oh how i want to go down 6 feet and be free
ill be away from this world and the hurt its caused me
so its selted, ill force a bullet right into my heart
ill end all the pain from the place it had to start
ill be in bliss and euporia and maybe feel okay
“i was too weak to go on”, ill make sure my note will say
im sorry for the confusion, you raised me right mom
it was me who chose to do this, so please try to stay calm
i know this is hard for you, seeing me in crimson
but one day youll realize that this was […]
Here goes another post.
I’m Amber. I’m fourteen years old. I just finished my freshman year. I visit this website often & I take into consideration everything everyone posts on here. I feel like shit all of the time. I have severe depression & I sometimes don’t know how to control my emotions. I like to post on here to let all of my feelings out. I have been suicidal quite a few times. It’s probably the worst feeling in the world to sit there & cry & have nobody understand how hurt you are. I’ve been hurt ALOT. I always thought God […]
Waking up with that Gut feeling of not wanting to live.. I know that feeling all to well. When I wake up in the morning I wonder what I will go through today…. You know it has been so long since I have actually smiled and meant it.. I am dealing with so much drama.. And it hurts.. I am just so confused on what to do right now.. D:< You have no idea why I wake up in the morning. I honestly have no idea why i wake up in the morning..
I want to sleep forever knowing that there will be nothing to […]
Hi.
Im Taegan.
Im a selfharmer. I really need help.
I dont know why god hasnt taken me yet, I have survided 2 diabetic coma’s , 3 three overdose’s and about 6 or 7 hospital visits from cutting my wrist in just about that right spot.
I have been called just about ever name in the book. I think I speak for everyone when I say this bullying needs to stop. I dont know why I am so suicidal. I shouldnt let this get to me. We shouldnt let this get to us. Whether youre gay,Bisexual,Lesbian .. or whatever you are. We are ALL human.<3 […]
im not gonna say that my feelings for life doesn’t change every now and then. that would be a lie. i have good days and bad days like everyone else. and this lady’s and gentlemen is a really bad day.
no its not a bad day as in: someone f**** me over or i’ve been stabbed with a knife or my boss hates me or anything like that. its just the god damn feeling of being alive. people say its a lovely feeling. i think its gross and uncomfortable. and just FYI. don’t try and say that you know how to fix this or. just give […]
Hi My name is Nikki… I am 15 years old and I have been cutting for a very long time.. I know what it is like to hurt and feel nothing but pain and misery. I have lost so many people to death and You know it is not fun.. I am not that skinny pretty girl at all. I lost a guy I was in love with to a person who felt the need to shoot and kill him. I felt the pain of loosing my best friend to a person who hit him with a car. I felt the pain to my grandmother […]
I felt numb yesterday. Now, I feel shitty, tired, and more useless than ever. I’m going to join the army, get shot or blown up and then that’s it. How will I get through high school though…Â
Sadness creeps into me, cold chills and sweat cover my body. I feel lonely, Jasmine. I love her so much, I don’t want to live without her. People said I have the symptoms of OCD. Possibly, but still, these feelings are as real as a blade cutting into me. (I ain’t a cutter)Â
 I wish she would tell me she wants to take back breaking up with me. She said […]
So… Hi Guys :3
I know, It’s been a while. And quite a lot has happened… :/ I don’t know whether or not I have told you that my mental health has gotten worse, But hopefully going to see a doctor about that… Finally get the crazy diagnosis. :/
So, My birthday was good :0 so **** in fact that i decided not to kill myself, If I could I would. Things just got worse after that, I got into a relationship with this guy called Aarron. But in the four days D: that i was with him it made me realize how much I love my […]
Its hard to put into words how much I truly hate every second of living on this earth. For reasons and forces unknown I wasn’t ever meant to be anything of value. my parents admit i was a mistake, not aborting me was an even bigger one. now im paying for their mistakes.
From kindergarten to highschool, I was always outcast. I was the kid that didn’t even get bullied because he was of lower social stature. which made no sense, I was nice. I always helped out and always tried to be a good friend. In all it was everybody’s fetish to use me for […]
i’m done in this house.. i’m done in my life… i’m done feeling this hurt.. i’m done living… i’m sorry to everyone.. i’m sorry im giving up… i’m sorry im leaving stuff behind… i’m sorry i’m giving in to these dark thoughts.. i love you cassidy… goodnight and goodbye … <3 xoxo
i want to be saved.. but idk if it even matters to try…
I really don’t feel like typing all of this out again, so I’m just gonna copy the text I sent my friend then eplain a little maybe
” Idk if I told u what happened Thursday but I don’t really wanna talk about it anymore. And today I was actually convinced that I didn’t exsist until Nick came up to be friendly which he will never know how much that meant to me. I’ve never been closer to a breakdown. Desks would have been flipped and then I’d probly fall to my knees and scream. I couldn’t take being shy in that moment. I had […]
I have another family outside my real one. They are my Spanish emmersian group from school, but lately I realize that they are not what they seem, and they get crueler everyday. But now I’m not so sure I love them anymore. I have known everyone there for 9 years and I’m not sure I can put up with them any more.
Also my best friends mom died of breast cancer and it’s made me so sad and depressed. I know I shouldn’t be talking because her family probably feels worse, bu I can’t help thinking that I should meet her […]
I am fifteen and up until recently my life was fine. I was already depressed but I didn’t have any problems with my life. I know I’m talked about and picked on at school but I didn’t realize how much until after the big event that ruined my life. I know others don’t know that I’m any weaker and more vulnerable than before but I feel like the talking about me and messing with me has gotten a lot worse since my mom moved away. I didn’t have much of a choice but to stay here with my grandparents and my sister. My sister has […]
When you cry im there
Tears, im here
You scare I fight your fears
Why cant you do it in return.
You say so why am I.still in your life, why am I an asshole, the making fun of name calling when your suppose to be the love of my life. The abuse hits for every word but I stick around cuz you are my world.
Stop
Dont do it
Im here
FOREVER, iloveyou
Words you say when im on the edge but do you mean it or is it cuz you dont wanna be left alone, maybe you just dont wanna witness the dealth […]
Today has been… Crazy.
I heard the voice again… During my english lesson, and I was just… I went crazy. I thought that if I scratched open my hand and revealed this vein I could slit it open and let the voice go… so it would leave me alone. So i just started scratching like mad at my hand, I gave up after a while, Realizing that it wasn’t going to work. I’m stuck like this… And no one can help that.
It’s my birthday tomorrow…
:/
<3.
Im noticing life is a challenge we gotta get passed, that suicide is a thought but doesnt have to be done. Days could get better even if its small, you see things or people you gotta stay alive for. You may have a better future so dont end a life for what happen in the past or the present cuz it gets better, live for the future <3
•My turning point in life – realizing suicide is just a thought dont have to let it take control , xoxo you not alone <3
today may 18 11:55 am and I’m in bed. I know I should be in school but I just had to think and I don’t have the strength to go and tell him my story. It’s just like a dream my dream came true. He asked me out and I said yes, but now I have to deal with telling him about my problems and that won’t be easy. I learn that he does it to, that he cuts himself as well as I do. And I told him that I cut and that he shouldnt cut. I made him promise me that he wouldn’t […]
hey everyone …..xx
hope you are all well .. <——- that question is so fckn annoying dontcha think .. = of course we are not well dumbass !!
well i know im not – i dont know what to do .. im so lost – numb – sick of my life !… im so scared im confused ..
today ive not really been in touch with reality to be honest – ive not even got washed or dressed – TRAMP ALERT !
Things couldn’t have turned out better, I have been ill these apst few days and was prescribed pennicillan. But they just make me feel worse so i’m thinking about saving them for tuesday…
I can’t believe how quickly my birthday has came around, The only problem is that my dad is coming down for the day. :/
I want to ask the guys something, For you see whenever I want to stop one of my routines I usually asked a guy if everything would be ok and if it was safe to do so.. But I don’t really have access to my usual suspects. So i would […]
Each day the pain gets worse and worse and you act like I’m not Ben there… You act like my feelings don’t matter… Is it insane for me to just want peace?? To let everything go?? I’m trying to help you with her… It’s like you don’t realize that I may still not be over you??? You can’t just fall out of love with someone… You said you loved me. You lied through your teeth and I was stupid enough to believe it. I can’t handle the pain anymore… It just hurts too bad. I really just want forever peace from all pain and all […]