This is me and my x boyfriend. I met him at a party he was the first guy i was truely happy with. I love him so much i was willing to give up everything.. even my virginity. but we never made it that far. When he got a job he started to like another girl. Weeks past and i noticed he was distancing himself from me, one day i asked him ” what time do you get off tonight” and he snapped saying “why do […]
Dear SP’ers,
Since I promised to my therapist I would not kill myself and suck it up for two months… have you guys got any tips? What can I do when I’m freaking out?
Things I do to cope:
call/text someone to get help/ distraction
cry the fuck out of myself
post something on SP
eat ( chocolate)
smoke
masturbate/ watch porn
cut, beat myself blabla..
sometimes: booze
I would like to have tips: I want to learn how to cope with shit a healthy way instead of fucking myself up even more…
Lots of Love,
Dawn
I feel alone :/
empty…
I went to my GP today, he directly sent me to the psychiatrist institution, and they have talked to me. In about 2 months there will be a spot for me… till then I have to suck it up. I’m glad there is a solution, finally. The GP said I probably have Borderline…
<3
Dawn
xx
I actually took advice… I seeked help
I have wanted to die for the past several years that I can remember. Not as much for the reason of hating life; moreso the desire for all the pain around me to stop.
A sum up.. I grew up with a family who abused drugs and alcohol. Never had a real parental figure that helped me distinguish “right or wrong” or even a good sense of morals. I have had multiple relationships but all ended badly. I blame myself moreso because my first ever love had committed suicide when we were 16.
With that and a whole lot more that […]
I want to feel. anything. I feel so fucking empty. My moods swing constantly. Half an hour ago I was jumping up and down with energy..
I want to cut, so I can feel that sweet rush flow trough my body, I want to smoke, I want to drink, have sex so freaking much…
and now I have to leave my bed to go to work. Yey 🙁
When i made this cut i was scared. I had just traded an ounce of weed for a brand new box cutter, a kid bought me from home depot. Stupid i know i could have got it myself but with your dad watching you every moment of the day it was kinda hard. I said it was for protection.. protection from my thoughts.. but he gave it to me. No other questions ask even knowing my history.
I went home a couple days past and then me and my parents got in a huge fight. With […]
ive been doing some thinking lately, which isnt really normal for me. im usually impulsive, which isnt good since its got me where im at today.
but i dont really think im suicidal, more like i just want to stop existing in this world. and the only way to escape it is to die. but i think i would still be the same way i am now, even if life had dealt me a different hand. i would always feel lonely, even if i was surrounded by people. i just feel like im different, everything im into or not into doesnt fit the fold. everything i […]
I’m seriously low right now.
please tell me something fun,lovely.. positive. please.
While I am reminiscing on the memories that slowly but sweetly tortures my heart.
With all the thoughts running through my head.
Was there something that could be changed?
And somehow make all the pain that was created to go away
I don’t want you back
I want the happiness you brought to my heart
And knew someone cared
But I guess im not well enough or someone you would love to always be there
Now the days are surely getting harder
And im longing for your thoughts
The way you used to hold me
Did you think that I forgot?
I may not be what you want
But im someone that is begging on my knees
Somehow I […]
When we feel love or something like that for someone, we learn to suffer and hate like that person.We feel what they feel and sometimes we feel more. My cousin, my sister, we’re all scapegoats in this family. I am the little rude *****, my cousin Laura is a stupid satanic slut with a shitty life because of her black painted nails. And Layla, oh, the poor  little fat girl. She’s the destroyer and the devil, the sinner who ended our relative peace, because she tented grampa to sin and we all know he is a great man of God and that she is the […]
“I think its better if I dont come over today. I dont really feel like being used and treated like a whore today”
“Thats fine, ill see you another day. Maybe somewhere next week”
I mean. This was an expected answer. It still made me quite sad. I dont know why. Like I said. It was expected. Our agreement basically is that I let him use me like a whore. It makes me feel usefull. Slightly less worthless than I am when Im not being used.
Still I sort of hoped he would tell me I could come over anyway and we could just hang out, maybe play […]
I wish I was dead. I really do. Â I have been suffering from depression since my early teensand I am now 36. I cannot remember the last time I felt happy; felt sad; felt hopeful; felt ANYTHING.
I know how I could do it. I know I would be successful.  What’s stopping me?  I have a little boy. His father is violent towards me  I cannot leave my baby with that monster.
What am I to do?  I cannot go on anymore  I am dead anyway
The worst feeling is  knowing you can’t have something you’ve been wantiing so bad .. That one person when everything seems to be the perfect time  there’s always an excuse or another  girl that’s better .. Always.  The worst feeling is having to hide those cuts so no one could ever know.  It seems when things finally go right they take a turn for the worst no one hs stayed in my life for to long . It seems wenever I start talking to someone new to try and finally get over him they end up not talking to me again with no explanation  or […]
Seriously man, go for it. If you think about it it’s just a huge taco 🙂
I feel ready to just give up, call it quits, throw in the towel.
I just cant seem to find any sort of purpose to this struggle,
Day in day out, it never ends.
It gets harder and harder to get out of bed every morning,
just the effort of standing exhausts me,
this isn’t living free.
I’m fed up with letting everyone down,
they give me compliments, praise me, say theyre proud,
but they can do better than me.
Deserve better.
Driving home tonight i just wanted to hit a semi or the nearest building.
Just to end it all, get rid of the pain, the memories and the fuck ups.
So everyone could just move […]
Happy fucking  birthday you little **** ***** morgan
You must’ve a been in a place so dark, couldn’t feel the light
Reachin’ for you through that stormy cloud
Now here we are gathered in our little home town
This can’t be the way you meant to draw a crowd
Oh why, that’s what I keep askin’
Was there anything I could have said or done
Oh I, had no clue you were masking a troubled soul, God only knows
What went wrong, and why you’d leave the stage in the middle of a song
Now in my mind I keep you frozen as a seventeen year old
Roundin’ third to score that winning run
You […]
Usually I’m the one who holds everyone when they are down and they need help getting through something. I never let anyone help me with my problems. Â I always say that I’m okay. Â Even though I liable to get through something’s on my own… I really just need someone to yell at meand help me even though I say I’m okay. Buthee person that I know could help me, can’t. She needs to be helped first. But I do need someone to come hold my hand through all of this.. Even if it doesn’t seem like much
Hey everybody, EmM here. I’m feeling in a very inspirational mood tonight. It’s great to be happy for once =) Here’s just a couple things that I hope might brighten your night=)
~WriteOn=)
BeYOUtiful
Don’t underestimate your full potential.
You’re beautiful how you are.
Inside you there’s a brightly shining star.
We are all unique in our own special way.
Who I am is who I’ll stay.
I don’t want to fit in
if it means I have to become pretend.
I don’t care about having a million friends.
‘Cause the few I have will be true to the end.
As for anyone who wants me to be
the perfect person they forsee…
I apologize for my objection,
but that […]
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