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Some advice

by copenhagentojapan 5/27/2016

written by copenhagentojapan

Been lurking on and off in the dark periods of life for years, now I’m looking for some advice.

I’m m27 and probably been depressed more or less for 10 years+. I’m finally getting some help and facing a lot of fears and problems that I’ve ignored. Due to being depressed and that leading to anxiety and some degree of isolation how do you return to normal life and in particular dating when you feel like you cant tell anybody about the last 10 years because you fucked up everything by either being sad, selfdestructive or wasted?

5/27/2016 4 comments

stuck in this hell hole

by suicidalfreak 4/24/2016

written by suicidalfreak

she’s hurt and lost

crippled by all the pain she feels everyday

shes trapped and the doors are locked

there’s no one to help her

to hear her screams

to hear her drowning in her own blood

to hear she wants to leave this world

just to be heard by someone would give her hope back

but she’s empty

lost, lonley and dying

all she asks for is to be gone and never return

to leave all her crap behide

to leave the nobody she has behide

to just leave this useless place

4/24/2016 1 comment

My only reason

by kamidaka 4/23/2016

written by kamidaka

I don’t really know how the idea came to my mind, but I’ll do it.

As many of you know, my life is a living hell, and yeah, a lot of people wonder how am I still alive.

There’s something in this world that I love with all my soul, with all my heart. No matter what happens to me, that little thing puts a smile on my face. It brightens my day.

And now, I’ll try to make something for that thing. The thing that keeps me alive.

I’ll have to give up on the idea of trying to leave again, because I’ll need some money. […]

4/23/2016 0 comment

my un-quiet mind

by noneedforaname 4/20/2016

written by noneedforaname

I went to see uncle Tom, because our sicknesses are the same.

I never thought of that before, is genetics to blame ???

So I asked how do describe me, because words I can’t find.

He looked at me and smiled, and said you have an un-quiet mind.

An un-quiet mind ??? I’ll be damned you’re right.

That’s always been my problem, no peace in sight.

From the time I wake up until the time I go to sleep, and all the time in-between

All of the noises and voices, I just wanna scream.

But screaming won’t […]

4/20/2016 3 comments

Feeling guilty about you guys

by fitzgerald 4/18/2016

written by fitzgerald

Hey, just wanted to let you know here how much I appreciate everyone here. I think we all were looking for something unheard of in the real world when we joined up.

I also just wanted to let you know I read as many posts as I can and even though I don’t have the words to help most of the time, I do support you.

Thanks everyone who responds to my posts for putting up with my whining even though you clearly have your own trauma to deal with. I feel I don’t have a lot to offer in return. But sincerely, thank you.

4/18/2016 6 comments

Welcome back

by Drowning 3/23/2016

written by Drowning

it’s been a wile but I guess your due to return

Me-hay insomnia it’s been awhile

insomnia-I know you thought u could hide from me with sleeping pills right ?

me-umm well kinda yeah u keep me up all night messing with my head making me over think and drain the little life I have in me

insomnia – haha well I’m back to kick u in the teeth what u going to go with out them pills now huh ?

me-……..

Insomnia- you know your life a mess right ?

Me-no I didn’t know it was a mess actually I thought it was going fine if u ask me that’s why […]

3/23/2016 14 comments

Good night SP.

by beaubri 3/17/2016

written by beaubri

I need to try and sleep. I will return tomorrow evening. I look forward to messaging everyone again, new faces and old.

I hope everyone has a better night/morning than their last.

3/17/2016 0 comment

Odds

by Drowning 3/8/2016

written by Drowning

I know someone on here had a post similar to this but after you’ve had trauma attempted suicide are depressed anxious self harm have suicidal thoughts etc can you really come back from all that ? being the happy out going person u once was ? Or are u pass the point of no return the damage is already done kind of thing game over

how many people have actually won the battle to live a so called normal life?

and how many people have commit suicide what’s the odds I say suicide wins by far what’s everyone view on the subject ?

3/8/2016 11 comments

Something to Prove

by chelle428 2/20/2016

written by chelle428

So after finding out I owe my college more money than I thought the other day I told my mom I was giving up and I didn’t care about my life anymore. Of course she never takes it serious when I talk to her about suicide/ depression. So today she wouldn’t stop harassing me to get my W2’s so I could get my tax return (which won’t even be a couple hundred dollars) and I told that I already I was giving so why would I even file, since my dad already filed me as a dependent even though he doesn’t buy anything for me, […]

2/20/2016 5 comments

crazy

by fucmylife 2/8/2016

written by fucmylife

I have quitsmoking and drinking so i can b baptised. But everything is so fucked. I have zero hope. Zero desire. I dont even know if God exists. If he does y doesnt he intervene? Answer prayer? My son is probably schitzophrenic. I have tried to help him. Its impossible to get good metal health help. Only bad people succeed. Doing good gets me know where. I have 7 kids. My oldest is a witch to me and abuses me verbally and emotionally because her childhood was shit. If i olan something its fails. If i try i dont succeed. I just wish i would […]

2/8/2016 0 comment

Nihilism

by Costy 1/16/2016

written by Costy

Idk why, I lived for 20 years and always did what I wanted . The thing is, if after death is nothing,why not go into that nothing?

What could be more awesome than to return into the nothingness we came from.

1/16/2016 3 comments

My heart is beating so fast

by Desheures 1/11/2016

written by Desheures

The thought of my mom finding out about my depression scares me. Why? Why does it scare me so much? I’m not sure.

This post is similar to my last one but I have to let it out anyway. I woke at around 4 PM today. My friends had planned to come pick me up at around 12PM so we would go spend time together before we all return to college. So when my alarm woke me up at 10 AM today, I texted them saying that I was so sick I couldn’t even get out of bed. That was true, I felt so tired.

It’s ironic how […]

1/11/2016 1 comment

disappear, not particularly die

by tobeornottobethatisthequestion 12/20/2015

written by tobeornottobethatisthequestion

can i just disappear? – sometimes i just want to disappear. – i wish i could disappear. – i want to disappear from my life. just be gone, as if i were never here. (the pearl) – i don’t want to kill myself, i just want to disappear. – i just want to stop existing. – i want to disappear into the night and never return. – i don’t want to die, i just want to disappear. – take me to neverland. – i want to fade away, like fog, melt like sugar, disappear. – sometimes i want to disappear. – sometimes i just want […]

12/20/2015 3 comments

Step off the edge

by notsureifreadytogo 12/14/2015

written by notsureifreadytogo

About to commit. That point of no return, where you send out the letters and emails. A Skype video message for my wife. Then its 24 hours to complete the deed. Should only take a few. What a sad way to end. To answer so much pain, by causing pain, to avoid pain. Not at all how I saw things going. Such a shame.

12/14/2015 7 comments

Post Thanksgiving Statement

by theloser102 11/27/2015

written by theloser102

After Thanksgiving and Black Friday, I could not have been more pissed off at all the wasted nuclear garbage I am seeing from my family, social media, ect. Before I go on, this is just me giving my honest thoughts on this whole thing I speak on no one else’s behalf. First I’ll talk about Thanksgiving and how we should all be thankful. I was with my family for Thanksgiving, quite a few people and we all talked about what we were thankful for. I could not give an appropriate response, I just said in a weary voice “I’m just thankful for the delicious food […]

11/27/2015 4 comments

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by Wanttogiveup 11/27/2015

written by Wanttogiveup

So…hey there. My name is Jayden…I’ve been on here a couple times, gotten help from some amazing people. Then I thought my depression and anxiety were gone so I selfishly felt I didn’t need to come on this site anymore. I’m sorry. That was selfish and rude and despicable in my opinion. But before I go on a 5 page rant on how much I hate myself, let me catch anyone who listened when I was originally here up to speed.

The girl who made my depression seem nonexistent dumped me.

I have effectively pushed all but 3 of my friends away

The last friend who helps me […]

11/27/2015 10 comments

Physically Here, Spiritually Away

by away 11/15/2015

written by away

I was temporarily away. Everything came to be too much, leaving me bedridden for a few days. I slept so much that my bed began to stink and my body began to rot, in a sense.

I really didn’t want to return. I had left behind a huge mess, thinking that I was finally going to exit for good and consequently avoid it.

But, unfortunately, I’m still here. My method was poorly carried out that Wednesday morning.

So, fine. Physically, I’m here. I’m present. On this planet, I have mass.

Spiritually, though, I’m gone. I’m away. I’m not “beyond”, but I am absent.

When I came back the next week, […]

11/15/2015 0 comment

Another one

by thelost 11/12/2015

written by thelost

She stands alone in a world that is not always fair. Her soft, blue eyes look out at the world with an innocence akin to that of a child. She is not a child, however, she just isn’t as jaded as myself. “Why can’t you accept me for me? I’m not her, and I never will be. Don’t you see that I’m trying my best to make you proud, and maybe I could succeed if only you would let me.” The constant comparisons, loss of individuality, having to live up to an impossible title. Maybe that is where the compassion comes from. From the place […]

11/12/2015 2 comments

Protected: I need to get it out.

by daitya1989 11/7/2015

written by daitya1989

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

11/7/2015 2 comments

I want this to end

by bberm 11/2/2015

written by bberm

I’m 19 and have been officially diagnosed with major depressive disorder and borderline personality disorder for over two years… I’ve been suffering from them for a hell of a lot longer. Meds are not working. Therapy isn’t helping. My best friend is the only person who can help me and she is taking a step back from our friendship because she is too overwhelmed. I think I am bisexual and I know I am completely in love with her, but my family would kill me if they knew about my sexuality, and she is straight and would not return my feelings. She’d most likely just […]

11/2/2015 1 comment

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