologies. I think that goes for suicide as well. If someone really and truly wants to die then who is somebody to tell them otherwise. We may offer an alternate choice and our personal salvation but it is totally up to that soul to accept or reject and continue following their own path. We have such deep belief systems either rooted in religion or even the general societal attitude towards death […]
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The whole backstory is coming soon but it will take me hours to write, so I just wanted to put this out there right now. I’m 15, and have been getting harassed to my face and behind my back by the same group of boys for about a year. I’ve tried EVERY option of dealing with them in ethical ways, and nothing works. No matter how many people tell me I’m smart, or funny, or kind, I can’t believe it. I try, but I just can’t. These boys have stolen every ounce of pride and confidence I have. I get that feeling of my chest […]
I’ve tried looking at life from a positive perspective but it still doesn’t change the fact that I’m ready to die. I’m 27 years old. I have Bipolar Disorder. I’m poor. I’m on government assistance. I’m African-American. I’m a woman. I’m extremely overweight. I still live with my parents. I come from a family of Narcissists who have each told me in their own way that they don’t mind if I die. I’ve tried to put myself out there in college and employment but nothing fulfills me. And no amount of medication is going to change how I feel. I’m already taking 4 meds and […]
Soooo this is my first post thingy so no hate unless its at least funny and please comment your own thoughts.
I wanna start out by saying how weird life is and how unbelievably random it could be, but also how planed it ends up being. Like if I make a good choice to hang out with my first friend which goes into a bad decision of doing drugs, which leads to a path with fake friends. Then of course ended up here at block one with no friends just to start all over.
But I cant help to say that I kinda liked that part of my […]
Its like nobosy care how i feel i tell them how i feel then they say the kind rhing to me because its watyhu suppose to say life is really stressin me to the point i wanna give up i try commiting suicide couple time but something always stops me from going with the process for instance today i try to put a bag ova my head so i couldnt breath but i couldnt do it i dont know what do do any more
…or at least that’s how I think I feel
I’m so worn down and tired all the time now. I’m not usually one to commit to displaying how bad I feel but recently I just had at It on social media (Instagram, snapchat, etc) Eventually people took notice and started worrying.
My boss called me in for a chat recently to see if I was alright. She looked at me funny when I couldn’t give her a reason as to why I feel so horribly bad. People who don’t actually suffer depression don’t seem to understand that it’s not necessarily a combination of negative things that make […]
Last week, Darvin wrote a list of 100 “reasons” as we should stay alive. I commented but didn’t go into depth. I read each one. My replies are in all caps.
HERE WAS DARVINS POST. THIS IS MY TAKE. my responses will be in all caps in order to tell between his and mine. Not yelling.
“1. We would miss you – YOU DONT EVEN KNOW ME.
2. It’s not worth the regret. Either by yourself if you failed or just simply left scars, or the regret everyone else feels by not doing enough to help you – THE DEAD HAVE NO REGRETS. I WONT FAIL WHEN THE […]
These past few days have been full of epiphanies, deep reflection and tears and a strange sense peace. Knowing that my ship is about to set sail into the unknown has created some serenity in my mind. I was tired of being motionless and receiving constant beat down. Relocated to the country, all I do is just breathe and watch the lush greenery. I am preparing for release.
“Life can be a setback, and death can be progression
Life can be a burden and death can be release
Life can be a problem and death can be a solution
If your life is death there can […]
i don’t know why this is on my mind. just life is full of bullshit and people think I’m fucking crazy for being suicidal and when i tell them they just say I’m selfish and shouldn’t be like this. they just don’t understand. i put on a front and act happy round my family but no one really knows who i truly am and how i feel. life is just bullshit man
It’s been a long ride man. I’m soon derailing the train and go on an infinite cosmic quest in the realm of the unknown. Next week I end it all. I have already printed my suicide note. Already dropped it at my big brother’s corporate office. He then messaged me on facebook with his banal Jesus loves you grace preaching. As thought it will liberate me from my draconian fate.
Life is just funny man. I never thought I’d tread such a dreary path. I don’t wanna live any more. Lost all Hope, Lost all passion for life. Hahahaha I even quit my fucking job yesterday, […]
Life is like a wonderful toy. You give this wonderful toy to a toddler who loves playing with it until one day you take this wonderful toy away to the dismay of the toddler. It was the plan right from the start.
Why the flying fuck would you give the toddler the toy in the first place if your plan was just to take it away?
Guys, I don’t know what to do. I was feeling productive and updated my resume, but for what. I don’t own a car and I don’t have my license because I need more practice, but there are no cars for me to practice with. My dad is an asshole and my mom is a ditz. They frustrate me so much. When I was in 6th grade, I wanted to divorce my parents. I think that is one of my biggest regrets in life. My all time biggest regret in life is that I didn’t try harder to kill myself in 8th grade. I was stupid. […]
Life is caving in around me… the life I have has changed. The girl I love and the children I’ve raised don’t give me the time of day, the love has just vanished. I’ve done everything right but I have nothing more to give. I can’t take what this feeling is anymore… I’ve lost her once and now it’s happening again and I can’t go through it twice…Everyone tells me life is to short to dwell on this but I know i can’t do this without her… tomorrow doesn’t seem to look any brighter.
I just want to disappear. I’m crying. It hurts. I’m sad. Suicide? No… I can’t think of any excuses or simple solutions. I don’t know how to raise my voice, speak up .. I’m too scared… I wear a mask everyday, a mask where the smile never fades and the eyes of a 14 year old girl light up bright. In reality, I force myself to smile.. I think too much. Sometimes I feel like if I didn’t exist everything would be a lot easier for my mum especially… then I realise there are many cases around the world. ugh, this world. My home is […]
from the depths of despair I wander
but not all who wander are lost
yet I am both
a wandering vagabond in search of answers i’ll never seem to find outside of my rib cage
my animal pen that keeps my true rage locked inside until it’s time to feed
hidden and looked over have I been for far too long
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.44 magnum for voice box full of ammunition that’s begging to be fired
whoever gets in the way is irrelevant; the bullets are meant to kill
cause I’m killz and I was born in darkness
birthed in hopelessness and death themselves
i have seen […]
With Kirsten Dunst and it’s the story of another planet colliding into earth. The movie made me think of how I don’t have “special people” to cuddle under a stick tent with as the world ends, and how nothing has any meaning anyway because it all gets destroyed. I hate thinking about how short life is; it makes me want to go and squeeze the love out of every person I see and suck their souls out like a death eater until I’m satisfied. How does one really “live” enough?
Before i say much of anything, I feel like I’ve got to make something clear: I dont want help. No, maybe I dont feel as if Im beyond help, but honestly at this point Id rather not hope that things will get better. Plus, oh unlikely reader of mine, there are better people on this site who actually deserve your help. Good people. Hurt people. People who wont give up as easily as I have.
Its been a while since Ive been on this site. A couple of months, perhaps. Definitely a few months since Ive posted or even commented. I suppose the reason is […]
Okay, I was seeking advice and my brother gave me this B.S :
” People react differently to pain.Its so easy to opt out of life…It takes courage to face life.one is the way of comfort the other is the way of maturity.Those that stand in the way of comfort are miserable right now.Whats the cure?Man was created to entrust himself to His creator…not to live for anything else.As soon as these posts change,man loses the courage to live.We are created to fellowship in the love of God…Grace and Peace to you through our Lord Jesus Christ who LOVED US and shade His blood for all our […]
Hi everyone,
I signed up today because it is time that I seek support. I’m going through a lot of pain because of my past and present, and it is not going in the right direction. That is very hard for me to admit. Every day is a fight. I’m trying to be strong and build a life for myself, but I feel very alone and the hope and motivation is fading. I used to make friends easily, but this past year took all life out of me, and I’m now too tired to go out and meet people. My family never calls anymore, and I […]