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Nutshell

How do you know when it’s time??

by Blue Butterfly 8/26/2013

written by Blue Butterfly

Hi there, i’m not going to bore you with my life story, i’ll be here all day! But just in a nutshell, I’ve suffered from severe depression, anxiety and Borderline personality disorder for over 10 years. I’ve tried absolutely everything to try get better, including ECT. Â Anyway, I’ve been thinking about suicide for at least the last 2 years and I’ve attempted several timesÂ with no luck (obviously!). I really cannot stand living anymore and the pain is unbearable!

Just out of curiosity, how do you know when enough is enough? I see some of you have set a deadline (scuse the pun) for your suicide. How […]

8/26/2013 5 comments

Eternally Single and Unemployed

by hehmylifestory 3/6/2013

written by hehmylifestory

In a nutshell: 23 years old, No job, never been in a serious relationship, living with my sibling who I can tell doesn’t want me to be here much longer. No money, no car, and since graduating and moving to a new city, no friends. I do EVERYTHING alone. I eat alone, I go out alone, I work out alone. Student loan payments will have to be made soon. Rent, car payments, a multitude of other bills with no job are coming. This isn’t what it was supposed to be like. By this point in my life I was supposed to be starting a new […]

3/6/2013 9 comments

Four more years in Hell, don’t think so.

by freezinginfire 2/18/2013

written by freezinginfire

My dad told me in the car the other day that I was going to hell.

I ate at a Chinese buffet and got a fortune cookie that said, “accept yourself.” I thought if I have already, then I’m a worthless piece of shit that no one wants. I’m invisible to most, but those who see me are disgusted and try to get rid of me, one permanently. They really shouldn’t waste their time, I’ll do it myself eventually. So, they just leave. If I haven’t accepted myself, I’m sure when I do I’ll kill myself realizing I’m worse than I think.

I can’t do this for […]

2/18/2013 10 comments

I want to die

by heated.throw.rug 11/6/2012

written by heated.throw.rug

I want to die.

It has taken me a long time to come to that conclusion.

Why do I want to die? In a nutshell: because I’m in intense emotional and mental pain.

The longer version?……… Life is too much of a struggle. Most things I go after results in total failure and misery. I find it very difficult to relate to people on a deeper emotional level. Conversing with people is an enormous challenge. I wish I didn’t stutter.

It tortures me that I can’t even say my name without stuttering. The look I receive from people when I stutter is extremely painful, so I mostly choose not […]

11/6/2012 1 comment

It doesn’t go away,does it?

by ravenstorm 9/5/2012

written by ravenstorm

Why doesnt it just go away and dissapear?

It burns deeper everyday and builds walls against the only friends I have left.

Alice in Chains helps…. I like their song nutshell.

It is really calming but painful to listen to…

I just want the pain to stop

I don’t want to hurt anymore

9/5/2012 3 comments

Important Discovery

by fromthisheight 7/14/2012

written by fromthisheight

I know a lot of people have issues against drugs, and especially illegal ones at that. However, the simple fact is without drugs we would be less of a productive society, but it depends on the drug of course; some drugs make our society worse. Â We know what they are, but I think we all can agree that some drugs have important application. Â If you’ve ever been suicidal (who hasn’t?), we know that something causes this reaction in our mind to give up. Â It’s due to ourselves unequipped to deal with the pain or failing to find the answers that got us to this point. […]

7/14/2012 4 comments

My fucked up story.

by murronmackayxx 7/2/2012

written by murronmackayxx

Okay,here goes.

My names murron mackay,incase you hadn’t guessed by my username, and today I was searching on the internet about getting help on being suicidal, and I stumbled on this website. I had a look through and thought I would add my story. It’s nothing huge, infact compared to most of the stories on here, it’s like nothing. But anyway, in a nutshell, here is my story.

Don’t get me wrong, I have a family, a roof over my head and even a boyfriend, and i know what you’s are all thinking, ‘Selfish *****’ etc etc..But before you judge, please read this blog and hear me […]

7/2/2012 6 comments

Completely empty and alone

by justindiowa 6/4/2012

written by justindiowa

My entire life seems cursed with pain, unfairness and shortcomings. My dad died when I was 14 and my grandparents were dead before I was born. My mom has tried hard to raise me right but she had to work 2 jobs my entire childhood and spent most of her free time with her boyfriend away from our home. In a nutshell I had to teach myself everything without much of a role model. During high school I turned to drinking beer and during my senior year I averaged an 18 pack of beer per night. My grades failed miserably and I never really had […]

6/4/2012 6 comments

Brainfreeze

by christina-- 3/5/2012

written by christina--

Ive been trying to type how I feel, but I just cant get my thoughts straight.Â I have this very often. I know what I want to say. And in my head I hear the exact sentence, I just cant get it of my lips. And its not only when talking about emotions, I also have it when I’m just in the middle of a random conversation. Like my brain kind of just stops and I just cant get the words out. The feeling of having something on the tip of your tongue, only difference is that I know what I want to say but […]

3/5/2012 15 comments

no purpose

by thor 7/15/2009

written by thor

hey, folks!

if I’m missing some of the finer arts of ortogrphay and grammar, please don`t blame me. i`m no native speaker of english, but joining this forum from overseas.

my point is though, i don`t see any meaning in life. i am not religious, i am an atheist.

i lost my job now twice by the company going ruinous in between twelve months an had a junior-managemt-position both times; also, the search for new employers isn`t working out too well.

and then, to mention also, i`m not one to make a familiy…

so, to put the whole matter in a nutshell, as i was tought would be a good […]

7/15/2009 5 comments