My friends tell me they care, but I know they really don’t. People see my wrists and think “ew what is wrong with that girl.” It doesn’t surprise me. I dress weird, I color my hair.. I look terrible. Why can’t we all be accepted? We live in such a judgmental world. That’s why I’m deciding to end it in a few months, just take as many sleeping pills as I can; and just cut my veins open. Cut my legs one last time. And leave a note. Explaining why I hate my life. Nobody cares until something bad happens. So mine as well end […]
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I’ve been doing so well lately. so well. and i have literally no clue why but now i can’t stop crying and i realize how truly alone i am. i cant talk to my parents and my friends arent really friends at all considering they never invite me with them and dont care about me in the slightest. IM COMPLETELY ALONE AND UNWANTED AND UNLOVED AND I DONT HAVE ANYONE TO TALK TO AND NOBODY CARES.
nobody. cares. at all.
I hate being in love. It makes me very depressed. I become bitter towards my partners. I just want to end it all. I can’t be with them because I hate them sometimes, and I can’t be without them because I’m miserable. I just want to die -_- I have nothing. I have no job, no money, no father. I miss my home, england, I hate where I live, Canada, I’m nobody.
Hello
How funny is this life I love sb but I have to run away from her.if you’re asking why because my last loves are dead and I don’t want to kill another person even I have no best friend because all of my best friends has gone somewhere not because of me but because of their destiny It’s silly but I have nobody to talk and love.
Into the deep blue depression sea (I wrote this a couple years ago)
by HarleyJean21
written by HarleyJean21
These scars on my wrists
are from when I was pissed
uncontrollable anger
silent screams of unspoken words
I see stories
you see scars
lines of defeat
wounds of strength
Self mutilation feels better than you think
especially when your blood rises and your skin turns pink
constant competition between mind and body
both so weak you all you can do is fall
You say you “understand”
but nobody ever will
not even me.
-Harley
he fucking killed me. how does it feel to know that you fucking had enough influence to make somebody else to want to disappear?! i am beyond hurt. i am so heartbroken i can’t keep going. nobody deserves this life.
why am i writing this? why am i writing here. it doesn’t matter. it doesn’t change anything. just venting. for what.
I need to heal, and travel to the icy end of the continent.
Humble, the express; no longer want to wait.
Come on, with the golden nimbus machine, summon the story of death.
Free my dying soul, forever to celestial. I am that I am, see with your eye.
A beast of hell. Who I am, an exiled human child. Faith is a haunted ghost.
Uttermost, gutter-most, oblivious. A beast of hell, a worldly.
Seven billion and nobody. Everyone, gone. All that is so much wrong.
Escape the world. Forever lost. Until the next saga.
Oracle of faith. Save me today.
I’m just so done with this stupid life. I’ve never fit in no matter what. I suck at life and want to die. I have no purpose or meaning in my life. I’m a failure and all I do is suck at life. The only purpose to my life is that of being a fucking loser nobody. I hate myself.
I’m never going to have friends. Nobody likes me. I’m drinking to numb my pain before another suicide attempt.
I’m going to try a variety of things tonight. I don’t belong here in this world and don’t know why I’m even here.
all that I am good at […]
Im an 18 year old male college student, and I’m home for the summer but have no friends and nobody to talk to, just myself and my thoughts… I can’t take it anymore. I almost failed out of college last semester because I slept through half my classes and stopped doing my work. There’s a lot of cool people I’ve met at college but I’ve slowly been distancing myself from them because of what I’m going to do. In 2 weeks I start work for a month and the tuesday after I finish work, I’m buying a gun and taking a bus somewhere way out […]
I am a 19-year old woman that has struggled with severe depression, anxiety, and eating disorders for the better part of my life.
All my life I needed to feel like someone needed me. Of course no one hasn’t; I’m a flaw in every way imaginable. I hurt people I love without intention and I never forgave myself for it. I just wanted someone to notice something wrong but nobody ever did. I didn’t mean for everything to come this far.
The man I love once told me that suicide is one of the most selfish acts one can committ. Its true. Suicide is an awful thing, […]
Days like today make me recount the week that I was hospitalized and my mother was the ONLY person who visited me, aside from my fiancee, who expressed the entire time how much he didn’t want to be there and constantly found excuses to go do stuff somewhere else. I’m so lonely. I’m not sure what it is about me that just repulses people. Nobody acts like they truly want to spend time with me. Right now I’m sitting alone at my kitchen table while I watch all of my fiancee’s friends play the new Mario Kart 8. There’s nowhere for me to sit and […]
from the moment I could talk, all ive ever wanted was to be helpful to someone, and make them happy, actually be worth something….. yet all my life I have felt that I never help anyone….I feel like no matter how hard I try, I will always remain usless and worthless….I feel like no one ever wants or needs me, and I don’t feel loved….. I just want to make someone smile…… but all I ever do is hurt them and make them angry……nobody loves me, nobody cares about me…..I just wish I could die….it would spare everyone from wasting their valuble effort on someone […]
Hi there, I stumbled across this site and I really think it’ll do me some good to post my “suicide story” here.
So, I’m 15 years old and have always struggled with depression. Currently, my life is falling apart. Please don’t tell me that “I’m only 15 and I don’t even know what it’s like to be depressed yet” because I really don’t want to hear it. I always have made an honest effort to just keep my head up and try to stay happy but it seems to get harder and harder each day. I’m not a smart kid, by any definition. My grades have […]
I guess lonely is the right word I’m a 24 year old male and literally nobody cares about me. All I want is to talk to someone . I hate my life.. I hate me. I really hate me. Â I just want it to be quick I’m slowly losing my sanity cuz my daydreaming.. Or fantasy world is the only place I’m happy I know fucking pathetic.. I’m not good with pain and I don’t want to put my fan through funeral expenses like just feed me to the gators. I just don’t know what to do
Are any of you in a situation in which most of your friends/peers are completely unaware of your depressive and suicidal tendencies? Have you ever gotten that feeling of disconnection that results from knowing that the person across from you, whom you may have known for almost your entire life, is still so fundamentally isolated from an aspect of your personality that consumes you everyday? As if nobody out there actually knows you? Almost like the social creature you’ve sustained over the years is some sort of agent dispatched by you to maintain the facade - Whilst the real you is still at home, under those sheets, constantly asking questions.
I’m just a girl… A girl who is truly broken, I have tried to kill myself many many many times. I have scars, scars all up my wrist all down my thighs. I guess I just want to let someone know what I’m feeling because I can’t talk about how I’m feeling to any of my loved ones, they can’t see me like this. I will kill myself, I will. It hurts knowing that nobody is there for you… Ever. My mom wanders why I am always sleeping, she has no Idea, I pray to god that I don’t wake up… Every night! But I […]
today was weird i look around me at all the people that are happy and wonder what is so wrong with me that i cant be like that. my friend came out as gay and nobody made fun of him, and yet i get made fun of all the time for no reason. i wish i was normal…
I have had more and less, yet I have always been a miserable person. My brain is not right. I am not capable of sustaining relationships with sabotage or to truly “connect”. There are a few things I would postpone my death for but once I got to experience them I would not consider it worth living for. I date someone who has no respect for me, I am an option to them and worth keeping around albeit at arms length. I am embarrassed I allow this and often times pursue it. If it weren’t for him though I would not have any social […]
When you log in there is a box that you can check so that the browser remembers your password. I hate… my brain sometimes. I realized I didn’t check the box after I logged in and it hit me. Nobody cares really. NOBODY. I was suicidal for a long time and now that I’m not suicidal? I wish I was still suicidal. I hate life. I hate people. You offer friendship and free shit to MFs and people STILL use and abuse you! I’m the only person I know that’s still somewhat “decent” in the world.
I ask people shit all the time and I get […]
i have become bored.i have become depressed again.there are times where i think if i get drunk or high it will go away but then it all goes away and once again i feel the pain.if you have ever did what i did to your family you know its hurts.i use to think my mom didtn care or love me.i alway thought she hated me and that i was a mistake.i honestly dont know what the hell i was thinking.when my mom found me and ishe looked at my right arms she couldnt believe her eyes.she saw 32 fresh cuts and didnt know why i […]