I know I’m new here, but I just want all of you to know that I’m always here to listen to anyone, just email me. Even if you don’t think it’s important and you think no one would care, it will be important to me. Heck it can just to say you ate something for lunch or something to distract you. I want to do anything I can to make you feel better. If you just want someone to yell at / get your story / day / whatever out (part of the reason I joined the site), just put at the top that you […]
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I pop on most days to work on a project, or to write a reply. Some days I’ll just read quietly. I speak up when I have something to share but I realize my voice just like before doesn’t mean much.
When I was younger I was a listener and I was forced to be a talker. To be a talker to make myself clear and to stop assumptions about me.
A phrase rings through my head “You can’t be a hero” at 12 years old my father did everything to crush my hopes. I did little things, I donated a little money, I held open […]
I just posted a book in a reply to a post I read on here. This site isn’t what I was looking for however I am grateful to have found it. This topic of conversation isn’t exactly what you feel comfortable or welcome to discuss openly with anyone. I don’t advocate suicide for anyone, it’s horrible in fact and when I think about the impact it has on the people who care about you it does feel selfish. I can only speak about my own situation. Today is a very dark, lonely day and I have never felt more isolated or alone in my life. […]
For the past six months I’ve been strugling with severe problems in my life. The main reason was breakup with my girlfriend after 3 years. Since the breakup I havent slept more than 5 hours a day, I don’t even go out anymore (in fear I might see her) and overall I’ve isolated myself from the outside world and things got so far I’ve been inches away from commiting suicide, however there came a point where things started to go more positive; me and ex talked about the breakup and deicided that it’s best for both of us if we just stay friends, I’ve got […]
the life I’ve come to know has naught but
Shown me how cruel this world can be
Some say it’s the worlds way of making you stronger
But I know that I won’t last any longer
Because there are razors ever where
For drugs, for tools, for hair
All can be used for the simple chore
Of making my wrists bleed once more.
They come from stores, they come from shelves,
Hell, they even sell them in packs of a hundred and twelve!
And To those who say
It’s there but don’t use it today
I reply
Fuck you, I’ll take it and use this
knife […]
I just can’t deal anymore. Everyone says to “hold on” and “be strong”. But they do not walk in my shoes. They do not feel the pain I feel. They were not physically and emotionally abused in their childhood. They didn’t see their boyfriend of 6 years find a new girlfriend and the two of them crack jokes about me on Facebook, saying that I am lunch meat while the new girlfriend is steak….yet the ex-boyfriend calls and tells me the same week he not over me and wants to be friends and I am a great person. How can I be a great person if […]
I’m crazy, I must be crazy. Out of the blue I took a pen and sticky note and wrote “Hey, I like you. and this is crazy, but here’s my love note, so prom….maybe?” on it, then stuck it to the locker of the girl I want to ask out to prom. WHY DID I DO THAT?
I don’t know what to think, but I did it, it’s done, and nobody can erase it now…unless I somehow get to her locker before she does, open it up, take it off, and hide it before anyone can see? But that won’t work. No. I have to get […]
Why can’t I seem to find another person who is also stuck spinning on his or her wheels like me? That’s what I want to know.
If not that, then how come I feel like I’m the only person who has ever felt this way? I can’t talk to other people about how I feel because from my experience people don’t seem to get what I’m talking about. No one I’ve ever met gets mad and upset and blue the way I do.
I am posting this so I can find someone who feels the same way. Reply if you know how it feels to be lost.
I know I keep posting…basically I guess I am trying to get my thoughts,feelings out before I die. I dont want to be saved,Im too far gone at this point. I think as I draw closer to the end I just need to purge this poison as much as possible….so bear with me. Or dont,I guess no one needs to read this. Dont necessarily need a reply.
Had another huge fight with BF on phone last night..still refuses to come back home,now trying to say he wants to talk to my therapist first. he keeps threatening to stay down there and never come back. His goddamn […]
Sometimes it’s easier to speak to someone you don’t know and we all need someone to talk to… so here’s my e-mail to anybody who needs someone to talk to. I’ll try to check it as often as i can, and I reply to everyone and anything you say is absolutely and extremely confidential. Absolutely no judgement and I’ll try my best to help you in any way that I can. You’re all valuable and worth saving. So please if you need someone to speak to, I’m here for you as well as many people on this site, so do not hesitate. You’re my sunshine, […]
I’m so sick and tired of being left behind.
I don’t really no how to describe it. I am just done with everything.
No one really knows how upset I am. I’ve never told anyone why I am like this. Most people, don’t notice how depressed I am. It’s starting to take it’s toll on me though. I stay up until 4am daily now, get as much sleep as I can, repeat. I am constantly tired because I just, don’t… do anything. I mope around my house. The only things i’ve been able to think about today, is how horrible my life is compared to […]
Hi just broke up with bf…we were toether for three years
i don’t know what to do now…i feel like back to him but he will treat me sh** again…
he was the only one who knew about my major depression..and also that i don’t take medications yet due to some personal reason…but he always blamed me..this time he said that he don’t feel the love no more..because i am moody all the time..and i said i am sorry but his reply was “i don’t care”
so did i do right by breaking up with him? its no doubt that i still love him like there is no […]
im sick and tired of people calling me ugly, or saying i look like a dude, or have a “boyish face” I’m sick of people saying “I’d pick ____ over morgan any day”
becuz when i look in the mirror. I’m happy with what i see, i feel beautiful. and in my mind i think i am. even tho i get called ugly at least once a week.
i just don’t get how not many other people can see that I’m beautiful like how i see myself.
i have been texting my friend (he’s a guy) for the past week. and today he told me “i like making […]
what a life i have. my parents with there sharp tongues and quick jokes. such bullshit they know the impact they have on me its ridicilous i honestly dont know how ive made it this far. and to think when i was 9 years old being called a mother fucked by your own mother who didnt care who didnt think that would do anything to her son. what stopped me from pulling that knife quick across my throat, there are good things in this world but in my case they come rare and often stay short. bits of happiness for me was looking at the […]
My thoughts of suicide started when I was 13 years old.
 I made a friend through a connection with another friend, and she was awesome (at first). I found out a month into our friendship that she did drugs. I encouraged her to stop, but since she was 5 years older than me she was too self- absorbed to listen. So, one night she slept over my house, and curiosity got the best of me, and I tried the drugs. It was… wonderful, to say the least. So more ‘sleepovers’ were planned afterwards. If I can recall correctly, it was about the third time she slept […]
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