I need your help, please help me get out of this situation.

Im young. Im young, so young and I know I have so much to live for. 

But I have a destroyed childhood, and family that has lied to me since I could process things through my mind. A mother who cares about herself more than her daughters, who is willing to let her children be molested; verbally and physically beaten. A father who has continuously filled his daughters with hate by verbally, physically and mentally abusing them alongside with their mother. My mother will soon be filled with severe Alzheimer’s and she won’t have me or my sister to help her. Which is just another burden on my shoulders. I have medical conditions which cause me to be in pain constantly, I’m in and out of the hospital often and I have extremely severe anxiety. My mother refuses to get me therapy anymore because she’s embarrassed, and she won’t admit she’s failed at being a mother. She’s afraid ill tell my therapist all of this and then have to cops come knocking at our door.

Im scared, im so scared and I can’t get out, I can’t escape this. I’m hopeless, and terribly lonely. Im not old enough to move out yet, but my sister is already well through college but still lives at home. Im lost and out of luck.

I have no one who loves me or cares for me; no way out. I’ve lost my friends, my hope, my light and happiness. The only thing that has kept me going is my strength and hope that I could make it better for myself. But I’ve lost that. Im terribly confused and scared. I don’t know what to do; I need options- answers. I need numbers, information, ideas. Anything that might help me.

Please, I need help.

– Mikaela