nomatter what,they got me.

its wierd how even though you may not always remember something, your mind never forgets what happened for the rest of your life,i know thats why i wake up at the same time every morning, wen i even can sleep,people tell you to move on and forget about what happened,ok, just let me slam my head against the cement and get amnesia,if its that bad that i can forget time to time but my mind alawys remembers, and noone ever tried to help me through the trama,then those people can eat shit and die,i was woken up around the same time in the morning every single day, for years and years, sleeping pills eventually stop working for me and my nightmares are so vivid and they tramitize me themselfs,my whole life i never really slept more then 4 hours, now my body autimatically doesnt let me sleep more then 4 hours,get woken up on purpose just because you were hated,or get woken up to be forced in bed with a petifile,or woken up to get beat, or you wake up to screaming and you wake up geting yelled at to hurry and get out side before that bitches boyfriend hurts you, and u dont have time to get your shoes on, and ur 12 years old, even before that, who the fuck would beat the living hell out of a 3 year old?only someone that later on feels sorry for themselfs when they get karma,well i cant sleep.my body is ammuned to cough medicane wich used to get me to sleep for a couple hours,thanks to that *****, and the more you realize how damaged you are and fucked up you are, and how much they took away from you, plus everyday seeing the same scars on your body,how can you forget or get over what happened, people that talk shit just never knew what its like to have to fight for your life at such a young age,them bitches wouldnt last a day in these shoes,