It’s been a long ride man. I’m soon derailing the train and go on an infinite cosmic quest in the realm of the unknown. Next week I end it all. I have already printed my suicide note. Already dropped it at my big brother’s corporate office. He then messaged me on facebook with his banal Jesus loves you grace preaching. As thought it will liberate me from my draconian fate.
Life is just funny man. I never thought I’d tread such a dreary path. I don’t wanna live any more. Lost all Hope, Lost all passion for life. Hahahaha I even quit my fucking job yesterday, it was a relief. I hated going to it and it just gave anxiety. Gathered all the little savings I have and I plan to travel to the country side to breathe some clean air, rent a cottage probably.
SP has been such a great place. People like salt, this dude has a sharp sense of humour, kills, tphg, Mf, PhantomCitizen, Unlucky, wdo8zer is just a great thinker ( That’s if I got the user name right)… These are some of the beautiful persons whose stories touched me. All you people on SP are beautiful and I love you. I wish the pain would stop.
For me man… The buck stops here. My depression has hightened and I can’t take it any more. See you on the other side. Peace
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is there even a other side?
Hopefully there is. There’s only one way to find out…
man I feel really sorry for you. I wish I could do something to make you feel better..
Not just this one, in fact it’s very likely that even if there is some hereafter it won’t reveal anything for example reincarnation. I will instead do my research on consciousness and universe through mainly scientific and some spiritual mean and try to find answers. I know any chance I will actually find anything is next to none but that doesn’t stop my everyday research on these big questions.
I wish you still change your mind. I have contemplated suicide for years too and I’m still not very happy but whenever thoughts of actually doing it come in my mind I wonder why shouldn’t I die doing something very extreme like free climbing (climbing mountains workout harness) or traveling to Afghanistan or other such country…. You know what I mean why to throw life so easily?
I’m sorry to hear you decided on this route, but I repsect your decision. I guess all I can offer is to wish you a speedy and peaceful departure…
I hope you change your mind… If not, I hope you find peace.