We all come with baggage of insecurities, fears, shortcomings, emotions. We all feel, that’s what makes us Human. But…some of us are born with something extraordinary, an ability to feel a lot stronger. It’s a gift and a curse. When we are happy, others can’t comprehend how happy, but when we are engulfed by darkness, we feel miserable enough to die. I speak from the inside perspective, and it really isn’t easy to live with. Sometimes, I look at the sky from somewhere high up, and am ready to reach for the heaven and jump. Other days, I feel so powerful, like i can do […]
DON’T END YOUR LIFE , DON’T GIVE UP , REACH OUT TO ME.
Before you decide to take your life, imagine who will find you. Imagine them walking into a room, and seeing you just hanging there. Whether it be your little sister, little brother, mother father, grandparents, a friend. Imagine what will happen when they find you. No, they will not say “Finally, they’re gone.†No, they will not say “I’m happy they did that.†No, they will not say “I never loved them […]
I am really struggling at the moment. My suicidal tendencies are so strong, I am so de-sensitised to the idea of killing myself, that it is really only my two sons who keep me anchored. When even that becomes not enough, I go into hospital, where I am now – again – the fifth time in 2 1/2 years, and I’ve already been in now for five weeks this time. I just looked at my progress chart, and basically there has been none – a few blips where I got better for a few days, and then I drop down again.
I am just loosing […]
One year and 40 days ago I started a diet.
That diet quickly took over my entire life, exposing mental disorders that had been hidden before.
One eating disorder showed so much more… generalized anxiety disorder, a mild form of ptsd, cyclothymic disorder (mild form of bipolar).
My family had been perfect, but when it fell apart i didn’t know how to express the pain. I pushed it down for over 4 years.
All of that pain suddenly came out in the form of starving, throwing up, and cutting.
Slowly, I lost myself.
I had to pretend I was okay, I had to be perfect.
I lied to everyone.
I fought help at […]
why do people hurt themselves? why do they want to die? because they believe, TRULY believe that their lives are a living hell. that there is no way they can ever go back and change it. that there’s no way out. is that true? is there a point of no return? well, that all depends on the perspective. everyone, everywhere, any situation can be changed. you can always go back and change yourself and your life for the better. i know because i was there, i was hopeless. that’s what i thought, but i was so wrong. if you’re still reading this keep reading…for everyone […]
So I guess I never really considered trying to write out my story anywhere, but maybe getting it all down will help me put it into perspective, help me decide whether or not I can take this, haha.Â
I’m turning 17 this December and my most frequent thought is generally that “I’m so young why is everything already so bad.”
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I should be out, enjoying life, enjoying myself, going places with my life, planning for post secondary.Â
But nothing is happening, I’m not doing anything. Lack of motivation is a horrible thing isn’t it?
I grew up in Canada, having moved to BC when I was just […]
better off without , me. yeah that`s pretty much it. i mean, i have no one. of course , everyone says `oh sweetie im here for you ` but its not like that. its never like that, it`s pretty much just polite i guess. because, everyone says that. including myself. but anyways, i dont even know why im righting this. well, maybe for help . but recently that has seemed like such a long un-reachable road. i can`t tell anyone though, i mean. wtf are you supposed to do. just be like oh , hey. guess what. im suicidal, i hate myself and want to […]
If you can watch this whole video and tell me you have suffered more, then i will believe that your truly depressed. Its given me perspective.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5bYdFoqQw18&context=C347c864ADOEgsToPDskK3cmBiBUFpP1dQpAi7eSFe
When I sit and think about my life, there is only a few good memories and few times when I can remember being genuinely happy. I feel that I am just going through repetitive motions everyday. I am taking 5 classes and working 36 hours a week. I have a good job and make good money. I am always so busy trying to keep up with school and work but I rather it be that way than to have time for my mind to travel.
From other people’s perspective, I have it all. But it is a very different story from my point of view. I honestly don’t […]
I’ve read quite a few stories on here and found it helpful to put my own issues into perspective. It hurts to read how many people are suffering. I wish there was something I could do to help…but I can barely help myself. Every setback or failure makes me feel like I’m ready to let go…and every success or good thing makes me feel undeserving and on the verge of failure. It’s so difficult to see that things do get better. Especially when you’ve been alone for such a very long time and you know you’re not typical or normal or not sure you’re worth […]
For the younger people (and those not), here is a site you might find useful. It has a LOT of free course material on endless subjects from science to in this case, ‘the philosophy of happiness’.
http://www.cosmolearning.com/documentaries/philosophy-a-guide-to-happiness/
Just remember, life does not change with time, rather it changes with effort & insight.
Thats the main page and as you can see the site covers everything from anthropology to Veterinary Science. It is a free educational website for students and teachers
http://www.cosmolearning.com/
Other good websites that present interesting information for those that seek it is Ted.com & Bigthink.com.
Hope this helps and is of interest and even broadens your perspective on things […]
if you have no one relying on you, then what’s so bad about killing yourself? I have family and friends, sure, but none of them needs me to live. I see friends every other week, try to see family less than that; I know I’m not necessary. I’m not necessary to any one other persons existence. People would be sad but so? Life is saddening.
No kids, no spouse or prospects of any kind, no pets, no car or mortgage and no hope.
If I continue living, I’ll just be seeking out ways to stay happy, like everybody else does. But nothing makes me happy, […]
I am depressed and sad and I’ve tried everything, and I don’t think I can go on. I have tried meds, therapy, doctors, yoga, everything. i get thirty seconds of peace each morning immediately after I wake. Then it’s like someone turns on the radio in my head and it’s a constant rant of hopelessness and hurt.Â
One of the frustrating parts is hardly anybody knows the truth, and I have nobody to talk to. My dad was a world champion sales rep because he was a true expert in how to make people feel good and feel comfortable. He was born with the touch. I learned it from him. I am also an expert at […]
there have been lots of times when i have been depressed, i cry sometimes. like uncontrolably for hours, but that hasnt happened in a while. i usually do that when i know no one can hear me, because i dont think they would really get it. like most people i know they turn around and go “well you have it a lot better than some.” my best friend, and in some ways my only friend called me a spoilt bratt, when i was depressed on monday. thats why i dont trust her enough to talk to her, thats why i’m here.
i dont sound all “woe […]
Hi Guys,
I have been thinking of killing myself every single day for the past 4 years…since the love of my life killed himself. We are all drawn here, I think, by the fact that we are deep down hoping that somehow we will find a way to keep from giving up. And….I think that we all care about each other in a weird way, and share in kinship of sorts. I have 3 kids, and it has only been because of them that I have managed to hang on by a thread. But even though I know how much I would destroy their lives, its feels almost […]
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