oh my god. i cant change the past. i wish i could. i can only keep trying to make now and the future better. i wish i could change the past. i dont know what to do. oh my god. are you kidding me?! i dont know what to do. there has to be something i can do. why does he always have to assume hes correct?! why cant he understand he is wrong sometimes?! oh my god. i dont know what to do.
i really do want to die because i know as long as im alive this is going to eat at me. […]
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Rest Of Your Life
Hello everyone. If your reading this, Â then I assure you that right now I had forgotten this post. I wish not to remember my past, they had been changing me, transforming me, shapeshifting me, into such evil ways. I’m not evil myself, or at least I don’t want to be, but it’s come to a point now that I’ve become a whole different person from the experience I’ve been facing.
Although suicide is an option for me, I’m not planning to do such a thing so far. However, I do admire its benefits if I do take its path. But that brings a question, what does […]
Suicide, violence and mass murderers.
With all the school and theater shootings in the news today and the other
mass murders being attempted by mentally unstable people, now is not a good
time to admit it to mental health or law enforcement personnel that you are
considering suicide
Those violent unstable ( shooter) bastards make it hard for
nice nonviolent people to commit suicide or at least talk about it. The
majority of the public, in today’s environment immediately assume that if
you are serious about suicide then you will automatically try to commit mass
murder before taking your own life. They want you […]
it’s time to be with my daugther, dying is the best way out. what do you think?
written by amelia follicauo
So today i went to the doctor, he put me on antidepressants but i think he was very dumb. as i live alone ATM and i miss her so so much, i think I’m going to take all of them and mix it with alcohol. Emma will be so alone and scared o i have to go help her and look after her. it hasn’t been long since she committed suicide but this life is too hard and she deserves to have her mum with her. my kids have gone to live with their dad and they don’t want to stay with me so i […]
Yes; How long can I stay here?
I get treated like shit! There is no other way to explain it. I still believe my father hates me deep down.. for calling the cops on him because he was out of control.. Would you rather of been to prison for the rest of your life? Exactly! I saved your sorry ass. When you said to me ‘I hate you’ ‘Your dead to me’ ‘I don’t want you in my life’ & also called me a ‘*****’ ;; I just wanted to punch you! See why beer does to you?! This hasn’t happened once, its happened […]
how do you deal with depression and suicidal thoughts
when those who hurt you most and brings you to depression
and suicidal thoughts are those you love so dearly?
how do you cope with it when those you love so dearly are family,
family who you will have to see and interact with,
the ones you are tied with for the rest of your life.
Hint: If you’ve been depressed for years, the odds are, years from now you’ll still be depressed
by blsdaniel
written by blsdaniel
Time to finally accept that life is a random walk. It may bounce up and down a little here and there, but where you are emotionally today is very likely where you will be years from now. This whole “I’ll give it one more chance” is bullshit. Life is just going to take that “one more chance” and fucking do with it whatever it did with the last fifty chances.
Are you generally a happy person but feeling down right now? Good news: you’ll likely return to your norm soon and be happy again.
Are you generally an unhappy person and been like that for the last […]
and here we are again. Back to old self-defeating habits. Hope?
What is hope? Is it believing that there could POSSIBLY be something better? Is it waking up and looking forward to the following day?
Happiness?… We use this word as if it’s nothing. As if in a split second everything could go from complete shit, to being honky dory and you could be happy for the rest of your life. When someone asks me why I can’t “Put on a smile! Get out of the house!” I honestly don’t even know what to say. Yes, I know how to smile. But I don’t know how to mean it. All […]
its wierd how even though you may not always remember something, your mind never forgets what happened for the rest of your life,i know thats why i wake up at the same time every morning, wen i even can sleep,people tell you to move on and forget about what happened,ok, just let me slam my head against the cement and get amnesia,if its that bad that i can forget time to time but my mind alawys remembers, and noone ever tried to help me through the trama,then those people can eat shit and die,i was woken up around the same time in the morning every […]
I was drinking tonight. And for the first time I really felt emboldened to just… take an action I can’t mention here. I really wanted to do it. But I realize it probably won’t give me the result I want. I’ll probably get really sick and then regret doing it because I’ll be in severe pain with horrific stomach cramps, or maybe scary seizures and frightening rapid heartbeat. Or maybe I’ll suffer brain damage and then be a vegetable, wonderful. I’ll then hate my life even more, but maybe then I’d have an excuse not to have to do anything (like go to work, which […]
To begin, I am fairly misanthropic and disenfranchised due to humanity’s impact on nature and the wildlife that inhabit (or did inhabit in many cases) this once beautiful planet, Â how society is in general, whether it be the intolerance and hate that monotheistic religions have spread for generations (as well as how religious teachings dominate our political and legal systems despite all of the blatant problems that arise from it), the general lack of concern for our irreversible impacts, our horrible justice systems, our spiraling out of control dependency on technology, etc, etc…. but I also share the German philosopher Arthur Schopenhauer’s views on misanthropy […]