I’m in love

today may 18 11:55 am and I’m in bed. I know I should be in school but I just had to think and I don’t have the strength to go and tell him my story. It’s just like a dream my dream came true. He asked me out and I said yes, but now I have to deal with telling him about my problems and that won’t be easy. I learn that he does it to, that he cuts himself as well as I do. And I told him that I cut and that he shouldnt cut. I made him promise me that he wouldn’t cut. And he did promise me. But… thats no all, I don’t only cut but I have had suicidal thoughts. And I ended in the hospital because I cut deep. I had never gone that far but I did. I did it before he asked me because I though he would never love me, and I survive somehow :). And I haven’t told him that. I’m afraid that he will run away from me. That he won’t love me anymore, then I discovered that I was kept alive for him, if it wasn’t for him I wouldn’t be here I wouldnt feel love I wouldnt have smile for the first time in my life :). I LOVE YOU ******** with all my heart. Thank you for coming into my life to rescue me from falling <3 I am alive because of you.