I kissed her and I don’t regret doing it for a Goddamn second. I love her and if I get my ass kicked or anything like that for it I’ll do it a thousand times again. She kissed back and it’s probably the best thing that’s happened to me since smileemptysoul. I understand she doesn’t love me. If her boyfriend ever sees this I’ll have my ass kicked. I won’t deny that. I feel better now than I have in a long time. More free, more happy, more alive, than I have in months. She’s taken, and she says she may not have me, but […]
that everyone will wish you hadnt
and you can never regret
Another truth to life I have discovered nobody ever did so much pretending in the end were born alone we die alone no one is there at least not for me never for me many could say I’m just angry and hateful I am but not nearly as much as all the sadness regret loneliness
for a number of years i have felt depressed suicidal i lost mum i was 21 then after went on a downward spiral lost my partner my kids because things got out of control i lost mum and i was just a mess i lost everything i ever live for, but can never find an easy way i have taken many overdoses have self harmed and i agree with some people on here totally that for some of us there is no way out we cant change our mind frame we dont see a light at the end of the tunnel maybe i will keep […]
For I am alone in this world,
my life has succumbed to a ball of nothingness and my heart,
Well my cold black heart longs to no longer beat.
My mind sit and ponders over the though of the bitter sweet relief
that death shall bring.
For I am alone in this world,
I have time to sit.
I have time to regret.
I have time to hate.
I have time to become the monster that I stand to be in this moment.
And I have time to wish away my future.
For I am alone in this world.
~ […]
I’m so devastated. Every day is just sadness. I live in constant terrible regret. Because I was a coward and couldn’t kill myself the guranteed ways, i live in constant physical pain. I can’t walk and run, my right leg is paralysed and left is nerve damaged. I used to love running. Even though I have always hated myself and suffered from depression, i trained and had a body to be envied. Now, its like ive woken up inside a nightmare, life doesn’t even feel real. Im just so sad. And it’s all my fault. No one else, just me. Suffering. Seeing doctors, specialists but […]
Just watching the sand trickle down the glass. Feels like time is short. I’m not afraid anymore. There’s not even any anticipation. Just a feeling of inevitable fact. Like punching in on a time clock, knowing you’ll be punching out on that same time clock shortly. Just a perpetual circle that is fated to be broken. Maybe I will be back, maybe I won’t. Either way, will it even matter. Going to try to ride out the next few days and attempt to ignore the eternal fishing pole that is calling my name. It’s getting harder and harder to drown out and I know I’ll […]
It’s interesting how when you have severe depression, regret is your constant companion. I remember when my depression was just mild. Regret was there, but it was fleeting. There were moments when it was actually gone.
These days, hopefully my final days, regret is there with me every step of the way. If only I had done this. If only I had said that. If only things would have happened this way or that way.
One of my recurring regrets is that she never got to see me at my best. Oh how I wish that she could see me now. Touch me. Hold me. […]
I remember that old song “it’s my party and I will cry if I want to.”
I kinda feel like that today. As my time comes to an end, I find myself doing a lot of things for the last time. It has a bittersweet quality to it.
My life before her was neither happy nor unhappy. I was just rolling along, existing the best could at any given point in time. Some ups, some downs, but mostly even keel.
Then she came to me and everything changed. Both for good and bad. But mostly good. I got to experience love and family. The two most important things […]
I’m new here, I was searching around to find answers and I found this website
read some of the posts and I’m glad I found this. you can call me kei uses this name for a lot of games.
I just wanna share what i thought, What I feel. I don’t know how to start but I guess I’ll start with I feel sad about everything in my life I feel so useless, I failed so much ,I don’t know where and how to catch up, I feel like it was a mistake that I exist in this universe, I don’t want anyone to be near […]
Alienation.
The word that I believe best sums up my state of mind as well as any other. I wish I could just feel something- anything.Even anger would be good, but even that eludes me.
I don’t suffer from mood swings, I seem to lack the depressive despair evident in some of the other posters I see on this website, although I feel that I can strongly relate to some of the other posts I see here. I’m not upset about a breakup with my girlfriend of the loss of the of a job- I’ve never had the former to lose and I have managed to hold […]
I always have my mind on this same wish. If only it can be true… My wish? I want to go back in time and tell my self “Don’t fucking do that! DO NOT FUCKING DO THAT! You will fuck up everything and dwell in sadness and regret if you do that!”
Probably I’ll be flamed by some people here, but the chances are – if nothing changes, in a few years I won’t be here anymore anyway. I guess, it’s better to regret having tried something, rather than regret not having tried it…
Why post it here instead of trying some singles / dating sites? I tried it. I won’t go into details, otherwise my post would be too long.
I’m looking for a soulmate. People believing in the right to die and not scared of […]
hey every one I just want to tell this advice to every girl if you ever love someone it’s ok love him but don’t ever give him your body let him play with him ,because you will regret it after believe me . I know you will give him your body because you love him but he would be just playing with your emotions and passing his time with you . after he plays with you he would tell you simply (I can’t stay in this relationship) simply as if nothing had happened . and you would start crying in your bedroom and he would […]
What are your thoughts?
Im still in highschool but im wondering if i should go or not go because its so much money and more time spent in school. And once I graduate Its not that easy to find a job, and I don’t know.
I’m freaking out a bit
I don’t want to go to college but I also don’t want to wake up and hate my life and regret not going to college. I honestly thought about killing myself right after highschool just so I don’t have to deal with my future.
But I know that’s not the way to go its just a thought
Im also not […]
I am getting closer and closer to the end now. I have already scouted the location. Its very high and easy to access. There are no fences or anything to prevent me from jumping, which is odd because i wouldn’t be the first one to commit suicide at that spot. At the bottom there is concrete. I will try to hit it head first. Should be the fastest way to go.
I have put my affairs into order as best i can. I have written a suicide note. I will probably do it this week. Maybe tonight. Maybe tomorrow night. Seems almost inevitable now.
There are a […]
i had a stereotypical evil stepmom that hated me undercover for decades.
she did all the evil shit evil step-parents did
emasculated me constantly
framed me for destruction around the house (in addition to the regular mess a child makes)
did interesting food experiments on me (any one with cooking roots to a specific culture knows what im talking about)
and generally made me regret any supposed favor she would do for me
…
i thought when i finally started to hate her, that she would stop
she would regret making the child she raised hate her
but what i didnt know was that
she hated me first
she hated me for longer
she hated me more […]
This is a question for people who tried committing suicide, but whose attempt failed.
I’ve heard that when people try jumping to their deaths, they “immediately regret the decision as soon as they are in the air.”
If you’ve tried this method, did you feel “Oh my gosh, I shouldn’t have done this?” Or “I’m so glad I’m doing this.”?
Do people “immediately regret their decision”, when they try other methods, such as cutting, hanging, or taking pills or poison?
If you’ve tried committing suicide, I’m just curious to know what was going through your mind when you had already begun the attempt.
Was it like “Oh no, I’ve made […]
Sew this up with threads of reason and regret
So I will not forget. I will not forget
How this felt one year six months ago
I know I cannot forget. I cannot forget
I’m falling into memories of you and things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that I can share with you
I can tell that you don’t know me anymore
It’s easy to forget, sometimes we just forget
And being on this road is anything but sure
Maybe we’ll forget, I hope we don’t forget
I’m falling into memories of you and things we used to do
Follow me […]
I think I’ve finally got my plans in order.I have Thanksgiving break off of college. Thursday, Thanksgiving, I have to work for Job #1. I’m supposed to work all that week for job #2. But my plan is to take family medical leave for Job #2, meaning I only have to work Thanksgiving. The rest of break I can ask of from Job #1 no problem. That means I have between Friday and Sunday to do it. Hopefully Friday because if I fail, I’ll be groggy and unable to function for a couple days. But I hope I don’t fail.
My only regret is that it’s […]