I want to die. Can i please just die i’ve been suicidal since i was 11 and i just want to die i’ve tried to commit suicide before but i was unseccesful i wish my brother hadn’t walked in. If he didn’t then all my pain would be gone.
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Just a few things on my mind and I may seem harsh but reading some of these comments are making me ill. Your all encouraging each other to take your life’s? Giving each other options for easy ways out? I have been in the exact same situation as many of you&it does get better. We don’t need to encourage each other to take the easy way out. We need to be sharing some fucking hope! So if I come across as harsh, it’s because I generally care.
First of all, I don’t give a shit what anyone says; There is no reason why you should take […]
This is it. I’ve finally reached the ultimate irreversible thought of suicide, and never going back to the ‘so called’ dumb shit life. It’s gonna be a slow suicide anyway, it’ll probably take about 2 weeks for me to be completely dead, without being taken to the hospital. Now the hardest part is to pretend like I’m not dying haha. I’d like to say sincere goodbye to my dumb life, and my closest one’s, who’d hurt me too much that I didn’t want to live anymore. I have no worries that I’m leaving my parents behind. They truly don’t need a worhtless child as me. […]
I wish the last two people who care about me would stop so I can just kill myself and end this pain already.
written by amandahernandez06
First post here….. I don’t know.. I’ve lost everyone and the only two left don’t know. They wouldn’t understand…. I need someone who is non judgement all to help me through this… I’ve lost all hope.
Ive always wondered if life was genuinely worth all the pain and anxiety. It seems like in order for me to live peacefully I need to inflict pain on myself and is that really a way to live? Is it worth feeling this everyday until eventually one day I die? If it’s going to happen at some point anyway then I’d hope for it to happen sooner rather than later to be honest.
Today was my birthday, drove to beach with a friend and imbibed a lot of liqor at the beach, shared momemories and laughed. Got back home and slid back to my depression and existential crisis. Holding pills in cupped hands and crying. I want the pain to stop. Can’t go on like this.
I’m jealous. Not with what you would think, but I’m jealous of the people that gained enough courage to end their life. I’m jealous of the people that have cancer. Believe me, I’d trade my healthy body for yours. I know I don’t want to be here. I’m 19 and I already have my will written waiting on the day I finally muster enough courage and kill myself. I actually laugh because I like to cut myself to feel the pain and see me bleeding but I want a painfree death. I try to be happy but I fool everybody but myself. I’m not happy. […]
Most of my life is dominated by fear. So why not lay it out. What’s the worst thing that I can imagine?
I suppose it’s experiencing neverending pain, torment, horror, terror etc. That’s what ideas of hell tend to invoke. It’s hard to imagine feeling that kind of extreme negative emotion non-stop, for all eternity. Surely you’d become numb to any kind of torture, given enough time. But I can’t dismiss it entirely. The idea of hell has a deep grip on a part of my psyche. Because it feels I deserve that kind of punishment. I can’t really square that with my rational side. I […]
People need to understand that an ounce of happiness that comes into your life, will disappear in a matter of seconds. Theres no such thing as happiness. You can’t live happily ever after. This world is so messed up that people will convince your mind into thinking that your pain will go away, even though later that person is the actual causer of your pain.
People in relationships think that they’ll last forever and get married and have kids. No. Relationships don’t last. So I don’t really understand why people would put themselves through that kind of pain when they know that it’ll end badly for […]
…when all is said and done,it all boils down to one simple but nevertheless a very haunting question which he ask himself,”How much more can a man take before he breaks?” How much pain and regrets can one hold in his heart before his mind snaps and gives away to oblivion
I ask you all fine people, how much more can one take when he realizes that he has reached his end and he has exhausted all his faith and reasons to live in this world.That is when he takes the leap to his death and starts on a journey in search of peace through eternity.
Thank […]
Today is one of those days when it’s difficult to just exist. When thinking is your worst enemy. When you just want to disappear.
Even though it hasn’t been a particularly bad day, nothing feels right. I’m such an useless pessimist.
-V
From the rope
I used to be a number one
Like I was, Washington
All alone like still no-one knows
Embracing the truth
Down, so ever down
Grime and the muck
I guess if I’m on my own, now
Do not wish for to find, but be the way
For me
Like the pain of singularity
The child of the pity and of the piety
Humility
Diffidence
To Undead, if you leave
I reckon, the cycle went along.
“Did you really wanna die? No one commits suicide because they want to die. Then why did they do it? Because they wanna stop the pain.” – Tiffanie DeBartolo
by Dusty96
written by Dusty96
Found this quote and thought of it to be very true. I’m done. I’m sorry mom, dad, and brother but I need to do this. When I get the chance I’m hanging myself. I have no motivation to get a job, start a career, or just live in general. Nothing appeals to me in life. I’m a broken soul with no home here. I have parents that love me and I have a roof over my head and I should be grateful for that which I really really am but I don’t want it. I just don’t want to be here anymore. The depression hasn’t […]
“It has been said, ‘time heals all wounds.’ I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone.”
by luke23
written by luke23
Do you agree with it mates?
I can’t take this pain anymore. I’m a young adult not even able to drink and my family disowned me. My boyfriend broke up with me and is already seeing someone else even though I still love him. I have no home and my only hope is to become a stripper to pay the bills and I’m not sure that’s even going to cut it. I don’t have a car either. I feel like I’m suffocating with nothing going for me. All I feel is so much pain and agony I can’t breathe.
How will I face reality? How will i be strong enough? In reality the cold hard truth is revealed. In reality i am forced into this shell that is damaged and different. In reality thoughts of how worthless, ugly, fat and not good enough i am rush into my head. In reality thoughts of the future worry and scare me. In reality i ask myself “When will this end?” when i should be focusing on “How will this end?” So how? How can i stop hiding my pain and my fears and be okay. How am i going to be strong enough to not have […]
It’s currently 12:54 AM and in less than an hour, my brother (basically the main reason why I’m alive today) will be leaving the country to live in Scotland. It’s a safe guess to say that today will be one of the hardest and saddest, if not the most, days I’ve lived. I don’t think I’m really prepared for this, at least emotionally.
I mean, he basically raised me. I really don’t know how this is going to affect my mental state, but as long as he’s happy, so am I.
After all, this will not be goodbye,
but until next time.
-V
I used to be a very cheerful girl until the day I transferred to a new school. I thought people would accept me if I came here. I mean like this place isn’t my hometown neither is it my home country.
On my first day to this school, I introduced myself with hesitation and nervousness. At the break time, it felt like as if I was already accepted. But I thought way too fast and got it wrong. I was verbally bullied on my first day. I was talked about around the class for that time. But then soon enough they ‘befriended’ […]