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On the edge

by whydoiwantto 3/5/2016

written by whydoiwantto

It’s about that time again – you know, when depression rears its ugly head and you start researching extensively on the internet for exit strategies… Drunk on a saturday and feeling like I can’t escape. Of course I feel awful about leaving my family but really this cannot go on… The suffering and inability to function within society – like a puzzle piece that can’t fit in. I am so fucking tired of being gay which is essentially a death sentence or at least a life long curse of loneliness and harassment.

Normally I try to write better, wax some sort of whining poetic about romanticized […]

3/5/2016 2 comments

a frank and rational post about suicide

by herecomestheavalanche 2/27/2016

written by herecomestheavalanche

as i lay in my bed on this beautiful saturday morning, i couldn’t help but think.

i just do not want to be here anymore.

i had not one reason to leave my cocoon this morning. the only reason i got up out of bed, at 1 in the afternoon, was to use the washroom.

i wish i could talk about this, these feelings, with someone in real life without getting into trouble. i just do not want to be here anymore. i do not want to be in a hospital, but i do not want to be me, alone, in this apartment, anymore.

it’s just become way too […]

2/27/2016 7 comments

My Right to Die

by Hance_Soelow 12/9/2015

written by Hance_Soelow

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One thing I’ve learned in my life is that nothing can be generalized. Everything has their own unique application to our lives. Hence, I call this post “My” right to die.

My thoughts on death and suicide have been a blend of careful religious historical philosophical (even theoretical physics) study, and my own emotions. I would like to open up the idea of the first ingredient of my blend for our community’s discussion and for the reader’s additional insight.

Suicide as a right can be seen throughout our history. Various ancient cultures have seen suicide as an honorable way to die. […]

12/9/2015 2 comments

I am so tired of this, just let me fall

by Fleur fragile 11/28/2015

written by Fleur fragile

“The responsible one, the mature one, the reasonable and the rational one. No, I could never just take all that Xanax that’s not right. Gotta keep the grades up gotta stay smart gotta do it right or it all goes downhill.”

Right? That’s who I fucking am, right?

But, you see, I’m so god damned tired of being the responsible, mature, rational girl that knows not to make stupid decisions. Drugs and alcohol are no good, I know what they do to you. I’ve sat through every fucking school assembly about how deadly that lifestyle is, I’ve witnessed people go down that path and never return. But […]

11/28/2015 3 comments

A reason

by PineBapple 8/8/2015

written by PineBapple

Just give me one rational reason why suicide is so bad. I don’t support suicide but I’m not against it either, I’m a fence sitter looking to take a side. 3 Strikes and you’re out, batter up!

8/8/2015 10 comments

My story

by isj032 7/31/2015

written by isj032

Just thought I’d share my story, I’m not gonna be overly dramatic or emotional as I am very logical and rational for the most part, I am going to go off in a million directions and you will almost certainly think me bonkers before the end. I’m not asking for help or empathy, in fact I hope that what I put down on this webpage helps shed some light on others problems and the problems society faces on a whole, sounds a bit haughty I know.
Diving right in, myself, my eldest brother and sister engaged in some somewhat sexual activities at the ages of […]

7/31/2015 3 comments

Numb

by disgusting 7/14/2015

written by disgusting

I finally figured out what it is. He completely invalidated my feelings. The love I’ve felt for him or anyone else, he writes off as stupid or crazy. So my feelings aren’t real to others and therefore don’t matter. Apparently you can stomp all over my ‘feelings’ and it won’t hurt me because I don’t really have any true, honest, normal and rational feelings like everybody else. That just invalidates my entire LIFE because I’ve known what I wanted out of life since I was 5. My death truly won’t matter.

7/14/2015 4 comments

This is all I have to say

by norsenobody 6/27/2015

written by norsenobody

I’m new here, I’m here because I came across this randomly while googling.

I’m here because I’m planning on killing myself in a few months.

the reason for this delay is I want to pay off my credit card before I go so as not to leave my family with too much of a burden. I also want to have time to plan my perfect last day.

I’m trying to approach this from the most rational direction possible. If I don’t go through with this I’ve got nothing else. I’m a college dropout working a crap job for nine dollars an hour. I can’t connect with people. My […]

6/27/2015 4 comments

I’m going slightly mad

by itskindofafunnystory 6/19/2015

written by itskindofafunnystory

Well, hello everybody.

Although I’m not considering myself a banana tree, as the title would suggest, I feel like I’m losing it. I’ve become obsessed with the idea of killing myself. For about 2 years now not a single day has passed without such thoughts. And I don’t know why – there’s no rational reasoning behind this, not a thing. I’ve never been a bubbling kind of gal but now it’s getting out of hand. Every now and then I experience this ridiculous feeling that could be best described as a combination of infirmity, frustration and identity disruption, causing an actual pain, as if my head was […]

6/19/2015 5 comments

A Quick Question For You All

by Matt 3/8/2015

written by Matt

Why do we hurt ourselves?

And I don’t mean in the physically obvious way that so many of us on here have, I mean in an emotional sense.

Why do we persist with people that deep down we know are hurting us, or will eventually hurt us? Sometimes its obvious to us that these people are bad news.

I keep asking myself this question, it’s like there’s two versions of me, the rational side that only manifests for a few seconds every hour, and then the crazy version that is in the drivers seat most of the day.

The rational me will be sat there going, “Don’t speak to […]

3/8/2015 3 comments

Rational suicide

by Stereotype 12/10/2014

written by Stereotype

I have argued against the idea of rational suicide in the past but lately… I have been thinking – I am completely rational, not really depressed or in a PTSD mode and I have thought that suicide is the best option, most sensible really and probably the better way to leave this world… By my hand, my choice. Don’t worry my date isn’t for awhile now. What do you think about suicide can it ever be a rational completely sane choice?

12/10/2014 3 comments

At the end

by planetmel 11/11/2014

written by planetmel

I am a late diagnosed female of Asperger syndrome. I have never had any friends. I disowned my toxic family. My marriage is in shit street. I have never been able to work for too long despite having many talents that I cannot seem to apply in the working world. I also have 3 children. 2 are autistic. Life is too difficult. I have endured far too many relationship breakdowns that I completely avoid and cannot trust people any longer. I look to my future and see nothing but loneliness, more pain, illness, and bitterness. How is it rational to want to live for that […]

11/11/2014 3 comments

want to die so badly it physically hurts

by 45caliberdeath 10/2/2014

written by 45caliberdeath

All of my problems are emotional/mental. I want to be dead so badly. But I can’t because I’m afraid that some dumbass doctor will “save”/torture me by making me a quadriplegic or a vegetable or something.

I’m so fucking desperate to die. It PHYSICALLY hurts. It’s ALL I think about. But several million years of evolution and my fear of messing up is keeping me here, screaming at my rational and moral brain to not kill myself. Base instincts and fear…

10/2/2014 4 comments

Happiness. :^)

by Holo44 9/12/2014

written by Holo44

It’s a smile, a laugh, an ejaculation. Whatever it may be for you, the combination of neurotransmitters causing it will return to baseline and you will be sober, normal again, slowly but surely and without fail. The only rational way to preserve your sanity is to be 100% content with normal, sober existence which is unspeakably difficult for innumerable reasons that are beyond our control a huge majority of the time. You’re not 5 years old, I’m not going to go into why.

My innermost desire is to be at the very peak of pure, unadulterated happiness a human can experience and get beheaded right then. […]

9/12/2014 20 comments

I am terrified

by marine105 9/1/2014

written by marine105

Right now, as of this moment and the myriad of moments preceding this one, I am terrified.

Why? I don’t know.

I suffer from a fear that I cannot name or pinpoint.

It’s not a fear of something real. It’s not a rational fear, proportionate to the degree of danger I’m facing.

It’s an all-consuming entity, enraptured with me and enveloping me in its inescapable grasp.

I work a job, something that I’ve been able to manage (to some extent) for about a year and a half now.

I’m about to start a new work schedule, and I’m working a bit more than I’m used to.

Even though I know I can […]

9/1/2014 5 comments

Patient Zero

by depressednihilist95 8/27/2014

written by depressednihilist95

I really don’t know if I qualify for being depressed. I chose to have “depressed” as a part of my user name because it was a label that people were throwing onto me. I thought that depression was irrational. Wanting to die for no reason seems like depression, but wanting to die because of say, spiritual reasons or philosophical reasons does not seem much like a “chemical imbalance” to me. I should probably be careful with what I state here, but I believe that some people actually have rational reasons for suicide.

I don’t know if my reasoning would be so rational, though. All I want […]

8/27/2014 2 comments

A NOTE TO IAMZERO – CONTINUING FROM YESTERDAY

by Dallas 8/7/2014

written by Dallas

You’re welcome.

It’s funny: people talk about how easy it is to find places on the internet about how to kill yourself. But, when you go looking, there’s actually very little. The “joke” sites far outnumber the serious ones. In fact, the only true serious one I’ve ever found is lostallhope dot com. It alone appears to have serious and well-researched information available on different methods.

But I’m serious about the Vipassana meditation and that book I mentioned. It sounds clichéd to say that “it opened a whole new world for me”, but, well, it opened a whole new world for me. And mindfulness meditation really is […]

8/7/2014 4 comments

Why do people fear death?

by bornfordying123 7/30/2014

written by bornfordying123

It’s because all the evidence points to there being nothing after death, just an endless state of nothingness, not even unconsciousness, just nihil. Not even blackness, not even a thought, an absence of anything, thought, processes, colour or anything, no heaven, no hell, just an eternity of nothingness, not even darkness, just. nil. And most rational human beings know that no matter how loudly they pray or claim they believe in the magnificent sky fairy it doesn’t change the evidence one bit. Or alter the reality, that there is nothing beyond. And people find that hard to deal with. Myself included.

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7/30/2014 2 comments

Suppositional Paradox

by marine105 7/3/2014

written by marine105

Now before I launch myself into this philosophical escapade I’d like to state that, while I may express relative repugnance to the act of postulating, human beings would not be able to operate nearly as effectively or efficiently in every day life without the use of axioms. If most people constantly contemplated as to what ways their actions are or are not rational, they would get an interesting form of a cognitive workout but unfortunately their performance in their job[s] would most likely decrease greatly, assuming that these people aren’t working in a field that requires the

interminable contemplation of cognitive processes.

So here is my pre-reading supposition:

Postulating that the goal in life […]

7/3/2014 5 comments

I am what I am

by New Shoes 6/27/2014

written by New Shoes

Ever wonder if it’s so hard to get rid of depression because maybe that’s just who you are?

I know I have constant inner dialogue with my depressed self trying to be rational and prevent the reactive sabotage I know is inevitably coming.

If I have been this way my entire life why it would reasonable to think I am going to wake up one day and feel different.

It’s not for lack of trying. I have tried meds, counseling, exercise, support groups, going out alone to network, traveling alone since I could wait forever for a travel buddy to turn up. I really put myself out there.

I […]

6/27/2014 3 comments

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