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Anyone disappeared to start a new life?

by frog 7/7/2021

written by frog

Long story short. I’ve been on the edge for years now. A while back I realized that instead of killing myself, I could just dissapear n look at it as a ”bonus level”. I’m sure my family would be more comfortable knowing im alive somwhere. I’ve read about some people who disappeared to start a new life n are way better off. So why not try?

The only thing thats holding me back is the fact that I’m a parent. Obviously I want the best for my kid but I’m very misserable and mentally unstable so I’m not sure which is better; two parents but one […]

7/7/2021 12 comments

Death Day Log 1

by killswitchon 5/13/2016

written by killswitchon

Friday the Thirteenth
A good day to die. I’m ready. I know everything is too far gone. I know this moment has been the fate I’ve been delaying
for eight long years stuck in this disconnect. Once you lose your personality, soul and mind there’s truly nothing left.
It’s a solid three second drop into some broken concrete and rocks. Probably around 60 feet up. Need a running start — fly
like an eagle type thing. I just want to start a new life. Reincarnate. Jumping into a bed of concrete is a gnarly way to
go but I figure it’s the only way to […]

5/13/2016 4 comments

by kittykat 4/24/2016

written by kittykat

What is death if not the opposite of life?

How beautiful is to await the coming of the end of life and the start of a dead beginning

How will I see death then?

Will I be able observe the process of death (which I dont even know how long it lasts) and await the beginning of a new life as fearful as I am for death now?

why the waiting in line for something we can have now?

will it be the same when I am dead? waiting in line for life to begin again but eventually having the option to begginning when I want?

4/24/2016 3 comments

I lost my Soulmate.

by kirru63301 4/21/2016

written by kirru63301

I lost my soulmate.

I loved her with all of my heart. We’ve known each other for five and a half years and we were best friends. It was an online relationship and we were young so we weren’t serious about it. But a few years ago we realized we could really make this work and so we tried. We stood by each other through thick and thin, through the stress of me having a job and graduating high school and everything. I felt like I had the perfect future because we promised each other we would go to the same college and work in the […]

4/21/2016 5 comments

Scared

by 48 is enough 3/28/2016

written by 48 is enough

I hope this isn’t breaking the rules… I’m a 48 year old man. Been kind of a rough and tough guy all my life. Never done drugs, though. Drank alot, smoked a little weed years and years ago… those were the days…. anyway, my whole world has come tumbling down. I know, you’ve never heard that before, but it has! I was married for 15 years and hated most every minute of it. Finally grew the balls to get out in 2010. Soon after I met the most beautiful angel! And, of course, immediately fell in love! It was wonderful! We were together for a […]

3/28/2016 10 comments

Bath Calls

by betterlife 3/16/2016

written by betterlife

When the bath’s drawn, the phone’s off, the house is empty… as it always will be… what do you do? When there’s no friend to call, no family in existence, no job to work, no place to attend, tomorrow, nor the next day, nor the day after, no car to drive, no health to live? What then? Cannot one simply slip into oblivion, forevermore? Isn’t that okay now? Finally?

I’m stalling. Why? Is there a man to stampede through the front door, thumping his chest with the almighty courage of one in love, to say, nay! Not tonight! This shall not be! Whisking me away in his arms, hair […]

3/16/2016 2 comments

new people

by souptool 3/13/2016

written by souptool

I hate meeting new people. Specially a girl I like. I care too much, my chest gets all knotted. I’m trying to start a new life.. just don’t know if it’s worth it. I get hurt that’s all that happens.

3/13/2016 4 comments

Goodbye :)

by Costy 3/10/2016

written by Costy

Hey guys, I want to erase everything that made me depressed and start a new life. This site makes me depressed and stuff. I will erase everything and try to live life no matter what. I wish you all the best and hope that many of you will get rid of their demons and try to live life.

Farewell,

Costy

3/10/2016 9 comments

Hope and starting a new life

by NiDDA 3/9/2016

written by NiDDA

I am planning to move to England in 3 months and start to work there. I want to save a big amount of money to take a makeup course. Makeup is what I am truly interested in, it’s a beautiful art to me and I have the skills to it. This is my future plan. Oh, and a tattoo on my wrist to cover my scars. The little beads will be torquoise and the bigger one will be poison green.

3/9/2016 15 comments

Option fucking 2

by NiDDA 2/25/2016

written by NiDDA

I made a death cocktail so strong (if crushing a total amount of 525 pills into strawberry juice counts strong – most bitter juice that I have ever drunk) that I blacked out when I was done with the half of it. It was on Saturday night on the 13th of February. My mom woke me up on Monday and insisted me to go to a mental hospital, and I did. I was in a ward which had cameras in every corner, every room. We were allowed to smoke only 3 times a day, and this was the worst for me. I fucking love smoking, […]

2/25/2016 7 comments

Not so surprisingly, I’m back, now here’s everything I’ve written.

by thelost 1/25/2016

written by thelost

Things

I have done terrible things

Things to make you shiver in the dark

Things that make even my own skin crawl

I want them back, to take them away

I hurt others, so badly I cry

It wasn’t me! I scream

It was them! I can’t help it!

Please, you have to believe me

The things that lie in wait

To rip me apart

To make me rend and tear

As they watch

It’s the demons that lurk beneath the skin

The ones only freed by razors

Death is to begin again

Right?

They beg me to stay

I beg them to let me leave

I don’t want to hurt you anymore

I don’t want to make you bleed

No you must stay

You must endure

You […]

1/25/2016 15 comments

Moving this year hopefully

by outinthedark 1/6/2016

written by outinthedark

I’ve decided that with the two outcomes of this year I have given myself, depending on how the year goes, I need to move out of state at least halfway through the year. I need to get away from my life here and make a new one if I can. If I can’t, I want to put space between myself and the people in my life. I need to create a barrier to where they will blame themselves less. I will put myself in an area where I only have to occasionally check in with them. I will make a new life. I will try […]

1/6/2016 2 comments

Just don’t know anymore…

by winterskyout 1/4/2016

written by winterskyout

Life right now has officially hit a boiling point that’s too hot; I’m melting away. My focus throughout the days now are shot, I’m more robotic in movement and speech than ever before. Just today at work I couldn’t talk to anyone, it just felt too heavy on my throat to speak (I’m more introverted). Then what would I gain talking about insignificant topics like, “So and so’s wedding went wrong,” or, “Real Housewives…” Sorry, I’m being bias but that stuff doesn’t interest me.

And then just today I fucked up on the biggest thing: I have no idea where I want to live anymore. […]

1/4/2016 2 comments

Sertraline?

by whymettrig 11/11/2015

written by whymettrig

so I finally admitted defeat.

wife has left and were going through divorce. After three failed attempts at suicide, I’ve today been prescribed sertraline. Does anyone have good or bad experiences of this?

Also anyone here survived divorce. To put mine in context my wife of fourteen years was my school sweetheart and left with my two young kids three months age due to my depression and anxiety. Any tips on how you moved forward?

suicide is on my mind constantly still. My new life in front of me fills me with further depressing thoughts.

I hate my life.

hope you’re all feeling as good as you can be today!

11/11/2015 14 comments

Reborn

by jano.11 11/4/2015

written by jano.11

i’ve been Persecuted myself for a long time .. Humiliating myself the ugliest way ever .. I am the most one who hurted me .. And I need a revolution .. To be reborn .. To creat a new me .. And treat it well .. To be a new human pure and beauty .. And save that beauty of soul very well .. To write a new life line .. In a process of being peaceful .. To have the peace inside of me .. To smile for every sunshine of every new day ..

Its a beautiful words but how to make it done .! […]

11/4/2015 5 comments

what to do?

by whymettrig 10/31/2015

written by whymettrig

I’ll keep this short.

I’m 36 male been suffering with stress and anxiety for a couple of years. Drove my wife and two kids away that I love very much about two months ago.

Been having counselling for a while and been on propanalol which doesn’t seem to help.

I don’t want to die but neither do I want to love this new life.

My wife says she loves me but doesn’t want to try and work things out. I have been a bit manic trying to get her back. She meets me now and then but only to be friends and have the kids together.

I have tried suicide […]

10/31/2015 8 comments

dead end

by brodie3750 10/22/2015

written by brodie3750

Half the reason I stick around anywhere is because I have nowhere else to go

if it was so easy to walk out on my job and my friends and family, I would step right into a new life. But there’s nothing else out there for me.

There’s nowhere left to turn

10/22/2015 2 comments

Observing quietly

by Trix 10/20/2015

written by Trix

Hey everyone. 🙂

I know it isn’t long since I last posted, but it feels like much longer. Over the past few days I’ve been really wanting to write a post again. I’ve managed to write emails but when it came to writing something here I haven’t been able to. Most of this will be things I’ve said before, but I wanted to get them off my chest again.

I feel that my mental state is stagnating, although I still think meditation is helping. The same goes for keeping in touch with a couple of people from the site – it definitely helps to talk to people. […]

10/20/2015 17 comments

My story

by Anonymous098 8/15/2015

written by Anonymous098

It all started when I was in elementary my mom couldn’t afford an apartment or a house. so we had to live out of her boyfriends van. After living in the car for like a couple of months we moved to a homeless shelter. It was hard going to school because I couldn’t be like the other kids. For me after school was just going back to the shelter and that was it. I didn’t really get to play much and if I did play I would play with my older brother. I have 2 older brother but my oldest brother got kidnapped by his […]

8/15/2015 7 comments

Why I Want to Die

by hiitsme0819 7/21/2015

written by hiitsme0819

Honestly, I don’t. Just the though of taking my life scares the shit out of me. I just feel like i no longer have anything left worth living for. Everything i have ever known is gone. My new life is so fucking pathetic. The same exact routine day after day. No ambition to even try and do anything different.
Any hope of a “normal” life i may have had in the past is gone. I may have what i need to survive, but is that really living? Is that reason enough to keep pushing through, to keep telling myself i can make it for one […]

7/21/2015 1 comment

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