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Physical Abuse

I Don’t Know If I Need Help Or A Knife

by False_Determination 5/22/2016

written by False_Determination

This is the first time I’m ever going to tell someone my life story. I just need someone to
know. It might be a little long.

When she was pregnant with me, my mother did all kinds of drugs with my father. I was also
the only child she planned.

When I was three, my father raped a girl. Shortly after, my mom did something stupid and got sent to jail.

My siblings and I all got seperated. I moved in with my grandparents from my moms side.

They were my first memories. The only ones I actually enjoy. That is until my grandmother had a stroke. So […]

5/22/2016 9 comments

TRIGGER WARNING

by savingus 7/27/2015

written by savingus

May be triggering, but need help
so I am 14 going on 15 and i was adopted when I was 2 from ukraine (I was born premature, and then was dumped on the street by my mom when I was a month old) I was brought to the states and then my mom and dad started to abuse me. Physically at first and then when I was 5 my dad started sexually abusing me and my brother started when I was 8. This is continuing to this day. For about the past 3 years I have been suffering from ptsd and has had multiple suicide […]

7/27/2015 3 comments

Why?

by bostontee 12/11/2013

written by bostontee

I can’t answer that question clearly. Counselors have asked but I never had a reasonable or “good” response. It’s hard to explain to most people that you’ve never been loved or cared for. It’s hard for most people to fathom not being able to trust a living soul. Some assume that I am mentally ill and have some kind of schizophrenia because I am unable to connect with others. No, I am not mentally ill in the sense that I have some kind of problem dealing with reality. If I am considered mentally ill it would be because I have been put through the wringer […]

12/11/2013 3 comments

Is it okay not to be mad at someone who physically and mentally hurt you?

by Jladd 5/23/2013

written by Jladd

My mother is still physically and mentally abusive. And she never use to be abusive at all but i dont really know what happened. My mom has said hurtful things to me like telling me im a fuck-up and im worthless and also that nobody likes a little girl with scars. Not to metion the physical abuse so bad that i wish she would just kill me right then, but anyways i just cant bring myself to hate her and i still care about her dearly and i even drained my bank account to help pay for her surgery and prescriptions. Is there something wrong […]

5/23/2013 4 comments

Too far gone…

by r3a9an 5/19/2013

written by r3a9an

I really don’t know what I’m doing. I’m extremely suicidal, I have no fear of death and I welcome it’s emptiness. However, I have this insane little happy part of myself that won’t shut up about all of my hopes and dreams and how they could still happen. I really feel like two people at once sometimes. I don’t know whether to feel good or bad that they both agree I’m ugly and look nothing like they do in my head. (I have a lot of self-hate.)

I think it might be worse because I don’t feel like I have the right to feel this way. […]

5/19/2013 5 comments

my life

by givenupforever 5/11/2013

written by givenupforever

i havent had a brilliant life so far im 24 i hate my life been in and outa hospital all my life been self harming for years had too many suicide attempts and cant do it anymore was a hard childhood sexual emotional and physical abuse by family now my only friend in this town has decided she doesnt want anything to do with me and wont tell me why my partner is sleeping all the time he slept all through his birthday i cant cope doing everything my mental health nurse doesnt believe that im bad so she wont help i have no other […]

5/11/2013 5 comments

All You Have To Do Is Ask

by drowninginsorrow 4/30/2013

written by drowninginsorrow

I finally have had enough with the emotional and physical abuse with everyone in my life. It is not like I have a best friend to tell all my problems to and receive advice from so I have decided to take a step forward and see a therapist.

I am partially excited about this decision because I can finally allow myself to open up without worrying about my secrets getting out but I am also afraid to tell about my feelings and emotions because what if he/she thinks I am a freak? A nothing.

This is my first step towards freedom from the dreadful memories that bind […]

4/30/2013 6 comments

Rantings of a crazy person

by LostOlHope 4/7/2013

written by LostOlHope

Like the title says, this is just a rant about my trials and tribulations. I don’t really know if posting my story will be of any use to anyone but I just couldn’t leave this world without anyone knowing about it. I guess someone should know, even if they don’t really know me. But in all honesty I don’t know if anybody really knows the real me. I wear a mask and pretend to be “normal”. So nobody really knows. They’ll probably never find out either because this page doesn’t link to me in any way. But I figured somebody should know my story and […]

4/7/2013 3 comments

heartbreak

by claramel 3/8/2013

written by claramel

Hi, I dont know who to talk to or who to open up to because my pain is my pain. And no one can ease that pain. I sit here and I think that the people that said they love me or care for me but where are they now. It’s true, I’m going to be alone and no one to cry to or tell me we are going to get through this together. W hy have these men come into my life and took that one thing I CHERISHED. Therevare times whereby I just want to find that one blade that will end my […]

3/8/2013 3 comments

My Story

by jkaylin14 1/29/2013

written by jkaylin14

I don’t understand why I’m here anymore. No one wants me around, so what’s the point?

It all started when I was 2 years old. My dad was an alcoholic. He used to put his hands on me and beat me for crying, talking or playing loudly. This continued for years. When I was 13, my dad let his friend pay him to rape me, and he did. A few weeks later, another friend did tried to do the same, onlyÂ I got him to stop.

I began to cut myself. My father’s drinking problem got worse. My dad began cheating on my mother with her sister that […]

1/29/2013 6 comments

I can’t do it anymore

by TTandCC 9/21/2012

written by TTandCC

The term, “I cant live without you” is really sticking with me. I’m and 18 year old female. I’m in love with another female. We’ve been dating over a year now. I’m never been in love like this. I even dated someone over 2 years .. still never felt this way. She is truely the love of my life. I dont even think of us as being in a ‘relationship’ .. I think .. thought of us as ONE. My soul is tied to hers. I feel so empty now .. now that she’s gone. I need to be close to her. I need to […]

9/21/2012 7 comments

Those Negative Experiences

by SomeMalaise 7/4/2012

written by SomeMalaise

They say you are shaped by the bad experiences. That what does not kill you makes you stronger. That all good things come to those who wait. Don’t wait for good things to come you must fight to get what you want. Travel the path less trodden. There is a fork in the road. A narrow path, and a wide winding path. Choose the most exciting.

I have heard so many contridictating sayings in my life that it can make one explode with uncertainty. But that’s where my experiences come in.

I’ve trodden forward before. I’ve survived bullying, teasing, physical abuse from peers. Verbal abuse from my […]

7/4/2012 6 comments

update

by allyy 4/22/2012

written by allyy

well ive been with this amazin guy for 1 year, 5 months, nd 1 week.. evryday i feel soo grateful for havin him.. nd hez fixed the problems i had wit my family.. he evn helped me thru the pain ofÂ the past 15 yrs of physical abuse ive suffered.. nd evrythin is perfect.. my grades culd use a little help.. other than dat, evrythin is perfect. but wen im alone.. all those thoughts of suicide nd alcohol nd drug abuse come rushin thru my head.. nd i feel like im abt to fall over nd jst pass out.. i get light headed nd feel a […]

4/22/2012 0 comment

9 Atteempts. Why am i still here?

by BrokenInside 3/19/2012

written by BrokenInside

The first time i was 8 years old and my dad had just left me and my mum after battling cancer. Mum wasn’t good, Dad was gone, Nanny and Granada were in Spain, my friends didn’t want to know. What stopped me? My mum caught me and took me to a therapist.

The Second time it was my 9th birthday. It was the last day i ever spook to my dad. He texted me to say that he was gonna have a son and that i was nothing to me. On my birthday. That time my now ex-best friend found me and begged me not to.

The […]

3/19/2012 2 comments

Help HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

by ets2005a 2/27/2012

written by ets2005a

I suffer from PTSD which creates overwhelming anxiety. I can not stand people in general for tho they pretend to care in reality they do not. a more fair description might be that they care so long as its conveinent. some of the experences that have led to my PTSD include but are not limited to being in a tornado, haveing been on fire twice, watching the person next to me in junior high murdered durring class, being stabbed, constant mental and physical abuse as a child, and most recently listening to my mother shoot herself in the head while talking to me on the […]

2/27/2012 22 comments

Waking Upâ€¦

by imperfect1 2/10/2012

written by imperfect1

I wake up every morning with this constant desire to die. It just feels wrong to be alive. First words out of my mouth are â€œI want to die.â€ Itâ€™s become my mantra, for lack of better words. Iâ€™ve felt this way since I was about fourteen. Iâ€™ve been to therapy and talked with counselors and psychologists but my need to die can never be unearthed. I get asked about sexual abuse and trauma, there is none. I get asked about physical abuse, there is none. Iâ€™ve had a great life, great family, people who love me […]

2/10/2012 5 comments