Sometimes I wish I had something horrible happen to me just so someone that “loves” me would notice that I am not okay. I’ll thought of the typical poison,cutting,drowning. But now everytime I’m by a road I want to jump infront of it. I’ve even thought o0f how much love and care I would feel if I got cancer. . . I feel selfish and on the right track all at the same time. Am I the only one?
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Much Love
Words do not express, for my emotions run wild
I feel confusion and hate, but mostly just denial.
I need help.
I’ve slipped into this pit more than once in my life
but for the first time I don’t have the strength to make it alright.
I have done this to myself, this disease is now me
I am not a thinker, a lover or you’re friend.
I am my addiction which has no end.
I am it, and it is me. One cannot set the other free.
I lay in this bed in a room filled with sadness
and think back on my life […]
I see how all the teen girls are killing themselves. And I’m scared that i might accidentally kill myself well to be honest i wish someone would kill me right now or i wish i could die from cancer which i might have because i have a brain tumor I’m just waiting for the neuro surgeon to tell me if i have cancer or not. I’m hoping so. But at t the sane times i want kids and i have so much love for other people. I’m a living girl but I’ve had lots of things that have happened to me I’m i guess […]
“There’s too much love in the world. Sometimes I think that’s what heaven is—- a place where everybody’s happy because nobody loves anybody else, ever.”
Sometime I really HATE LOVE, I do. Sometimes I just want to kick the Sh*t out of love…. “How can u do this to me???…”
I hate the fact that I need love, that I want love, not to say that love is enough or that love solves all problems but many of us are on this site b/c we want love in our lives. we want someone to care… I hate that I WANT someone to care. Why is it […]
I’ve been on this site many times before…Reading this blog is like reading the Bible to me. It’s refreshing to be able to read all the honest feelings in these posts. I am not happy to read about how so many of us are suffering, but at the same time, it’s nice to know that I am not alone in how I feel at times…Well most of the time. I wish that I could accurately describe how fucked up my life is…It really is exceptionally miserable. I’ve spent the majority of my life with depression and anxiety…But I always had hope for the the future..Hope for […]
Keeping posted on how everyone here is doing is hard because I do not have my computer and I’m  not able to do much off of my phone. But much love and hope to everyone here and that sees this post. <3
So I don’t know why after a year I’m questioning such a “perfect” relationship, but I am. I’ve gone out with my current boyfriend since eighth grade and its been amazing. No arguements. No problems. Nothing wrong. It’s been all smiles, laughter, kisses, hugs,and now that I think of it…its been mainly revolving on our intimatcy. So I think that’s an issue. It’s a huge issue but at the same time I think its ok since were best friends and were “in love’ with one another. But could someone just give me their opinion. I’m not going to break up with my boyfriend since we […]
WHY?
That’s the only question I have for you.
WHY DID YOU DO THIS?
I can’t keep doing this, I don’t understand. Why would you make humans capable of love? It’s a horrid, horrid emotion? I don’t understand what we did to deserve this kind of cruel and unusual punishment. You made us in your own image, right? What, did you just have so much love in your heart that you had to give each and every one of us a bit of it, so that we could feel the pain you’ve felt in having to give up so much for us? Well, I’ll tell you one thing, […]
they say knowledge is power
I say it’s a curse
To not know the truth is my desire
For ignorance is heaven on earth
To not know how cruel this world can be
To not know what is going to happen to me
Because my destiny is known by none but fate
They know the event but not the date
On which I’ll die, without a tear in my eye
Because I will have prayed for it all to end
To not know how far gone humanity has become
To not know how much love has stung my heart
And torn apart
My life from my soul
The name of the post kind of says it all, I was so sure I wanted to die. Up to the point where I had everything planned and ready, down to the exit bag made and the helium under my bed. I felt happy and in some ways free at the thought I would die. And although I still wish I would die in my sleep or fall of a cliff or something I do not feel ready to take my own life.
It started about two days ago, I was sat watching TV when I saw a women with her three children. They were the […]