there is one person, who i always consider my brother. sometimes more then my brother. today i went to meet him.
he said that on tuesday he will go and meet my ex girlfriend and try to get back us together.
now guys, i dont know whether i should listen to him or not. coz he is been telling me the same thing for last 4 months. and every passing day is making my life more and more worse.
and plus its valentine on tuesday, which will bring back many many painfull memories.
guys, please tell me what to do? should i listen to him?
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I have spent the last two weeks in bed. I have no desire to get out of it. I feel like i am dead but still alive. I am worthless and dont deserve anything. I was the last born in a family of five. My parents had me late in life. My brother who was twelve when i was born was murdered. My brother had a friend that was dealing drugs and setting fires. He was going to testify against is fromer friend. His family had my brother killed. He was struck a car late one night and died of massive head and chest. It […]
some times I think I’m crazy. My mental status has been smashed into a million pieces. Some times I wonder if it’s normal for ur family to mentally abuses u. Some times I even think I deserve it or that it is ok for my moms husband to sexually abuse me. I’m afraid of the dark, I jump and shake when they are near, waiting to be scolded and told how worthless I am and how fat I am. How much I eat or don’t eat. when to sleep and how long. when I forget to do the dishes I’m told On how retarded I […]
My mom just took her own life back in july and i am the one that found her. I dont know what to think of this. and i have a really difficult time understanding why. I am going to counseling and it helps.. I just feel down a lot of times. I have thought a little bit about doing what my mom did. But i dont think i could every put someone through the pain i have went through… My dad is also in jail now.. So Help me understand and advice? Please.
I know friends can’t be replaced with anything else. But if you don’t have any friends, you can at least try to find something to love. That’s why I decided to get pets. We already have pets, but none of them are really my pets. The cats don’t like me because as a child I didn’t know how to play with animals. I would accidently(!) scare and hurt them. And the dog likes me, but I feel no connection with dogs. I’ve wanted my own pet for a while now, first I wanted to get a bearded dragon (it’s a kind of lizard), but they […]
well now both my parents know i started cutting again. and i hate it… i dont want to talk to them about it.. i cant its too hard. but my mom doesnt understand this… i think my dad helped her to a little tho. becuz last nbight she said she didnt think it was nessesary to go to therapy becuz i can talk to her. she then said she’ll talk to my dad about it, and when i woke up this morning she said that i have to go speak to the school counselor today and if they think i need therapy then i’ll go.
but […]
I have been in a juvie/ mental hospital thing forth past week. I cut myself a little to deep and went to the hospital again. They decided to do something this time. Now that I’m back home I found out I am moving again come April. My mom said I fell in with the wrong group of people and she wants me out. Honestly I know I did but making me move again isn’t going to help. I’m done. Life just isn’t ment to be lived.
I never understood why I would one minute be unbelievably happy and the next minute be crying for no apparent reason..
It all started on a Monday after school, which is another reason life had been unbearable. No matter where I went I was the school whore..or at least the freshman whore. But back to that Monday night, my cousin who’s also my best friend was over spending the night. We were picking out clothes to wear for the next day at school. Then my mom came home, she was obviously stressed and started yelling at me. Next thing I know we’re screaming bloody murder […]
The thoughts are comming back again stronger than ever. I’ve been crying more and more lately. I didnt even go to school today because im thinking about doing it. I just dont see the point of living anymore. Things are getting worse for me. Im just tired of everyone being so mean to me for no reason. Last week this boy cussed me out on facebook for no reason! Then yesterday he said i look like a man, and that im ugly. I haven’t done nothing to him at all. I don’t understand. And i cant even go in the cafeteria without everyone talking about […]
My mom found out I started cutting again. Tho I haven’t in 2 weeks. She said she now doesn’t trust me becuz I didn’t come talk to her about it…
I told her its hard to talk to her about it and she doesn’t understand!
I told her I still want to go to therapy and she said “well I don’t think that’s nesesary. U can talk to me” but I can’t…. It’s to hard
She kept telling me over and over again how disapoinyed she is in me. And how she can’t trust me….
Me and my friends have been planning a sleepover that I badly […]
I never understood why I would one minute be unbelievably happy and the next minute be crying for no apparent reason..
It all started on a Monday after school, which is another reason life had been unbearable. No matter where I went I was the school whore..or at least the freshman whore. But back to that Monday night, my cousin who’s also my best friend was over spending the night. We were picking out clothes to wear for the next day at school. Then my mom came home, she was obviously stressed and started yelling at me. Next thing I know we’re screaming bloody murder […]
i cant take it anymore….
I dont know whats been going on lately….me and my mom have been fighting so much to the point i cut myself last night…last time i did that was in September when everything around me fell apart… and when i found out my boyfriend was calling anther girl babe i forgave him and im starting to trust him more and more…but today he asked me if that girl he was calling babe could go to our church to meet me… i dont know what kills me more the fact hes still talking to her after everything that happened or he would […]
This is my story..
In the past few years I started getting a really bad temper. I would hit my mom, throw things, break things, scream and yell. Well this past August it got really bad..the cops came to my house. I was taken to the hospital, I was put into a partial program..I was supposed to stay for two weeks, but I only stayed for a week cause my mom didn’t want me to miss my first week of school. That was a mistake, it didn’t help. I went to my first week of school, then I stopped going..I wouldn’t go. I’d spend days […]
I’ve been on the end of my rope now for about a week. So many things have been going wrong and getting so much worse. The reality of physically not having anywhere to go after I move out of the dorms for the summer is really starting to sink in. I tried to convince my boyfriend that we should stop seeing eachother to make it easier for him when I go. I can really see that there’s no getting better for me. I feel like it would be easier for him if we weren’t together when it happens. He was so confused and it made […]
just to get it out here,hey,i’m ricardo and i’m 15 years old(i know it’s pretty young)
i have been diagnosed with major depression about a month ago..
i had been heartbroken about 7 times by now and for the first time in my life i have found a girl who actually likes me for who i am,
at home i’m getting bullied for my appearance,i have a rather emo look..and my brothers can’t seem to handle me like a nomal person,
anyways,when i’m at home i don’t feel all too great,i have cut myself several times which i am not proud of,
my best friend […]
Dear Daddy,
When I was a little girl I always looked up to you. You protected our family like no other. I will admit, I have always been frightened by you. Sometimes when you get mad, it’s really scary. When we went through everything with Taylor, that was hard. It was really hard on me and no one realized it. Do you even remember how you kept dragging me into your argument the night she was kicked out? That night has scarred me for life. You know what Daddy, in the past year I have done bad things. I have done things I regret. I wish […]
I messed up my life at 7 years old. I learned what everything a adult thought of was, and my parents were getting divorsed. My mom hit my dad, and they always cussed eachother out in front of me. We were in the car once, my brother opened the door and was SO close to jumping out. he was leaning out of the car. If we hadn’t pulled him in, we would have seen him dead on the highway. we were screaming, and the one who didn’t help pull him back in was my mom. she yells at us, and nearly killed my dad. My […]
My brother is engaged, and last night his fiance came over to my house crying. She found proof that he was cheating on her and, once again, I was the one trying to comfort yet another person my brother had trampled over just because he could. She had said that she saved her virginity for when she knew she found “the one,” and she made the mistake of trusting my brother, and now she feels ashamed of it. And my mom, of course, was defending my brother saying that either he didn’t cheat or, if he did, it’s because he’s young and […]
Check out my blog of journal entries threw my struggles with depression anxiety along with heroin addiction to try and stop the pain. I keep my journal raw and for all to see . No one in this forum is alone !!
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Im young. Im young, so young and I know I have so much to live for.Â
But I have a destroyed childhood, and family that has lied to me since I could process things through my mind. A mother who cares about herself more than her daughters, who is willing to let her children be molested; verbally and physically beaten. A father who has continuously filled his daughters with hate by verbally, physically and mentally abusing them alongside with their mother. My mother will soon be filled with severe Alzheimer’s and she won’t have me or my sister to help her. Which is just another burden […]