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Eight Things

by Cordless 3/22/2016

written by Cordless

Loosely-gathered thoughts on this exhausting day:

I might not be able to post this, since the site has been wonky for me lately. Some days it doesn’t let me post. I emailed the admins about it but haven’t heard back.
I am glad beaubri is still here.
It’s 11:00 at night and I have not eaten anything all day long. I should probably have something.
Has anyone heard from ToTrees lately? I know his MRI was Monday, and I haven’t heard from him since Sunday, I think.
My own MRI is in about nine days, and I’m trying to distract myself by writing more music. I may post it here […]

3/22/2016 44 comments

Broken

by alina_01 3/22/2016

written by alina_01

I’ve lost 2 relatives that I was close to, both times I was woken up in the middle of the night and told they died. I get so afraid to sleep, in fact one of my worst fears is that I will loose my very closest and dearest loved ones while I sleep. I’ve had nightmares that it has happened and I wake up sobbing. My aunt died and they woke me up in the middle of the night to tell me. I have been battling some depression and Monday felt like a good day for me. Then I find out this morning that not […]

3/22/2016 1 comment

Good night all! Sweet dreams

by Sui the Bunny 3/22/2016

written by Sui the Bunny

So here’s my last post for the night… Here have some lyrics a song by Marilyn Manson Originally by Eurythmics

Sweet dreams are made of these
Who am I to disagree?
Travel the world and the seven seas
Everybody’s looking for somethingSome of them want to use you
Some of them want to get used by you
Some of them want to abuse you
Some of them want to be abusedSweet dreams are made of these
Who had a mind to disagree?
Travel the world and the seven seas
Everybody’s looking for something

Some of them want to use you
Some of them want to get used by […]

3/22/2016 3 comments

My last post for the night.

by beaubri 3/22/2016

written by beaubri

Let’s start with this.

I’ve been suicidal recently. It’s festered in my mind for a while now. Actually for a few months. I may not express when I’m feeling suicidal. When the thoughts cross my mind. I don’t typically like to express my personal suicidal tendancies unless I feel as if I’m going to actually act upon it. Or if I came up with a method to take my own life. As everyone can tell, I mostly spend my time talking with other people about their problems and what I can do to help them out. I’m sure I’ve done this with almost every […]

3/22/2016 14 comments

Good night

by kupo95 3/21/2016

written by kupo95

I hope everybody has safe and good night. And I hope to see you here towmorrow. 🙂

And Im happy to meet everyone on here .

3/21/2016 2 comments

Still alive

by Drowning 3/21/2016

written by Drowning

so last night thought iv had enough of this shitty life so I swallowed a bunch of pills layed down hopening for a nice send off but

guess what woke up in the hospital pale looking like shit then get home to find out the medic took the rest of the pills so I some how need to get more then and try a different method

3/21/2016 30 comments

(Edit)

by beaubri 3/20/2016

written by beaubri

Im decently buzzed right now. Something came to mind.

I remember the last post i saw from Salt.
It was a video of him.
I cant recal what he said but i remember what he did.
Snapping his hands and moving his arms back and forth.
Something about lutinet.

I miss Salt.
I hope that he is in a better place.

I remember now. It was sergeant pasley.

3/20/2016 4 comments

Growing up with animal shelter…

by RedShadow 3/18/2016

written by RedShadow

hey folks…
Did anyone else ever have that (day-)dream by being adopted in an animal family?
I had that strange dream….running away from all of the human pain..finally a group of wolves adopted me. I could hear their thoughts in my mind, and vice versa. Wild animals took care of me. I was allowed to be part of the wolf pack…I was allowed to lean on to those amazing animals during the night, in a cave…safe and warm…and the animals (not just wolves) protected me from men, whenever they tried to get me. I felt warm. I felt safe. Like a little child, growing up […]

3/18/2016 0 comment

One of them days

by Drowning 3/18/2016

written by Drowning

Just having one of them days what’s the point ? What’s the purpose for being here what is the meaning of life the only thing promised is death right

I watch this film called wrist cutters the other night it’s about a guy who commits suicide but going to a place the same as earth but he’s just in a worster off depressed working a dead beat job searching for he lover etc

I believe that we have lessions to learn in this life and they keep repeating them self till we learn them but how can we learn something if we don’t know what it is […]

3/18/2016 7 comments

Good night SP.

by beaubri 3/17/2016

written by beaubri

I need to try and sleep. I will return tomorrow evening. I look forward to messaging everyone again, new faces and old.

I hope everyone has a better night/morning than their last.

3/17/2016 0 comment

I have issues…

by claritee 3/15/2016

written by claritee

I know, you’re like “duh, why else would you be here?” But ugh.

Last night there was a spider on my ceiling and I had a legit panic attack. Usually I kill the spider, but it just made me think about my ex that would save the spider and put it outside. I got on my bed and tried so hard to kill the spider, but I couldn’t. I laid down my bed and stared at the spider as my breathing and heart rate increased. I was thinking that it was a poisonous spider that would kill me in my sleep. But isn’t that what I […]

3/15/2016 15 comments

Hello Monday morning….

by Hampshire_Girl 3/13/2016

written by Hampshire_Girl

Well, it’s now Monday morning in the UK. Alarm is set to go off at 5am, and here I am typing this just after midnight. I’ll leave you with a couple of tunes which just about fit my mood at the moment…..

http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2016/03/B001N8AFE4_disc_1_31_-_Worse_Things_Happen_At_Sea_Truck_Sessio.mp3
http://suicideproject.org/wp-content/uploads/2016/03/B001IQURW6_disc_1_08_-_Ghosts.mp3

Let’s see if I manage to get some sleep. Nighty night to everyone in SP land.

3/13/2016 0 comment

Good night SP

by Drowning 3/12/2016

written by Drowning

i really wouldn’t mind sleeping forever it would take a miracle for them pills to do the trick because let’s face it life isn’t going to get much better we r just giving our self faults hopes but tomorrow another day for the battle to continue I guess good night guys

3/12/2016 2 comments

by bnwB 3/12/2016

written by bnwB

It’s weekend, saturday night. It’s 10:54 pm and I’m in my room, in my bed. It’s dark and I have too many thoughts about everything. I think about where I’m in ten years, here? on this planet? alive?
I think back to the situation, when I was at school, my teacher told something about short storys. I thought about situations in my life, when I needed this informations. But i couldn’t find some.
I sit there, every day and waste my time for some stupid things like this. When I will kill myself, why should I go to school anymore? But I’m not sure if […]

3/12/2016 6 comments

Jeez..

by headupunderdarkcloud 3/11/2016

written by headupunderdarkcloud

Had a gun to my head for several hours this morning, safety off, squeezing the trigger, the hammer pulling back, then letting off. Another night hardly any sleep.
Gotta move out of this shit dump in 19 days, no plan where to go next, fully overwhelmed, so much shit to move out, and so laying here in bed typing instead. Just at my breaking point.
Aimless, no plans.
I turned to the girl had over the other night and saw for the first time in the morning light a nasty cold sore planted firmly to the corner of her lip.
Great, may have an outbreak […]

3/11/2016 4 comments

I f*%ked up so bad

by headupunderdarkcloud 3/10/2016

written by headupunderdarkcloud

Not looking for sympathy here, what I did is what I did. I should have just been there for her as a friend, shouldn’t have given into her subtle advances, taking it to the next stage I knew I’d surely regret. I should have recognized her vulnerability and kept respectable distance with compassion, but I didn’t..

I allowed the night to progress, one beer, 2 beer, 3 beer, talking closer and closer at the arcade bar, her warming up to my unfurling pinball skills, as laughable as that may seem, close contact is close contact.
Suddenly the air is charged. The familiarity of our past, the […]

3/10/2016 9 comments

Hi

by HatedGirl 3/10/2016

written by HatedGirl

I requested a new pycitrist again and i was told no to geting one as my first vist to them.was well so i got nothing for my depression or anxity bf will be coming home soon from hospital i miss him lots hope you all haveing a good night i cant sleep up and im sick so cant do much going to watch fuller house again glad they brought it bk

3/10/2016 1 comment

I think I’m okay?

by outinthedark 3/9/2016

written by outinthedark

So last night i almost started crying multiple times in public, but no one noticed. i went to my old high schools band concert because i was in band so i know the majority of upperclassmen in the band. i wanted to see them perform and i missed their winter concert because of a car accident. a main reason for my going was to see him. to see the guy who made me realize someone gave a shit about me over a year ago. hes the main reason for my being alive right now and back in november i told him about my depression. hes […]

3/9/2016 1 comment

You Know How It Feels

by brodie3750 3/9/2016

written by brodie3750

You lay awake in bed at night wondering where every little thing went wrong.

You create amazing friendships hoping they will spark into something intimate. You spend days, weeks, months and occasionally years talking to someone only to one day realise the effort disappears and you find that you are now the instigator. They never message you first, or call or whatever. It’s up to you.

Then one day you decide “okay, I’m not going to start the conversation this time. I will wait for them to instigate it.” Next thing you know you it’s been a few days and then weeks and months and you realise […]

3/9/2016 7 comments

Darkness inside

by NeverFitting 3/9/2016

written by NeverFitting

I am looking for a place I cannot be found
The trouble is I cannot find that place myself
I hear all the voices telling me it will be okay
It never is okay there is only one way
That peaceful place is eternal sleep
Why can I not have one one wish
Just leave me alone and let me rot
Give me peace please I beg you
You are always there in my mind
Can you not just stop and leave me
You cause me pain all day and night

3/9/2016 0 comment

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