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nothing left to accomplish

by tphg 8/25/2014

written by tphg

I’m a 28 year old Canadian male and drawing a blank on what to do with the rest of my life. I have a high school diploma, full-time job with 8 years of experience(sorting mail and making photocopies), perfect sized apartment in an upscale neighborhood and got a bargain on rent price, no women/children/pets/infirmed family to worry about except for my 14 year old brother who I tutor 3 times a week. My friends all live within 20 minutes and I see them 3-4 times a month.

I can’t think of anything else that I want, so why bother going on? I could get a girlfriend, […]

8/25/2014 3 comments

A date

by listeninghope 8/25/2014

written by listeninghope

I have a specific day in mind to perform the last task. It’s perfect really, and essentially the closest day I can do it all on my own. 18th birthday is perfect, And although its 9 months away, I’m determined I’ll do it. The ups and downs I have don’t fool me into hope, cause ive experienced life and what I’ve felt is enough to make a decision. So from now until then my posts will be full of bs. Thank you

8/25/2014 0 comment

Freedom

by 78hundred 8/22/2014

written by 78hundred

Finally, it makes sense.

Just give up on the idea of a perfect social conforming future. Ha!

I’ve never felt so comfortable in my life. I never have to care again.

If I don’t find a job, stiff biscuits! I’m at home anyway, so support is always there.

No partner ever again. Been there, experienced it. Better than not having had that at all.

It just moves on. Carefree as it goes. The only stresses in life are the ones caused by excessive desire for social success and the needless comparison to other people, who don’t care about you anyway.

So I say fuck it! Take your […]

8/22/2014 4 comments

I Died A Little More Today

by bluefeathers 8/21/2014

written by bluefeathers

It’s a strange feeling when you can actually feel your heart breaking. It’s not the break-up kind of heart break. It’s the certainty that I know I’m going to kill myself kind of heart break. It’s the crying on the floor asking God “why?” kind of heart break. It’s the understanding and knowledge that your life, your supposedly “purposeful” life is completely insignificant. It’s the kind of heart break when you decided it’s over. It’s the kind of hear break knowing that you are the equivalent of celebrity’s homeless, drugged up, beat up sister. It’s certain that I’ll kill myself. I’m tired of all […]

8/21/2014 2 comments

The End is Nigh

by ladydragonfly78 8/20/2014

written by ladydragonfly78

I feel like I’m fighting for my life
And no one knows the depth of my despair
Too busy
Too uninterested
Too annoyed
Too…everything
I am a burden
A blight on a perfect life
Acknowledging me means they care
Caring means taking action
Neither are appealing to them
So it’s best to ignore it
Hope I’ll go away
It’s easier for them that way.

8/20/2014 1 comment

practise will make it perfect.

by heliumhood 8/19/2014

written by heliumhood

had my 1st practise with my home made hood today and it worked perfectly. I begin back at work next week as a self employed driver, and my last few weeks will be so that I can leave my partner enough money to clear some last bills, and pay for a cremation, and with the exception of rehoming my 2 dogs, all is fine for my departure. I have decided to make my exit away from the home we share, as I would not like my other half to find me.

the weird thing is I feel perfectly calm, less depressed and a lot less exhausted […]

8/19/2014 3 comments

“Why”

by KaitlynRose7 8/18/2014

written by KaitlynRose7

Why is it that society believes that the boys & girls with scars on their wrists are lower than the girls who wear tank tops & have perfect hair? Where ever morning instead of putting makeup on they paint a smile in sharpie? Not every child gets the advantage to have the perfect family , an I love you every morning or a little note from mommy in their lunch boxes. Society lives off of pain , standards are higher than gas prices . Everyday another boy or girl kills themselves or self harms. We got peeople yelling for help? But society labels them as […]

8/18/2014 1 comment

scars

by Sharn 8/16/2014

written by Sharn

scarsI don’t know what to do anymore.. I battle with severe anxiety, depression, insomnia and anger issues.I try my hardest to be what they want me to be.. the perfect daughter. Have the perfect grades, I was working 2 jobs but I just can’t cope any more. I’m lost. Dropped out of school at 15. Quit one job. Have barely any shifts at the other one. I blow up at everyone over everything. I can’t help myself .I cry everynight trying to think of new ways to be perfect… I tried cutting… It just wasn’t my thing so I started burning myself. The pain […]

8/16/2014 0 comment

lifes to short make your life worth living for

by bryan higgins 8/14/2014

written by bryan higgins

If ur ready to make a life choice to go on your next journey make sure u know what is there waiting for you.in ever life you are given only one gift of true love ..if u didnt respect the gift of love God gave you .and u think your all alone ..pray to God to have mercy on you and to grant u one more gift of love that you will not abuse .one love you would be willing to sacrifice your life for ..I did now I have a perfect wife and 3 perfect children ..that I will sacrifice my life for ..and […]

8/14/2014 2 comments

My first post the Suicide Project

by pinkcoconut 8/13/2014

written by pinkcoconut

I’m depressed, anxious and suicidal. Over the last few months, a chain of bad things happened to me. Deaths of grandparents, family tensions, stressful work then redundancy, relationship trust issues, fallings out with friends, the list goes on. Seeking employment, supporting family and trying to forgive a cheating partner became too much for me, and rather than kill myself, I immediately moved out of the family home. Two days later my boyfriend broke up with me in a very cruel way. I’ve been staying in friends’ rooms while they’re on holiday – thank god it’s the summer.

I’m still suicidal. Moving out of home was […]

8/13/2014 7 comments

Kill Me

by bluefeathers 8/7/2014

written by bluefeathers

My co-worker proposed to his stunning, sweet girlfriend tonight. On the beach. With a sparkly diamond ring. Everyone clapping and smiling. I saw her full of love, surprise, crying, and happy. “That’ll never be you” I thought to myself. Just kill me.

I met my friend’s wife. She’s a size zero with a prominent jaw line and a contagious smile. She has a presence that is quiet but powerful. She wore high heels with perfect eyebrows. “That’ll never be you” I thought to myself. Just kill me.

I saw my boss, laughing and schmoozing. She wore a long dangly silver necklace and a black tight jumpsuit that […]

8/7/2014 5 comments

Drugs

by Sammie Motionless 8/7/2014

written by Sammie Motionless

Welp lets see its all in the name ive started to do…… coke now not weed n pills or k2 anymore I moved up to coke and u no I think its cause I just stopped caring I was doing so good then my friends crashed into my family in the back nothing happened then my gpa got mad told me its always my fault for stuff like this and then my friends made me really happy then my gpa again fucks it up tells me im stupid and crazy well maybe I am I just ugh I give up drugs music thats what helps […]

8/7/2014 8 comments

Wishes

by jassleh9 7/28/2014

written by jassleh9

I honestly wish I could be one of those pretty girls who everyone adores and compliments all the time.

I wish I didn’t get criticised by my own family every single day to the point where I wish I didn’t exist.

I wish I was the perfect person you’d see on the street who loved her life

I just wish I didn’t have to do so many things to get people in my own family to smile or laugh or even try to make them like me.

I wish people liked me for me.

7/28/2014 0 comment

Pleasing the unpleasable

by tauruswrangler 7/21/2014

written by tauruswrangler

Life is tough even on our own but I assure you it is much easier solo. How do you please one that cannot be pleased because they secretly yearn for their ex fiancé and children. I did not take them from you, she did. I am only here as a pathetic replacement, I can understand that. I am very aware I do not and can not provide you with the same stability and domestic service. I am a young woman with bipolar and it is hard enough to take care of myself and my house financially let alone you also. I do not have the […]

7/21/2014 3 comments

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by booisux 7/13/2014

written by booisux

I’m gunna be straight forward and say I’ve never attempted suicide. I’ve thought about it many times, but never tried. The main reason I haven’t is because I’m scared. Everything in my life has been determined through safety. I’m scared of almost everything. I scared to let people in, to talk to people, to do something wrong, to look stupid, or to let people down (just to name a few). My parents constantly fight and I go most days without having a real conversation with anyone. My friends and family all have this expectation of how they feel I should be. Which is smiling, happy, quiet, […]

7/13/2014 11 comments

Come to Terms

by BoyofChagrin 7/13/2014

written by BoyofChagrin

I think I’ve come to terms with suicide. I know that it will be the way I die, but not the method. I do know that I want to buy a nice big leather and metal Grimiore to write down all my thoughts, I suppose like a journal. Then when the time comes I won’t need to write a note, I can just clutch my grimiore on the way out. I see suicide as a perfect way to die, surely some call those who have succeeded in their suicide attempts cowards though they are not. I know the immense courage that it would take to […]

7/13/2014 11 comments

by Bisban 7/9/2014

written by Bisban

Peut etres, le gas Francais, son coeur, il y va me sauver.
Xavier, Anatole, Jeremy, Lore. Life was so fun.
Constance and her castle with an indoor swimming pool and spa.
The party room in the attic. Oh, and Eva. Oh, mondieux.
Then I moved to the State, fourteen years later. Fated, and now.
Seeking to save my life, here, on Suicide Project.
I tried, I attempted, at life. Sucked inside my monster, was only I.
Only I, and still will ever so. Vowed, please, make me strong.
I lost a long time ago. From suffering death, I seek life.
Here on my opposite end […]

7/9/2014 0 comment

Why keep going?

by jthompson52 7/5/2014

written by jthompson52

It’s been a terrible week… I’ve barely eaten I cringe at the thought that I must live in this world. I recently quit football and now nobody speaks to me. I’m just so ready to leave this place… The long nights that leave me mentally insane are destroying me. I just need the perfect way to do it… I’ve tried taking a ton of pills and then getting drunk but no success.

7/5/2014 2 comments

Can’t get over it: /

by lookinggirl 7/4/2014

written by lookinggirl

I have been reading stories on this site for a long time, but I finally signed up to be able to write something myself tonight. Although I don’t consider myself suicidal, I must admit I have thought about it on more than 1 occasion. I have had a couple times that I really felt like dying, but first of all I would never have the guts. Second,v believe that anything we go through in life can be turned around, but you know what? That’s not why I’m here tonight. I’m here because I figured this is the perfect place to vent and give myself a […]

7/4/2014 3 comments

The most terrible poverty is loneliness, and the feeling of being unloved. – Mother Theresa

by Remnant The Unbroken 6/30/2014

written by Remnant The Unbroken

You seemed so full of sweetness at the start
But like a big red rose that’s made of paper
There isn’t any sweetness in your heart
Paper Roses
Paper Roses

6/30/2014 0 comment

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