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Things I Shouldn’t Say

by Chaucer 12/2/2015

written by Chaucer

You could have never known, and things would be no different. I tried to stay in touch; I made it clear I valued your friendship. I know life can be busy, and when so many people are on the edge of depression it’s hard to get excited about anything at all.

Even a person.

You’re forgiven for that, just like you always have been. I’ve never been known for a shortage of apologies after all; but you don’t get to pretend you just lost me.

You lost a little of me when I told you that secret, the one I could barely face myself, and you made me […]

12/2/2015 3 comments

Life: the curse of the good

by jcub91 11/28/2015

written by jcub91

Is it just me orr what? I live life as the most friendliest person ever. Not because I think I should, but because I generally believe that being nice is worth so much more than being a rude inconsiderate individual. Being nice honestly hasn’t gotten me anywhere in life. People just seem to generally dislike me. I can’t tell you how many times people have tried to fight me, over just being a cool person to them. I’m not ugly, or shallow or prude. Everyone says I’m really good looking, but looks honesty don’t matter. I feel like if I wasn’t good looking, it might […]

11/28/2015 1 comment

Don’t know anymore

by Matel 11/23/2015

written by Matel

I’m back again in SP, well, of course. Never actually left. I’m in a strange mood in a bad way so I think this will be a ranting post of how undecided/unsure I am about some important things. Just going to number them, I like structure, haha.

I’m sure I should exit. This is the correct and logical decision for me. And I have some arguments that are pro and against which totally confuses me.

I can fail. Although my method is quite sure, there is always a chance. Most likely I will back out because survival instinct is a ..tch. Then it will be a huge […]

11/23/2015 11 comments

My feelings don’t matter

by disgusting 11/20/2015

written by disgusting

Shit I should have stayed at work if I’d have had any idea this would be a night of screaming and hollering about Lady Gaga and other anorexic girls and “how good” it looks when you can see every bone in their skeletal bodies! It’s like I truly don’t exist and I’d be my fucking paycheck I’ll be spending my birthday alone because he’s probably getting girls left and right now.

Shit, I’m getting to the point I wish I hadn’t ever met him. It’d be so much easier to go on thinking that Jamie (from Twiztid) was the hottest guy on earth. Shit, he’s famous […]

11/20/2015 38 comments

Nostalgia: Part 2

by InhalingAnxiety 11/20/2015

written by InhalingAnxiety

Nostalgia: Part 2

Sometimes things come up that remind me of my childhood or mostly my teenage years and it makes me more depressed. And it’s not because I had a horrible childhood (it wasn’t great, but others had it worse), but whenever I’m “taken back” to those times of my life, I automatically compare it to now. Usually what reminds me are old games no one plays anymore or popular music I remember being released and it played nonstop on the radio that no one knows anymore. Like those things I grew up with and still love to this day.. they don’t matter anymore. If I go up […]

11/20/2015 0 comment

Nostalgia: Part 1

by InhalingAnxiety 11/19/2015

written by InhalingAnxiety

Nostalgia: Part 1

The other day, a song came across my iPod that I haven’t heard since high school. At first I was like, “Wow, I love this song. It’s been so long since I’ve heard it.” Then it reminded me how much simpler things were for me then. I didn’t have as many responsibilities, my depression wasn’t nearly as bad then as it is today, etc.

But when I hear a song I listened to after a fight with my parents, friends, or after a breakup, I would start feeling that pain again. I would remember how much I was hurting and it was almost like I […]

11/19/2015 2 comments

Here’s a rant. Herp Derp Derp

by maddie_kay 11/19/2015

written by maddie_kay

I need to get the hell out of here.
Friend #1 called the cops on me and told them some lie about me wanting to do some murder-suicide shit to my boyfriend. I got mad at her, and she told everyone around me that lie. Because how dare I get upset, how dare I swear at her for calling the cops out of nowhere and in the middle of the night.
Now my neighbors think i’m a danger to their children and call them inside everytime I leave my house.

Then there’s Friend #2. He walks up to me at work, accompanied by his buddy, and […]

11/19/2015 2 comments

Had Enough

by JustReallySad 11/13/2015

written by JustReallySad

It doesn’t matter if I kill myself tonight.

I’m destined for hell anyway.

I would just be trading hell on earth for hell in eternity

And I’ve no one to blame but myself

I had plenty of chances to do good

But I never gave a shit about anyone but myself

I feel very alone

I guess I’m not allowed to ask someone to join me in this journey on this site

11/13/2015 9 comments

Guess I’ll stick around for a little

by maddie_kay 11/1/2015

written by maddie_kay

Welp. I’ll be 20 on November 6th. I came to this site to talk about. I don’t know. My feelings and shit I guess. To get a different perspective, that’s what I told myself. I honestly just wanted attention. My plans haven’t changed. Actually, when I had friends and someone who “loved” me, I used to say that I wanted to die. I meant it, but I knew I’d never do it. I should’ve never told them because they got tired of hearing me say that. They got tired of me.
Now there is no one. I’m empty. I feel nothing except when I think […]

11/1/2015 4 comments

Constant Disappointment

by RangerAxel13 10/30/2015

written by RangerAxel13

I’ve been a member of this site for about a year now and I’m just now posting for the first time. I was hoping beyond hope that maybe, just maybe, reading what everyone else had to say, what they deal with, how they cope, would make me realize that my life wasn’t as shitty as I thought it was. Unfortunately, it didn’t. Nothing seems to help. Normally I try to avoid talking in essays when I don’t need to, but in this case I’m going to say fuck it and just say what I want, because chances are I won’t be around much longer to […]

10/30/2015 3 comments

Checking out the high-speed way

by Alexther 10/25/2015

written by Alexther

Life has fucked me over again, but this time it’s payback time.

First thing tomorrow, I’m getting hold of some booze and dope, heading to the train tracks and jumping in front of the first hi-speed train that comes my way. Yeah, it’s gonna be hard on the guy running the train and people who will notice, but I don’t give a fuck anymore. Call me selfish, because maybe I am… All I know is I WILL do it, whatever it takes and no matter who I hurt in the process…

I got no one to say goodbye to without getting locked away in some psych ward, […]

10/25/2015 9 comments

Im sorry….

by Lailaniibabe 10/23/2015

written by Lailaniibabe

I always wanted to die …. I was told if I tired I would regret it and never do it again

Well I tried. I was hospitalized for 4 days and I’m back home. I still want to do it. I failed I didn’t succeed when I should have. The longer I go on living …. the more I hurt. I don’t want to do this anymore I don’t know what the point is. I have yet to have a purpose for staying yet I’m still here. Altough that may be a ‘sign’ I still don’t want to be here. Life is shit…. it doesn’t matter […]

10/23/2015 11 comments

Look I want to die and i need help

by amar 10/20/2015

written by amar

Look I want to die and i need help. I m tried the scripts and not worked. I have no means to do this and i need help from somewhere. I need to be dead by the morning am desporate. I really need ********. I really really am begging anybody with any idea to help me escape from this existence. There is no hope my dream is to not wake up tomorrow and no matter how many different pills i take i keep waking up. what can i do? this is my dream. this is no gesture this is no gesture this important that. I […]

10/20/2015 3 comments

Why are we alive?

by A Fairy from the Past 10/18/2015

written by A Fairy from the Past

We wake up each morning- alive. We live, struggle, suffer, fall in love (if we’re lucky), have a bit of fun, suffer a bit more and then die. What’s the point of it all? What’s the point of going through all of this, actually putting in the effort to do all of this when in the end you will die? Why not just kill yourself now? Yes, life might actually get better, but what difference does it make when in the end everything will be taken away from you ? And what happens if life happens to get worse? You stay alive and suffer even […]

10/18/2015 6 comments

by TheLoner2 10/14/2015

written by TheLoner2

I want to post this on facebook so bad: Even if I did tell people how I really feel it wouldn’t matter because I’m a piece of shit. I wish that I was a different person. Then asking for help would be alot easier, but I’m am who I am. i know some of you are going to eather ignore this or look at it a laugh, but I really need help. I don’t know what to do anymore

But I know if I do I’m looking for attention

10/14/2015 3 comments

New age rambler

by brodie3750 10/11/2015

written by brodie3750

Sometimes it’s gets too much. The little things.

all these thoughts, they are restricted to my head alone for they are too intense to share with my friends. Or anyone for that matter.

I wish I could achieve the peace of death without actually dying.

id like to just ‘go away’ and watch people’s lives go on without me. See their behavior and how fast I’m forgotten.

10/11/2015 2 comments

Needle and thread

by Quiet 10/5/2015

written by Quiet

It’s omniscient to watch all the people close to you drift away. Those that keep yourself together move apart, they reveal all your cracks and damages. And who would want to be around damaged goods? Who has the time, the energy, the effort to give a damn. The world is not full of those who repair broken antiques and beauty. No one is willing or able at the same time to lend both their hands to hold a half of you in each. It doesn’t matter how penitent you are, no matter how generously you try, there isn’t much of a hope that someone will […]

10/5/2015 2 comments

Alone

by Royal_Styles1 10/1/2015

written by Royal_Styles1

I wish I was alone. To have nothing to hold on to. To no longer have a reason to exist. It would be so easy then. To just let the grip my hands have been struggling to hold go. To feel the world’s darkness eat me as a whole. They think it’s a phase, that it’s just something I’ve been going through, that I’ll get over it after a short period of time. They don’t understand. They think I’m doing this to myself for things that don’t matter to them. But they never thought that maybe they’re the reason why I’m struggling to live. Why […]

10/1/2015 5 comments

Lost friend

by RT :) 9/30/2015

written by RT :)

I thought we were best of friends, distances between us would never mean anything. We will stay connected forever; and at least pray for each other, as we are not gods to influence each others lives. But you betrayed my friendship only under the assumption that i have betrayed. We could have spoken, instead of just making assumptions. Humans communicate, they react. Only Machines don’t react.

And now, i fear that in my anger, you went too far away from me. You misunderstood my anger as well. Instead of directly confronting me, you shut me down; as if I never existed;

In a snap I become a […]

9/30/2015 6 comments

I am still learning

by hogpotter 9/26/2015

written by hogpotter

I gradually begin to understand that love is beyond time and age. No matter how old the person we love becomes, we still fight for their happiness and see everyday with them as a gift to cherish. And there is happiness that comes along with every single day that passes.

There is a lot more to love I am yet to learn. And with you, I am learning, step by step, every single day.

9/26/2015 3 comments

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