I tried to commit suicide 3 months ago. I survived. I hated the fact that I couldn’t get it right. Now 3 months later I am more excited about my life and the future than I have ever been before. I booked myself into a mental health institute for 2 weeks after my suicide attempt and I learned more than I can imagine about myself…and more importantly how to cope. My situation has worsened in the past 3 months yet I no longer feel the urge to end it all. I have a strong urge to survive and put my experience to good use.
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Psychiatry is going to kill me , but that’s ok I was suicidal for several years.
written by Patrick Anarchy
Psychiatry is going to kill me but that’s ok because I was suicidal for several years anyway.
I am fully aware the psychiatry is a very pseudoscientific with toxic drugs for treatment of so called mental illness. But I was born from two seriously disturbed mental patients in a NY state mental hospital. I was totally the product of psychiatric treatment. My entire existence is because of psychiatry. I wouldn’t have been born without it. I have been on almost every single psychiatric drug that is available. I have been mostly diagnosed with mood disorders and I am currently on disability for them. I have been […]
If you’re a Brit’ like me you’ve probably heard about an overhaul the NHS are planning, if not then I’ll explain.
The national health service are known for being lacking in the treatment of children and young adults with mental health problems in Britain, and as part of a new move there will be a comprehensive overhaul of all the services they provide.
I can’t help but feel this is all too little, too late for some many young people. I’ve suffered for years and found the treatment excellent. What little of it I got, that is. My mum is treated for her anxiety and she saw […]
I look at the shoebox I keep my various prescription pill bottles in, and I wish to gods I could be certain that I wouldn’t just wake up in a day, in three days, in a week in the local ICU and another useless stay in the mental health unit and another 90-day court settlement. Attempting suicide is a civil offense in Wisconsin, you see, so a person already upset because they survived then gets to go — via satellite television — before a judge and work out an agreement for treatment. Nice, huh?
I barely talked my psychiatrist out of having me hospitalized […]
I am ashamed to live in this generation. I am ashamed to like in the U.S. I am ashamed to live in this world.
It’s disgusting. Women or men murdering their childern for their own selfish needs. Teenagers getting pregnant just to give the child to their mother to take care of while they go out and party. Grown men attacking teenaged boys and girls because they don’t like the way they dress. Grown women with fucking kids acting like a goddamn child that doesn’t get their way. Or these outrageous standards that most women put for men, or vise-versa.
Teachers raping or molesting their students. Teachers and/or […]
I sink into worlds of fantasy, faraway lands where I don’t even exist. Because in these stories the hero is never afflicted, never has any mental ailment, they just persevere and eventually they get the girl, defeat the villain and live happily ever after. This isn’t one of those stories. I’d never get the girl even if I tried. There is no happily ever after. And I’m the villain of this story. Sure you can fight yourself, you can even destroy yourself, but there is no scenario where I come out on top. No version of this where I win. Ultimately I will keep suffering, […]
That seems to be a fairly frequent occurrence on this site in recent weeks. The vast majority of you probably have never seen my posts. The population of this board seems, with a few exceptions, to be very transitory.
In the last year and a half, I was known for being pretty positive on this site, feeling like I had made some significant progress and changes that were allowing me to turn a major corner in my battle with MDD. But, once again, I’ve run smack dab into a wall. This wall seems to be higher and thicker than before.
In just about 2.5 weeks (March 26 […]
I have occasional voices in my head and they tell me i have till i’m 27 to live, i know i’m a bit mental, anybody else? I’m not massively suicidal but it’s when the voices come back it starts
I’m pretty sure half of us Ben to a mental hospital or asylum. I already went back like twice I feel as if I’m going to go back again and I don’t know what will happen. I just wanna be in a coma for 3 years or something like that advice?
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All my friends are gone what do I do now? They ignore me think that I’m always just bitching I went to the mental hospital twice do I have to go again? My dad gets pissed at me.. If I do
anyone else ever get that mental fog… where you feel so out of it almost, but not in a good way? and you kinda feel like nothing is real, that everything going on is not really happening? -and you’re not all there?… i feel that way right now, and it’s messing me up. i wonder if anyone here can tell me what i suffer from, so i can have a name for it. because it bothers me not to know…
i feel so lowly and depressed. and dammit, i told myself i wouldn’t cry today…
Since I was 8 years old I started to selfharm..when I was 11 I became suicidal. I’m 16, almost 17, and I’ve developed several mental illnesses throughout my life. I’ve tried getting professional help but it’s never gone well. I’ve tried talking to my mom about it but she says I just want attention, so i’ve kept it for so long. I though of several ways to take my life…from overdose, to hitting a vein, anything really. What’s kept me from doing it is my youngest sister. I take care of her every day and she’s so attached to me.. i don’t ever want her […]
Is there anyone to talk about AEA without getting Ratted out?
by transition32
written by transition32
I appreciate those who responded to my post about how I want to die from autoerotic asphyxia as there is no cure for what I am into! I was put on this Earth to share my story with as many people as I can! At least if I lose my sanity and end up taking my life because of this intense desire that I have, then I will have at least accomplished something very important by sharing my story about it!
I wish that there was someone who I could talk to about this, but I don’t trust anyone! I’ve gone to a couple of therapists […]
Sickness comes in so many forms. My sick child sleeping in my lap, my Grandmother who died of her sickness, mental sickness…usually you just can’t find the words to say to fix these things but still you try.
I’m sorry if my typing is bad. I been struggling with Learning Disability and Depression (I have anger issues to some degree). I might have some other problems I’m not aware of. I lack a lot of skills especially motor skills aren’t that good, I don’t have good memory which make me forget some things real easily, and I have very little vocabulary. Now down through Memory lane…
It started when I was about maybe 5 or 6 I was in a all special needs school. Everything was a blur then. (only thing I remember was I was athletic. I didn’t learn anything.
By first grade, I […]
15 16 in march I’ve been depressed cutting suicidal I cut on the 11th thinking of doing it again mean family my dad hit me with a belt because I drank some of his wine because I was depressed I am lonely for the most part 2/3 good friends but not always there. I was planning on killing myself in october on a cruise I don t know how to swim 6 months away. I stopped taking my depression meds they don t work and made me gain 40IB my dad still wants me to take it I have counseling twice a month I was […]
Well I just got dumped this past saturday after 2 1/2 years of being together. I guess I should have realized the signs when he stopped answering my messages of fb for two weeks…. The worse part he didn’t even give me an actual reason on why…. Just a bunch of shitty excuses and fake lies like oh It would be better if we were best friends…. NO ALL YOU DID WAS FRICKEN STABBED ME IN THE FUCKIN BACK AND LEFT THE KNIFE IN IT!
I’ve been pretty much in a pretty bad funk/depression all week going by so slow feeling like I’m in a time […]
I find every thing about life exhausting. The daily interactions with other people, all the expectations and obligations. Every aspect of living takes more effort than it is worth. The work the effort we have to put into this existence its just far more than we ever get out of it. I have this secret fantasy, of getting sent to prison on a life sentence. Where I get to serve out the whole sentence in solitary confinement. Just 24/7 locked in my little cell, never seeing anyone else. Just slide a meal tray through the door once or twice a day and leave me alone. […]
I have been in mental anguish , agony for far too long. I don’t care you’re age or gender or even locale. I just want someone to talk about anything and everything. Maybe , we could help each other. I’ve been holding on for 7 years.
Email foxtrotz at aol
Bobby
Well, it looks like my psychiatrist is going out of business, as if mental health wasn’t already underfunded enough. I don’t know if anyone who worked at the place will start up a business here. I guess wealth and a great education go hand in hand, so maybe those doctors can form a new business, or maybe I’ll just be on my own from here on out. At any rate, nothing has really changed. I’m still bitter and I barely leave my room. I still have no friends because people make me contemplate the ultimate futility and disillusionment I feel when pursuing relationships. Plus, another […]