Why is life so unfair? I’ll never understand. I’ll never understand why people can be so cruel, why people die, why we cant be happy. We are in a world where people actually want to die. But not for selfish reasons, not really. We just want the pain to end. And people dont get that. Many times Ive dreamt about ways to die. My friend says its “a cry for help.” But when I was doing it I didnt care about wanting to be saved. I just wanted it to end, it meaning the pain, the depression, the sadness. I didnt mean to fail those […]
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I have always wanted a best friend, and the only thing close to that was this girl named Breanna*, but she got mad a lot at me for not thinking the was she does and she had another group she would hang around with and i dont think they liked me because in a way i was a higher class then them but i never saw people as classes i just saw them for who they were. Anyway back to my point, it is not like i dont have any friends, but these friends are more like, how would you put it.. acquaintance. Everyone seems to […]
Goodbye, I wish I could have left you with more. But, this pretty much sums up why I have decided to move on. Don’t worry, if there is such a thing as ghosts I will stay and watch over you all until the end.
I have always felt that suicide was connected to communication. Not due to a lack of opportunity, but to an impossibility to communicate and be understood. It can be frustrating to try to share something with somebody, something important and real to you, and see in the face of another person that he doesn’t care or, worse still, simply doesn’t understand you. […]
I feel no one or nothing has ever given me the opportunity at life or love or friendships or to even have a family I just never had a chance ever,by no one or nothing.. I feel the only thing I can control is my own death…..and this will happen and I will die…no matter how many times I get it wrong I WILL GET IT RIGHT EVENTUALLY.
I’m a loser,no job,no talent,no friends,no family,never had someone really love me it was all fake. All I am doing is existing I am not living I have felt this way since eight years old when I lost a pet bird and realize how life is so short and things around you die and leave pain behind. I truly want to not exist any longer…. too many things have gone wrong in my life and I cannot erase or ignore this darkness that has taken over me and follows me everywhere. Why does the world look at people like me as insane or crazy or […]
I used to joke that even if you lose everything …your money, your friends, your self respect… you always have sleep. That’s not even true. The nightmares, replays of each horrible day, are worse than my days. Sleep, once my only savior, is now just another one of my cruel enemies beating me down at every opportunity.
So each day I grit my teeth and wait for it to be over, and each night I lie awake waiting for the sun to come up. There is no escape from my diseased mind, except to blast it into 1000 pieces. God bless gunpowder.
Please keep yourselves alive, for although your present circumstance might seem helpless and hopeless, it most likely will change for the better, and at least give yourselves the opportunity to cultivate abstract hope in the absence of hope, for this shall help you ride out the hopelessness of a future down cycle.
I was watching this movie called My S.O. Has Got Depression about a Man who gets depression and struggles to deal with it and how it affects his relationship with his wife. What I liked about this movie was how it well it depicted depression but for me what really made it hit home was Tsure’s (main  character) feelings of uselessness and how some of the people around him wouldn’t understand his depression and would approach him with a “you need to toughen up” approach to things. After watching the movie I read an interview about Tenten Hosokawa the author who wrote the book that […]
Often times I wonder how I reached this point. This point of no return. Of an endless repitition of internal suffering. I can’t really think of an answer. Perhaps that means that I was just destined to be this way.
Many different people think the solution is simply, talking about your feelings or seeing a shrink or just looking at life at a different angle. But they’re all wrong. Because no matter what people say on the outside, you’ll always be that suicidal kid (no matter how old you are, actually) and despite all of the nice things they’ll say, no matter how much they tell you that they like you or that you […]
No matter how bad you feel and how difficult it is to get going – remember that any opportunity is a possible turn of fortune.
The laws of co-incidence mean that situations and people will keep coming into your life, provided you keep getting out there. That means that your future could be better as a chain reaction gets going.
Ignoring / blocking opportunities that arise by being too depressed, means that you might be preventing yourself from meeting someone that you need to meet., without realising that you are limiting your situation.
Keep going each day and look your best – care about yourself and try […]
My name is Josh, I am a 20y/o guy who lives with his parents. I’ve tried to live with some friends, in the past, it never worked (I could never find a job in my area). I recently had an opportunity to move to a better location, and maybe find a job. Someone (I know this person) screwed me over, I felt shot down, and I didn’t know what to do, so I moved in with my parents again. Its been about a month since that happened, and now I am slowly turning into a sociopath. I couldn’t care less about the people around me. After my […]
I am dying inside in a sort or agony/hell/torture that is literally unimaginable! I have the perfect opportunity right now to end it! I won’t have this opportunity again for several days! I could be setting up the equipment right now as we speak and be gone within a hour. BUT NOOOO, I don’t have the fucking balls enough to go thru with it! I’m too afraid of the pain which I know will be over within 5-20 mins. The pain I have been feeling for the last 12 years by far out weighs the pain of hanging myself. I KNOW THIS! BUT I STILL […]
He’s in the process of breaking my heart. Its been over a year, and I love him more than anything but for every high there is a low.
I never hurt myself before you, and now I’m looking for ways to cover up cuts. I know, pathetic.
I was walking home along the road yesterday looking at every car that passes as an opportunity to no longer feel this way.
We’re still together, but need time apart? I feel like I’m gonna lose you to someone else, and I know that you don’t even treat me right half the time so why am I so […]
The ability to think is infinite, the options are scarce in the analysis, and the desicion at the end is unique and irreparable. If wrong the worst, if succesful the best. Once you’ve lost everything that has meaning and importance, once you’ve tried to recover it, trying all possible options to try and failed in every one of them, once you realize it wasn’t possible you tried the impossible and still didn’t work out. Once you have resigned to not getting anything back but still you can’t forget it. One time that becomes one thousand and one times. However this must be an opportunity to […]
what’s the point of being alive ?
chase after futile things, do whatever it takes to not think much of the triviality of life ?
give society the power and right to tell you how to feel, think, judge .. tell you how to live ?
hide yourself behind appearances to appear better than the next (wo)man ?
help people so you can tell yourself you’re making the world a better place ? (no offense to therapists, healers etc since they’re helpful to some)
I’m gonna give this world the opportunity to surprise me, to have me thinking: “wow it’s truly worth being here” and believe it
if I haven’t changed […]
I am going to move it is unavoidable, and i have to keep it a secret… but i told my boyfriend and he broke up with me. He only did it because of this but the truth is i am not moving for another year… and this really hurt. I am dealing with depression and he didn’t really know the extent of it… and this really crushed me. He is really honest with me and tells me everything still, we are really close and that hasn’t ended but i am still so confused… you see he told me he still loved me and he didn’t want […]