I never thought I would be on this site as someone posting from a desperate place, instead of helping out through comments. But life is ironic that way, no?
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I feel exactly like I did yesterday. I’m going to keep trying, but I know the end is coming. Its like a timer that is steadily ticking down. Today I will go out into the world and try to make friends or find a date for the weekend. Nothing will come from it and I will end up feeling bored and alone. At least I try even if it is for nothing. I just want this all to be over. The need for love is exhausting. No friends, no family, and I’m almost out of love. It’ll be over soon enough.
Got displaced so far from home
When I left, it’s on my own
Had someone, she used to stay
But I was cruel and I drove her away
Couldn’t get along with people I’ve known,
I changed my name. I changed my clothes.
But these old men, where have they gone now?
There’s not an issue they’d back due.
I say hi, what’re you d-d-d-doin over there?
Here I go down again
Lost my love all my friends
No one’s left no more debts
I found out all I got is myself
hi,
I’m new to this site. I was going through a hard time and subconsciously started to look at suicide related links, which lead me here.
I’ve had depression, bulimia and other illnesses like insomnia for about eleven years now. Although I tried and failed to commit suicide about five years ago, I’m generally a cheerful person and eight years with a good counsellor has lead me a long way.
I still have problems holding a job down, but the biggest blow is that the one love I’d been with for five years told me recently that he is marrying someone else. I have no choice but to respect […]
I had a lazy day just on my laptop today, and have been watching/ reading about things that fascinate me.
The main topic that caught my eye was the theories and thoughts surrounding solipsism and realism.
Solipsism is the thought/ belief that you are the only real thing. That the people you know, the information you’ve learned about history and research going on is just information ‘created’ for you (as if you’re in the matrix kind of idea).
Realism is that things exist whether you are here or not, and realism states that your perception of reality and the things that happen are false to […]
Sugar on your tongue
Inhale
Water licks my blood
Dead pale
Rain fills up my lungs
It’s hail
It’s a hand she held to my chest
Lips to my neck
I didn’t understand
Poison on her breath
Sleeping in her bed
Blood on the sheets
A memory that brings back memories
Red
Sink back, sink stained
Red
Fear
Black out, panic
Fear
Breathe
Drowning, in blood
Breathe
I yearned for his heat
Warm skin
Lust from curiosity
To sin
Exposed to release
Longing
It’s a lack of guidance
A cowards ignorance
No answers given when the questions aren’t asked
I wasn’t okay but no one cared about my pain
Blue
ive singlehandedly fucked up my whole life. i was in love with my best friend. we’ve been best friends for years and ive loved him the whole time and then i fucked the whole thing up. because he was being distant and i freaked and stopped talking to him for weeks and then the first time he even texted me all he wanted to say was that he “liked” someone. this gorgeous fucking perfect girl that everyone is in love with and that he will never get. and now everything is messed up and i ruined our friendship and we are both going to the […]
They ask me if I’m okay knowing that I know what they want me to say. I smile say I’m fine it’s like this everyday. Most of us don’t have a life because depression has literally taken over are life’s. I was so happy.. He made me happy he’s the only guy I will ever trust. I’m a bad girl friend it’s to much for me I can’t help it I was dependent on him for happiness. I told him he would have to leave and start his own life. He told me where ever that is he’d take me with him and now he’s […]
You haven’t slept at home for over two and half years, and I get it i’m 16 now but this started when I was 13 and a half. I don’t need you know because I’ve learned to do this myself to wake up every morning at six and shower, make my lunch, get ready and then wait for you too show up and drive me to school. You evolve everything around your boyfriend. I really just want you home. I want a mom I can talk to about the gossip going around school about the boy I like and anything. “Dads” been out of the […]
Years have gone by already since I died. I’m not saying I’m a ghost, but I’m pretty close to being one. My family’s all buried in their graves. My step-father thrown in prison. And I’ve died along with it. It’s not like I want to suicide. Life’s okay. But I don’t see the point in living though. No one’s ever gonna be able to watch me grow up. The rest of my extended family has shunned me, and I’m an outcast to them. If there was something I could do about this, I would. I have lots of close friends who know my story, but […]
Today, just for today i want to see myself as another persone, not just not me, just another, and then still decide if i like me.
I am here, all of me, but nothing anyone seems to see.
Tell me how can one persone seem to think that they have a world of love to give, and hate the persone they are.
Beautifull mind, beautifull me, just a lonely little thing i would intriduse as ME
Nothing missed, nothing known, just another day for others to say: I knew her, oh,…
Maybe?
dont really know what the reason is for certain me’s to be here?
My story is kind of a weird one. But here it goes. My main reason for attempting suicide, was a girl. But this girl, is incredible. Beautiful,
Funny, sweet. Id say more things about how great she is, but that would take a while. Anyway, heres the story. This girl, who i pretty much fell in love with, is like my world at this time. I cant get her out of my mind, i cant sleep because of her. It sounds like thats coming right out of a movie. But its true. I actually love this person. Which didnt work out to well for […]
There’s a boy.I know you will probably skip this post because you don’t want to read the story of a broken hearted girl,but I will write it anyway because this is the book of my life and no one wants to read it.So I will write this story of love and blood here because this a story of a rock/goth/emo/satanic girl (or anyother names people use to call me) which secretly like a normal bo,you know,one of those cool guys that goes to parties and drink and probably think that my kind of girls must be burned alive or killed because they are freaks.What can […]
She put the knife to her soul
She needs a sweet release
She needs somebody
She digs in deep, revealing all her secrets
She knows her time was wasted
She put the pills in her mouth
She let’s death sit on her tongue
She needs some love
She needs to breathe
She drives at a tree
She wants realization to come at her at once
She hates feeling worthless
She hates the dreadful feeling of guilt
She wants the light to overwhelm her body
She wants to be taken away
She is hit by it all
She is gone
She was wrong
She just needed […]
My boyfriend and I just got in a fight. Beginning because I wouldn’t send him pictures. He got mad because I sent ONE to a kid over a year ago, as I went through my freshman slut phase. I told him it was a mistake and not to talk about. But he kept dwelling on it. I started crying because this is what it causing my pain again. People bringing up the old me and bashing on me. He kept asking why I was crying and I just kept telling him he wouldn’t understand. Finally, I reminded him of my depression, which he then reminded […]
it used to be that we were together
told everything to one another
we never kept a thing away
even when it came to our razor blades
we had the oddest friendship
bandaging the bloody mess
that was our arms
the reflection of our hearts
we were different in every way
from the way we looked to why we’d lay
in dark rooms with blood running down
sleeping peaceful in each others scarred up arms
you were quite
while i would scream
your words were mine
my tears were yours
forever be in our course
once to many
time to say
we tried to stop
why we felt […]
1 let me drift in to the night
2 see my finel light
3 forget the things i said
4 let me go to bed
5 let me sleep for ever
6 in a land were no one wakes
7 ill do what ever it takes
8 give me a gun or a hamer
9 i know thers no glamer
10 in a bloody deth
11 my finel rest
12 cant undo the damig don
13 all the batels now deth has now won
14 take my soul fly up hiy
How do I tell my dead best friend’s mom that she is the only person keeping me alive?
by whyohwhysky
written by whyohwhysky
I love her dearly and I feel so calm around her; basically the mom I never had. Talking to her and getting her hugs is so relieving for me…but she’s not my mom. And I don’t want to burden/scare her by mentioning I’m suicidal.
But, I don’t know how else to reach out to her. I’m embarrassed that I have no one else and I also don’t want to overwhelm her. I really just see her as the only person that has the ability to help me.
Hi I’m Sabrina Rodrigues, I’m from Boston Massachusetts. I’m kind of new to this so here we go..
I’m like any other normal 14 year old girl. About to graduate the 8th grade, everything like that. But I’ve screwed up a lot in the past… And people don’t leave me alone. The past is the past for a reason right? Yes, people can’t seem to forget that. So I’ll tell you a little about my past. So yeah, I guess you could say I kind of “got around” with the boys..and girls. That was before I got into a relationship with the best boy in the […]
I’m 13 years old. I would tell you my name, but being new here, I don’t know if I can trust you all to that extent yet. Normally, I post poems that reflect how I feel at the moment, or how I felt throughout the day, but right now I’d like to get a few things off my chest. I’ve told a few of my friends some of this before, but no one knows all of it at its worst. I feel as though I can trust all of you with at least this, even if I don’t know you. So here it goes.
My story: