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I don’t want to die…

by justy
written by justy

I don’t want to die, but…

There are times, last night for example, when it’s all I can do to hang on to whatever I can to keep from doing something I can never take back. Those nights where the blackness has swirled up around me to grasp at my throat and just choke the life out of me.

It’s a difficult thing to explain, but I’ll do my best. Here’s how I’ve described it to my therapists.

It’s like there are two people inside of me. There’s me, and then there’s the dark me. We’ll call the ‘me’ that’s okay #1 and the dark me #2. #1 […]

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the sense of peace..

by fakingit
written by fakingit

idk. so i can look at anyone oranything and instanttly feel peace around them..like they dont fear waking up in the moring terrified what will happen to them..i go shopping and when i see like bed covers i see them and say to myself “i can spend forever under those covers oh wait i cant-_- i face a demanding sister that never lets me sleep once shes awake or be in my room…i walk around and look in front of me but whats actually there isnt what i see. i see a vision of peace i can sit happily on the couch or walk around […]

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I need to stop…

by nightmarechild
written by nightmarechild

I cut. A lot..

I’ve done it for about a year. I swore to myself I would never harm myself like that, but look where I am now. I have an arm and two ankles covered in scars and cuts. I think of cutting as a stronger way of crying; i feel so weak just bursting into tears, so intsted i cut, it shows i’m strong enough to deal with pain. But now I know I need to stop. People who mean so much to me tell me I need to stop. I’m loosing people because of it. I nearly went to hospital because the bleeding wouldn’t stop. […]

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I want to share this with you, maybe some of you will like it…

by maybe_soon_500_days_of_you
written by maybe_soon_500_days_of_you

Just a  little verse in english of a german electronic band, that made me feel very well. I loved the moment when I heard this one the first time 🙂

 

” … Life is beautiful, you only have to see it. When everything gets too gray, just screw in the color. I have seen in my travels that we seek happiness because we don’t understand. because we don’t understand … ”

I hope things will get better for all of us. But sometimes I think we just have to make the best of our lives, because sometimes live is better to us, then we think it is. Take […]

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Decision

by humansdestroyhumanity
written by humansdestroyhumanity

I’ve decided upon a solution to my issues that I find works better than counseling.

A) Because counseling pisses me off.

B) Because I find that all of the 9 or 10 counsellors that I’ve seen in the past 5 years or so have tried to make me conform to what society deems normal or happy.

My solution?  Trying to be as true to myself as possible.  I know it doesn’t exactly sound like a solution, or it sounds like a cliche one, but it’s been working so far.  For me, this means that if listening to ‘depressing’ music makes me feel a bit of peace or happiness, […]

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Daddy’s little princess

by restrictingheart
written by restrictingheart

I’m no longer daddy’s little girl. The princess of his castle. There is no wonder left, no stories of wonderful lands and castles in far away places. Just the terrifying nightmares that haunt me in my sleep. The ones of innocence taken away, the ones of betrayal. Daddy stars in my nightmare and this time he brought friends. Because I have no hope of being successful there’s only one thing I’m good for now.

I stand lost in my nightmare with pain and sadness. I see myself shatter time and time again. And then suddenly I’ve had enough i can take no more pain. I don’t want to feel anymore so I […]

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Hate for my kind

by TarotXIII
written by TarotXIII

It’s gradualy filling up.My heart is turning jet black,I just feel it.It always felt so empty but now the void is replaced with hatred and disgust.Hatred for my own kind.Hatred for myself most.I’m such a trash.A trash that live in this dump called earth.A dump filled with being I consider trash as well,all piled up together.

I just can’t feel contempt,I can’t be happy here.The only thing that kept me here so long are video games,pathetic as it may.I’m tired of wasting every days away on those stupid games so my poor little self don’t have to think about anything.I achieve nothing everyday.

I just hate humankind.

I […]

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Where do i go from here?

by morgmilan7
written by morgmilan7

I have visited this sight in the past and I am now back, not because I want to die. I have wanted to die and I have thought and tried but I will never succeed. Somewhere in my heart is the passion to go on I just dont know how to go on when I hurt so much. I could go on and on about my fucked up life and all the horrible things that have hurt me. But I have finally thought I found peace with myself and something that made me happy. Then it all crumbles down around me. I want love and […]

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Memory

by Shinjim
written by Shinjim

I remember a time when I was young, I think just starting junior high school, around the time when it became all too obvious there was only one way my life could go. I was in church with my parents (Roman Catholic Sunday mass), and I was sitting in between my mother and a man who’d been in a car accident. He wore a neck brace, leg braces, and the kind of crutches that attach to the arms. Before long, he fell asleep, and my mother whispered to me to wake him up, but I wouldn’t. Her whispering grew louder and […]

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do things get better

by mylife
written by mylife

i understand how you feel but as young as you are you need to talk to someone, I have felt the same way for as long as i can remember, now 50 im still suffering in silence everyone thinks im strong and inside im screaming for help, i dont have the courage to ask for help and ive also passed this on to my children, my daughter has recently told me that its my fault because she has severe depression as i gave her to my mum when she was 2, i also had another 2 children to the same father whom abused me physically, […]

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Update

by bleedtokwuralive
written by bleedtokwuralive

As you can tell by my new post I didn’t hang myself!! I went and talked to my aunt and she is going to help out. My son and I will be moving into her garage apartment this weekend which is a huge help because she is only going to charge me $200 a month for rent and food! She called her church and tonight I got a huge bag of clothes for Broox!!! Little man is styling in his new batman pjs as we speak.

As I’m writing this Broox is laying beside me sleeping with his little legs thrown over onto mine and I […]

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Break Seal in Case of Emergency

by DogBoy
written by DogBoy

I _______ __________ , being of sound mind and body. Make my last request. In the event I suffer from any of the following and cannot verbally relay my last wishes.

If I have a stroke, heart attack, comatose, brain dead in any form yet still display vital signs.

I do not wish to be kept alive on any form of life support. I wish to pass on. My prolonged life will not be beneficial to me or any poor soul that may survive me. I cannot afford to be artificially kept alive. God will understand.
I have done the best I can all the time regardless of […]

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This is the time

by Elleonil
written by Elleonil

I’m realizing where’s no reason to keep indulging with procrastination. Having another week or another day of just letting time flow is meaningless.

Searching for the best method is a way to tell yourself you’re not really ready yet. I just settled for the simplest thing to put together and got a rope. Right now I’m writing notes for the only two people I care they get a note, I scrapped my idea of writing notes for everyone else, it’s not worth the hassle.

I’m giving myself 48 hours to accomplish this goal, it’s more than enough time. If you don’t read anything else it’s because I […]

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So You want to end your life? ♥ Read this (: If it doesnt change your perspective then email me and talk to me ♥(:

by alexaawearsprada
written by alexaawearsprada

 

Before you decide to take your life, imagine who will find you. Imagine them walking into a room, and seeing you just hanging there. Whether it be your little sister, little brother, mother father, grandparents, a friend. Imagine what will happen when they find you. No, they will not say “Finally, they’re gone.” No, they will not say “I’m happy they did that.” No, they will not say “I never loved them anyways.” They will die. Their hearts will break. They will hurt, more than you […]

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Ready For The End

by Dylan
written by Dylan

For awhile now I’ve been “Ready to die” so to speak… I haven’t been able to think of a full proof way to end it yet but my mind is constantly thinking of new options, none of which will actually work. I have 2 in mind, but they are both extremely difficult to achieve, and 1 of them doesn’t have a very high probability of success.

I don’t think my depression is curable and ending it would be a permanent solution to a permanent problem. I can’t suffer the humiliation, shame, regret, loneliness, pain, and sadness any longer. I feel as if my very existence is […]

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I’m Going To Kill Myself Tonight….

by DannyWolf
written by DannyWolf

im going to kill myself tonight. im just finished. i cant cope anymore. too much has gone wrong for too long and my body and mind are so tired. i cant deal with being sad and cutting all the time anymore. i need relief. i need to feel at peace again, and the only way to get that release is death. nobody can convince me otherwise. and i dont want people saying im selfish either, because guess what i dont have anyone that loves me anymore and i certainly wont be missed. i dont want that “youre special and unique” BULLSHIT either. cuuuuuz guess what, no im not! billions […]

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It’s only a matter of time…

by AmatterOFtime
written by AmatterOFtime

As someone who’s survived 3 serious attempts I wish to say that I have no intention of making it through number four. I’ve finally arrived at the conclusion that I’m statistically supposed to be dead by now and it’s not something which makes me feel better. I’ve seen so much pain on my short tour here on Earth. Humanity does little to stoke my optimism, in fact it does the opposite. I’m a vet, I’m mentally unstable, I’m single, I’m unemployed for the fourth year running and I’m almost homeless (I already was for 3 years.) A close friend who I met while being homeless committed suicide via alcohol and prescription […]

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If lost return to:

by Nolentwohundred
written by Nolentwohundred

I remember meeting you for the first time.  Starving little town.  We met by the Skyline.  I held you.  Everything was right.  I remember losing you.  Large bustling town.   No Skyline to be found.  I miss you.  Everything is wrong.

I remember the way you looked standing among the Skyline.   I remember our day together, like a walk in the park.  Nothing will ever tarnish that piece of time, that piece of you and me.  That peace.  I miss you.  Everything is wrong.

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