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why was I born?

by yukki 8/18/2014

written by yukki

Okay so, I’m here to tell people how horrible my life is and what it feels like to be living in hell.

*WARNING I MIGHT USE SWEAR WORDS

Now let us get to the main point, I’m a middle schooler. (I’m not telling any other info about me)

I’ll put the conclusions first.
I WANT TO DIE.

We got that out of the way now, let’s get to the main main point.

It probably started like 5 years ago? Maybe 3.
I don’t clearly remember what happend and what started it but it did. My mom has mental problems.

She thinks that she’s being “stalked” and her phone/computer being […]

8/18/2014 2 comments

Goals…

by k2fraser 8/6/2014

written by k2fraser

How come when I set the goal to kill myself and begin working towards it I have this feeling of drive and passion, but when I set any other goal and work towards it, it feels like a waste of time.

I’ve begun taking inventory of everything I own. I’m building a simple website to list everything so I can sell it. The idea is instead of placing a million classified ads, I just post a few and link back to my site for a complete list of what’s for sale. The money earned should help me correct my finances. I don’t want to leave any […]

8/6/2014 12 comments

the fetish ghost

by onebullet 8/3/2014

written by onebullet

3 o clock in the mourning,about to fall completely sleep when the shadow of a man walks through my bedroom,he walks and walks for minutes,a big shadow,scary as shit,dont talks or makes any noises,just walks for minutes.I am too scare to shout,my body is completely paralized,as if the venom of the black spider dances through my blood,what if that spectral shadow is evil,i watch it for minutes just walkin,paranoid like if he is waiting or searching for someone,then the worst part of the ritual that starts at least one day per moth starts.The entity sits in my bed right beside my feet and starts to […]

8/3/2014 8 comments

2nd attempt

by Irish junk head 6/28/2014

written by Irish junk head

Its 2 weeks after my 2nd suicide attempt i found the deepest artery in the middle of my arm it was like an inch or 2 deep and an artery below your thumb. also took 20 d10s to thin my blood. my gf called an ambulance i sent her a text apologising for my selfishness also wrote a suicide note i thought id be dead b4 she read the text it takes lonher than you think. Was kapt in an psychiatric hospital until i was seen by a pysycyatrist they siad im bi polar and split personality disorder i signed myself out have been put […]

6/28/2014 0 comment

Counting Down the Days

by Counting Down the Years 6/7/2014

written by Counting Down the Years

62 more days to go. I met my then-future husband inÂ the state where I grew up and was practicing law. His work took himÂ to another state and I accompanied him after we got married.Â I’ve been a stay at home mom all this time — 13 years.Â He makes a good living but he’s a compulsive debtor. IÂ kept us afloat with my inheritance — overÂ $100,000.Â We’re in the middle of a divorce and it looks likeÂ our house will have to be sold because I cannot get a mortgage in my own name due to my not having a two-year work history. Â I love my house and our daughter […]

6/7/2014 2 comments

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by quaero 6/6/2014

written by quaero

The note is complete. not really the best but its fine. but even now, when i am this close, i am not sure. its still looking like a hazy dream. David455 once asked here – “Is suicide romantic?” i can now definitely understand this question. but he went through the whole process. even now, when i can do it any day, its looking like a romantic idea.

I am not sure. Have i tried enough? ofcourse i have. there is no try left. being in the middle is a shitty situation. all you can do is rot. i do not suffer enough to do it without […]

6/6/2014 99 comments

Stay Away From my Friends

by brebrook 6/3/2014

written by brebrook

“But you don’t know what it’s like to wake up in the middle of the night, scared with the thought of kissing razors”

~Pierce the Veil

6/3/2014 0 comment

I cut too

by brebrook 6/2/2014

written by brebrook

I started cutting a year ago in March when it happened. I was having a sleepover with my two friends Kiaya and Amanda. We all slept in my bed which was big enough to fit all of us. I was in the middle. I woke up in the middle of the night to whispers from Kiaya. She was talking from the perspective of a guy towards me in a seductive way. I didn’t do anything about it because I wasn’t sure what was happening. That’s when she leaned in and kissed me when my eyes were closed. She stole my first kiss, but that was […]

6/2/2014 6 comments

Talentless entertainer.

by WoodenGrave 4/26/2014

written by WoodenGrave

I try so hard, but i’m still stuck in the middle of nothing – i try to be something. 😀

4/26/2014 0 comment

Rants

by TheImmortalYoshi 4/21/2014

written by TheImmortalYoshi

So..today I had a panic attack in the middle of second period today..I hate it, I hate having anxiety. I know others must hate it too, it like ruins things so know I m on meds to control it but my dose needs to be higher cause it isn’t working anymore and my anxiety is back like it was before without them..Meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeh meh meh*dying whale noises* I also have bipolar disorder meh and borderline personality disorder..Meh *More dying whale noises* But if everyone else can ‘live’ with it I can too :/

4/21/2014 11 comments

im a ghost

by killmealready97 4/14/2014

written by killmealready97

im sat here in the middle of my moms living room on the couch listening to music,its like im a ghost they dont see me and if they do they dont care that im here so why am i? why havent I ended it they would notice me hours if I went to my room and ended it they wouldnt find me till its too late,they wont care they never have they know im depressed and they dont even try anymore I see it in their eyes they think im fucked up freak and maybe am which makes it that much clearer that I shouldnt […]

4/14/2014 4 comments

I will wake up, once I am truly asleep.

by caillte 4/13/2014

written by caillte

“Imagine you are in the middle of the sea surrounded by hungry sharks,

How do you escape alive?……….

you stop imagining .”

Basically you “wake up”.

I had a free class and the supervisor decided to do these weird riddles, and that was one of them.

( a weird free class I will admit)..

I find myself often wishing that this were the case, that with most hopeless situations, we could just wake up, and before you say it I know that these are the imaginings of a fool. Â I’d like to think that this – my life- is just the ultimate nightmare and that I will wake up at some […]

4/13/2014 0 comment

Alexis and the wail of doom

by Kallian 4/10/2014

written by Kallian

So, after being off for two days, coming back to work was really nice. After about an hour of actually laughing and joking around, we hear this noise. My ex walks down the entire row of checkstands, through the lobby and stands in the middle of the entryway to the store, crying. Not your usual, sniff sniff, cry. Oh no. I’m talking about wailing. Like a two year old who got decided to throw a tantrum. Â Everyone in the store stops and stares. Everyone but me. I start giggling. Then I realize its not a good idea so I try to make myself shut up. […]

4/10/2014 2 comments

One Day…

by CrimsonDream 3/18/2014

written by CrimsonDream

One day in the middle of class

while everyone was working,

my eyes filled with tears

because I knew

they were thinking about

their work

or friends

or after school

but all I could think of

was how much I’d rather

be at the top of a building

about to jump

3/18/2014 0 comment

It’s a pattern

by Bipolar American 3/6/2014

written by Bipolar American

The longer I live, the more I can’t help but think about how everything has the same fate. There’s a beginning, middle and end. From a term in school, a job, relationship, trip to the doctor’s office and even life. Nothing is forever, but plenty of things appear like they should last that long.

Life is composed of all these short lived events. One after another. They all bring different emotions. I want to know which ones are the best experiences that make you want to hang on for another chapter of life?,

3/6/2014 18 comments

This is My Convinction. Is It Yours?

by Nathaniel_Morisawa 3/2/2014

written by Nathaniel_Morisawa

As I walked home today, I realized that me–and people like me–are like lonelyÂ rocks that sit unmoved in a river. Allow me to explain.

Imagine life and all of it’s interactions–people growing up, becoming influenced, learning, meeting other people, having kids, influencing the world–all that stuff. Imagine all of that as a body of water, or in this case, a river that flows and travels in a certain direction. Kind of like how most people are; they just go with the flow and as a result, they are rewarded with being a part of a greater collective that supports them. Of course, the “river” may diverge […]

3/2/2014 4 comments

Will you? I will.

by LetItGo 3/1/2014

written by LetItGo

I remember the first day of school.
I remember I was wearing a yellow silky skirt.
I remember I was wearing a white shirt.
I remember not wanting to let go of my mom.
I remember crying, sobbing, grasping.
I remember the first day of school.

I remember the first day of middle school.
I remember I felt scared.
I remember I felt lost.
I remember I wasn’t happy.
I remember gripping onto my books tightly.
I remember I was lonely.
I remember the first day of middle school.

I remember talking to you for the first time.
I remember the nights after.
I remember-

I know what

3/1/2014 2 comments

Fear

by TheGlassChild 2/10/2014

written by TheGlassChild

I’m scared to live, so I wanna die. I’m scared to die, so I try to live. Stuck in the middle and the hollowness is too heavy. The logical thing would be to face the fear to live, before the fear to die. But I’m not logical and I want an easy answer, though I know there aren’t any.

2/10/2014 4 comments

Share time

by mortuarychic 1/30/2014

written by mortuarychic

I’m not even sure why I’m on here again… my life is in no immediate danger, but who know how long that will last. Some good things have happened to me an honestly I can say I enjoyed it. I graduated from college and got my diploma. I took my boards and passed them. Overall, I was ok, or well as ok as someone like myself could be. At the same time I’ve been clean for almost 5 months now. I haven’t cut or burned myself no matter how badly I wanted to. With all good things come the bad. I had to move back […]

1/30/2014 0 comment

at the end of my rope again

by barryg 1/28/2014

written by barryg

does anyone know of cheap or low cost help?Â my life is miserable and i’m miserable.Â i live in the middle of nowhere, i have no insurance and a crappy job.Â i need help but have no idea where to get it since i am poor.Â Â any help would be appreciated.

1/28/2014 1 comment

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