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Nothing can help…

by dbrowmm 6/29/2014

written by dbrowmm

I thought I was just depressed because I wasn’t active enough, so recently I’ve been hanging out with old friends and I got a job and started working out but even though I’ve made all of these steps I still feel depressed and suicidal almost every day. I still want to end this pain that I can’t find the source of and still want to shoot my stupid face.

I fucking thought that I could be helped and that I could find the solace I’m looking for but, no matter how many people I can bond with, no matter how many girls I aimlessly flirt with, […]

6/29/2014 1 comment

lost

by hopelessshawn 6/28/2014

written by hopelessshawn

Everything is the same every day.

It’s just the same thing over and over again.

No one is theirselves we all belong to the system

slowly were all dying.

The only thing that keeps me going

Is that maybe one day I’ll find peace

theres nothing I want more than to live in the forest

Leave this pathetic way of life behind, sitting our life away one day at a time, I really love those of you that are reading this right now whatever you may be going through

im so tired of living so mindlessly

I’m 19 years old and have had enough of this game.

I could sing, or hit the gym and […]

6/28/2014 4 comments

How Much Longer

by PrisonBound 6/26/2014

written by PrisonBound

Simple events cause downward spirals of pain and hopelessness. 45 years old and nothing to show…a complete loser and let down to everyone that knows me. It’s too late. People who say its never too late don’t know the pain, the challenges, the guilt, the shame. Maybe its not too late, but it feels like it.

6/26/2014 14 comments

What Do You Do When Your Entire Family Tree Is Full Of Nuts?

by EmberFalls 6/25/2014

written by EmberFalls

I hope no one takes offense to the “Nuts” line.

Humor’s my go to when I’m trying to cover up my true feelings.

This is my first post.

Actually, I didn’t even know this site existed until about an hour ago.

Well, here it goes…

I’m 28 years old. I’ve struggled with depression & anxiety since I was a child. When I was a teenager I cut my wrists (not deep). I don’t think I wanted to […]

6/25/2014 8 comments

hello from new zealand

by BigMan79 6/25/2014

written by BigMan79

hello,

I am from new zealand. I am a 35 yr old man who hears distressing voices 24/7 and for the last 7 yrs. There really is little hope for me as i have tried all of the world’s medications without success. I have also tried acupuncture, psychological therapy and hypnotherapy without any luck. When you reach the end of the road with respect to possible fixes you just feel like crap and wonder what the point of it all is.

For me its quite ridiculous that i could still be alive 20 years from now. It means a whole lot of suffering occured from between now […]

6/25/2014 5 comments

I think I’m ready to go now.

by Itsfinallyhere 6/24/2014

written by Itsfinallyhere

For years I have wanted to go. Ever since I was 4/5 years old. I have never felt normal. I just want to stop these thoughts and feelings in my head. My community mental health team have given up. No more medication or help. So I’ve given up. I just want the courage to go through with it. I’m in a downwards spiral and it’s not stopping. I have no friends and my family have distanced themselves so I’ve nothing to lose. I just want gone. Sorry to sound like a kid having a tantrum, I’m actually 26.

6/24/2014 4 comments

Ugh….

by blueeyedpanda 6/24/2014

written by blueeyedpanda

I was sexually abused as a child. I was physically, verbally and emotionally abused through childhood and my early teens. I’m super screwed up. I can’t control my emotions and I get depressed. Suicide seems very glamorous to me. I’ve thought about it ever since I was 7 or 8 years old. Life terrifies me unless I’m drinking or doing drugs. I’m a cutter. I’ve never attempted suicide because I always chicken out in the end, but I’m getting closer to the brink.

6/24/2014 5 comments

Suicidal Friend

by New Shoes 6/23/2014

written by New Shoes

I have an old friend who deals with suicidal thoughts on occasion. He told me today he was going to kill himself over the weekend but postponed until Wednesday. I know he has tried before so I have every reason to believe him. He said he tells me because I won’t judge and suffer from the same thoughts and failed attempts. Granted I never give anyone a “warning” to put them in a position to act or have to make that decision. I agree it’s a personal decision but when you bring other people into the mix the dynamic changes. So what do I do? […]

6/23/2014 5 comments

Walking Dead 1

by Teaks 6/23/2014

written by Teaks

I first had thoughts of suicide when I was six years old. I don’t know why or what triggered it. I just remembered, that there were reports of people committing suicide by jumping off buildings in the newspaper, and I was, for some reason, unhappy, and wanted to hurt myself.

I remembered bashing my head on the tiled floor of my room, then climbing up on a high chair and jumping off, hoping I’d snap my necks when I land.

I remembered banging my head on hard walls, like I am trying to silence screams filling up my head.

I remembered being at school, unhappy. My classroom was […]

6/23/2014 0 comment

Lethe

by Iriega 6/23/2014

written by Iriega

Hello again. It’s been a long time, three or four years I think, since I was last here. I’m grateful for the rest at least.

I’ve fallen back into old thoughts, old habits. It’s scary how easy it is. Maybe ‘comfortable’ is the wrong word but it’s so … I don’t know it’s like shrugging on that threadbare jacket at the back of the closet the one you never wear in public but the one that makes you feel right. And the pressure is held back for a time because I know how to work within these boundaries, these battle lines are familiar. It’s me against […]

6/23/2014 3 comments

alien suicide

by addicted 6/20/2014

written by addicted

There was inter star meet.

Where organizer auctioning different planets

For some reason, I brought planet earth hoping it will be profitable

When I see into it, it is full of species called humans

Only 20% of those species are really useful for me

I separated brain out of those 20% humans and threw remaining part(body) of the humans and also I threw away that useless planet

Now I realized these preserved brains are useless because those brains are so screwed up with concepts like god, billion year old concepts of physics, crap philosophy and full of self-convincing power.

To solve a problem which I can in a day, they took 10 […]

6/20/2014 2 comments

I am an Angel.

by deadtragedy 6/19/2014

written by deadtragedy

Everyday that I am alive, is just another day that i want to die. I see people living life and taking happiness for granted.
This is not the life i wanted to live, I wanted to be happy. I sound like i am a 12 year old girl with one problem, but in reality i am 16 yrs old and i have more than one problem. It feels like i have a million problems , no one is here to help I get taken for granted , one day when i am gone they are gonna mourn and grieve and lie about the things they […]

6/19/2014 1 comment

5 years later

by elodin 6/17/2014

written by elodin

I just found today an old post of mine to this site, back in 2009. I have lost the login because I don’t have anymore the email account that I used. A long story. My nick was griks and here is the post:

http://suicideproject.org/2009/11/it-all-sucks/

It was me. I remember I just posted that and didn’t look anymore. I am shocked the post has 19 comments. From almost every year , and the last one is from January 2014, only 5 months ago! and I posted that on 2009.

I said I didn’t know why I shared that and now I still don’t know why I am writing […]

6/17/2014 0 comment

by Remnant The Unbroken 6/16/2014

written by Remnant The Unbroken

My name is Gianna, I’m 20 years old, and the grim reaper has officially laid claim to my soul.

6/16/2014 2 comments

Yup; it’s about a guy.

by Everley Sappling 6/15/2014

written by Everley Sappling

He left with her; ten years younger than I. How the hell can I compete? He is so beautiful to look at I want to stab a knife in my stomach and rip all the guts out by turning. I can’t have what I want. I want him. He wants her: story of my life. I saw them leave together. So I ended up drunk at some house party where I made a fool of myself and let some dumb dog chew my hands and arms to bits. I feel nothing. It felt so good at the time to let the dog chew and chew […]

6/15/2014 2 comments

6 feet from the edge

by notwhoiwanttobe 6/14/2014

written by notwhoiwanttobe

Just another day of fighting with my fiancee. God, I CAN’T wait to find employment and move out of here. I have to. It’s so miserable knowing that I’m a 25 year old who will never be married as long as I’m with him. He’s verbally and physically abusive, and never sorry about it. He controls everything and takes so much from me. When his plans fall through, it’s my fault, or anyone else’s but his. He literally believes that he is God, and should actually be locked up in a psych ward. The amount of times that I should have called the cops on […]

6/14/2014 3 comments

im a big looser and i want to hurt myself alot

by Death - joker 6/13/2014

written by Death - joker

im a big big losser , i failed in everything in my life . i failed to get a job even im an engineer , failed to get a driving lisecnce even im 24 years old but i keep fail in the exam. i failed in love and she cheated on me . i failed in my body and i gained 35 lb and lost my hair

how my life can get worse than this ?!?!?!

6/13/2014 5 comments

Lost Cause

by that-guy-danny 6/12/2014

written by that-guy-danny

I’m 16 years old and I’m considering suicide. My life is so useless I’m nothing but a leeche that sucks off my mother and fathers hard working cash. everytime I try to look at my sister to say hi she looks at me as if I was a creep . My own brother calls me a fatty and never stops saying it but he’s right. I’m addicted to gaming and this has led to my bad grades and I could never make my mom and dad proud. I’m so lazy and a waste of space this is all my fault I’m obese and I have […]

6/12/2014 5 comments

Going to off myself when I get the money to buy a gun

by dbrowmm 6/12/2014

written by dbrowmm

Im an 18 year old male college student, and I’m home for the summer but have no friends and nobody to talk to, just myself and my thoughts… I can’t take it anymore. I almost failed out of college last semester because I slept through half my classes and stopped doing my work. There’s a lot of cool people I’ve met at college but I’ve slowly been distancing myself from them because of what I’m going to do. In 2 weeks I start work for a month and the tuesday after I finish work, I’m buying a gun and taking a bus somewhere way out […]

6/12/2014 1 comment

life is useless

by neetu 6/10/2014

written by neetu

life is useless for me…. i’m 40 years now…. i spent most of my life dealing with depression….. i took lot of antidepressents but for some reason i don’t feel i’m the same person after taking antidepressents for so long….. i wake up everyday thinking i have nothing to do, how will this day pass….. i try to sleep as much as possible but that doesn’t help always…. i have lived alone and don’t have friends so its gets tough… i feel i’m too old to make friends now…. i’m too old to start my life…. i have no goals, nothing to accomplish….. so why […]

6/10/2014 6 comments

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