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Don’t judge me

by determined_rebel 1/9/2013

written by determined_rebel

So I was thinking a lot about my life…and how it turned out so far. Everyone that I know thinks I live such a good life, or atleast should. I have such a nice house, live in literally the nicest neighboorhood, have two parents, perfect grades, colleges asking ME to apply to THEM, own my own car, work at an IT job that pays a lot, have perfect skin….

And yet that brings me no joy, I’m missing the happiness from it all. I don’t want that. What am I leaving out from what I already said? Oh yeah…how I was raised in the hood, or […]

1/9/2013 0 comment

How could I even describe how much i hate living?

by idgaf44 1/9/2013

written by idgaf44

I’ve been on this site many times before…Reading this blog is like reading the Bible to me. It’s refreshing to be able to read all the honest feelings in these posts. I am not happy to read about how so many of us are suffering, but at the same time, it’s nice to know thatÂ I am not alone in how I feel at times…Well most of the time. I wish that I could accurately describe how fucked up my life is…It really is exceptionally miserable. I’ve spent the majority of my life with depression and anxiety…But I always had hope for the the future..Hope for […]

1/9/2013 1 comment

Tried to take 70 pills, cops stopped me.

by Eschaton 1/5/2013

written by Eschaton

Hello! They say writing and sharing your experiences can be therapeutic, and in my case that is especially true. So, today I thought I’d take a moment to sit down and have a little chat with all of you.

My story really begins about 8-9 months ago. I was going through a rough time, I had just found out I have a lump in my spine. In the past years I have been diagnosed with:

Reynauds Disease
Fibromyalgia
Osteoporosis (in my neck)
Osteoarthritis (neck, again)
Heart Arrhythmia
Severe Insomnia […]

1/5/2013 2 comments

Feeling pain.

by moonpig 1/5/2013

written by moonpig

I just come across this site and thought I want to contribute.

i have recently got back from hospital after my third attempt to overdose. As a child my parents were violent and drug abusesers, I was in care for a while made homeless twice by my mother. Beaten, emotionally abused. I lived with an auntie for a big chunk of time who also abandoned me at 13. My dad left the house when I was 16 leaving me to look after my 14 year old brother. My mum come out of prison and set the house on fire. As I have grown up I have […]

1/5/2013 1 comment

Suffering in Silence.

by dyingindesguise 1/5/2013

written by dyingindesguise

I’ve been silently suffering for a while now. I have had thoughts about killing myself several times, but they mostly hit late at night, which is when i feel most alone. I’ve pushed everyone in my life out and i’ve secluded myself from a lot, but not on purpose, it just kind of happened. I’ve lost a lot of people, and i feel like if i just did it and wasn’t such a coward i’d be in a much better place. I’m afraid of doing it because i don’t know what happens next, but i’m sure whatever happens next after that, is a lot better […]

1/5/2013 3 comments

Suicide Note

by justsoyouknow 1/4/2013

written by justsoyouknow

I’ve made up my mind. I don’t know if my parents will see this. Anyone feel free to email my mom this;
kira5605@yahoo.com

Dear Mom,
I can’t do this anymore. I know it’s hard for you to take care of me while living with dad. He’s un grateful and cruel. He hits both of us. I hate seeing you hurt. He always tells me that his life would have been better if I wasn’t born. If it was just you and him, no one else. Because of that, I think it’s the only way to keep you from hurting. I love you dearly. I want you […]

1/4/2013 8 comments

Almost lost control

by EmoFaby 1/4/2013

written by EmoFaby

Today I almost made an enormous cut on my hand. But don’t worry i just made a few short cuts but I was really angry and frustrated. I hate it when I’m forced to do something I don’t want to do or do right away.I also hate it when my parents don’t understand me and what I’m going through. They never listen!!! I wish they would listen to me more often and I bet they would understand but even if I ask them to listen to me for just one second they still don’t get what I’m saying ‘cus they still NEVER listen.

I wish I […]

1/4/2013 2 comments

daddys little girl

by bloodytruth 1/3/2013

written by bloodytruth

ive always been a daddys girl, growing up i always wanted to be with him! every field trip, every camping trip, my dad was the first person i ran to.. my mom and dad split when i was in 5th grade and things started to change.. i saw my dad cry for the first time, i have never seen him so mad. my dad started drinking and became more agressive.. i eventually came out to my parents and my dad didnt mind at all my mom at first was uneasy with it then she came around.. reacently i lost my girlfiend in a car accident, […]

1/3/2013 2 comments

HURT and BROKEN and IN MY MIND ITS RAINING

by fakingit 1/2/2013

written by fakingit

i dont know what i want. no one cares at all. im not even all that pretty, which proves im not loved just used. how many times am i ganna try suicide til i succeed? probably countless cuz i obviously suck at trying. my family hates me..thats not even a question..they really do. i want someone to listen to me. and when i say im upset to actually listen not ignore me cuz it upsets them. i want someone who will stay by my side no matter what happens. cuz i need them more then they know. my life was getting better now its spiraling […]

1/2/2013 0 comment

How does it feel?

by Wishitwasbetter 1/1/2013

written by Wishitwasbetter

How does it feel? Your brother sees the cuts on your wrist. The scars on your thighs. He tells your sisters and parents. Now everyone knows. Months later… Your brother tells you to stop being so mad ” This is getting old. Nobody gives a shit. Deal with it. Emo” Then your sisters… ” Stop being so mean to people. They did nothing to you.” NOTHING? HUH. Thats why i have bruises from Dad. Thats why mom use to yell at me for trying to make new friends. HOW DOES IT FEEL? They are the reason i’m this way… Then there is people at school. […]

1/1/2013 6 comments

3 days trapped

by raesayshello 12/31/2012

written by raesayshello

I locked myself in my room for tree days now without food and water. I’ve been crying and thinking for these past 3 days. I locked myself because I got into a fight and mostly because I’m done. I’m done with everyone. Nobody understands me, I ask for help nobody gives me help. Everybody tells me the same thing everyday. My parents thinks i’m going through that teenage stage but actually its more then that. I’m sick of everyone.

I wish i wasn’t caught from those 3 times a tried to kill myself. I wish I was the one who died instead of my best friend […]

12/31/2012 4 comments

Broken home

by complicatedmee 12/30/2012

written by complicatedmee

It feels like I don’t even have a family. My parents argue and then end up ignoring each other for months. I’m so tired of it.. its been going on since I was about 11 and now I’m 19! If I had the money to move out, I would. But I have school to pay for and by living with them, I don’t have to worry about rent,food, and other stuff like that. My life sucks!!!! I hate it. I feel bad saying that because others have it way worse than me but that’s how I truly feel. This house is not even a home.. […]

12/30/2012 2 comments

back into the loop again.

by madwolf 12/30/2012

written by madwolf

I woke up very anxious and stressed this morning. It’s midnight here now. And I’m thinking of suicide again. And murder. My parents’ arguing woke me up. It always bothers me when they fight. Why? Because I have a crazy mother. Yes, crazy. Clinically diagnosed with bipolar disorder or manic-depressive illness. I have seen her at a low level to the highest peak of her craziness. And when she gets nuts, really nuts, I shake like hell. I hate how much I am unable to control it. I always tell myself to toughen up but my body and mind defies me. I put […]

12/30/2012 4 comments

Interesting Week

by RuinsOfTheVoid 12/30/2012

written by RuinsOfTheVoid

So as it turns out one of my closest friends is gay. He came out about 4 days ago and we were all shockedÂ becauseÂ he has had more GF’s than me in the past. WeÂ didn’tÂ really know what to say, weÂ couldn’tÂ really say much since he just text us this.

We all met up the other night and it was the first real test to see if things were going to be different just because he was gay. Â I like to think we are an open minded bunch, and I also liked to think that I am notÂ prejudicedÂ againstÂ anyone for any reason.Â But you never really know if your comfortable […]

12/30/2012 9 comments

These walls were built around me.

by OddOneOut 12/30/2012

written by OddOneOut

Depression…It can come to anyone but that doesn’t mean it comes to everyone. It doesn’t just HAPPEN like that either. If you’re depressed, there’s a reason to it and it’s not something silly or stupid, it’s actually quite serious.
Right?
So that means all the people telling me that I’m looking for attention are wrong, and that something has happened within my lifespan to cause depression in my life. I’m not being an a**hole, attention-seeking or anything. I’m actually depressed.
But then there’s no cure to this. No-one to talk to around me, those whom I CAN talk to are far away, nad many people […]

12/30/2012 4 comments

Numb

by mysmilecoversalot :) 12/29/2012

written by mysmilecoversalot :)

Yesterday I went to a family Christmas party on my mom’s side of the family.

Two years ago this party was something my entire family attended, all 5 of my sisters and I would go together, with our parents. We were all there every single year, together.

However since that time, everything has changed. My 19 year old sister was kicked out of my family when she was 17 causing my parents to accuse anyone trying to help my sister of taking sides. Because of my parents choices, I wasn’t allowed to see my sister, grandma, aunt, or cousins, except for once or twice a year. […]

12/29/2012 1 comment

Sometimes I wonder, really wonder, if there is anyone who would actually miss me if I left.

by Silverteardrops 12/29/2012

written by Silverteardrops

Itâ€™s so hard, that even though I love and cherish life I donâ€™t want to throw it away, I donâ€™t want to let him win. But they just donâ€™t seem to see just how hard it is. Why wonâ€™t they make it stop?

Someone, anyone, has got to see the effect it has on me right? Someones got to see what he’s doing? But he’s “My dad” Â right? Im must be a typical spoilt brat teenager, parents don’t bully their children, if only they FUCKING KNEW. Someones got to see, got to be ale to help me, Except, Iâ€™m too good at pretending, to good for […]

12/29/2012 2 comments

Needy

by dead2me 12/29/2012

written by dead2me

Hi, my names sarah I’m 14, school is horrendous I don’t get bullied but I’m invisible no one notices me and its all my fault cos in year 7 I would make bullshit up to try and fit in, and it worked at first then it backfired when my parents split up,I live with my mum who is now marrying a new guy in 2013 but the real reason I’m on here is because I’m in love with 2 people that I cannot have, the first lets call him Ben is my ex I loved him so much and I still do but when I […]

12/29/2012 4 comments

I don’t agree with life

by cyanidesofmarch 12/28/2012

written by cyanidesofmarch

I guess we all have different reasons for being here. For me it keeps coming back to the same thing: I’m not convinced that life is a good thing.

All living things are born with some sort of survival instinct. But has anyone rationalized why we should want to live? I think it’s just some sort of selfish programming, like the desire to take whatever you want. In the case of taking things (stealing), we’ve learned to suppress that instinct. Mindless carnal instincts like rape & violence are mostly suppressed too. But still there’s that ridiculous “self preservation” thing that nobody ever questions.

Maybe I was born […]

12/28/2012 6 comments

I’ve decided.

by EmmaBear92 12/27/2012

written by EmmaBear92

I did some research on the most painful type of death you can have..they said “liver failure” was. Since I deserve a slow and painful death without my parents figuring out that I killed myself, I figured that was the best way. I went to the store and bought three bottles of Tylenol, I figured that should suffice. How could that NOT give me instant liver failure? I won’t get a donor in time and BAM, I’m gone. That’s it, no more me. Finally have the guts to do it. I just don’t know when I’m going to…The timing has to be perfect.

12/27/2012 8 comments

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