I need a friend or at least someone to talk too. The normal people I talk with are not trustable. Please I need someone soon. I’m so confused right now. Please I need someone…..
I have done a lot of thinking lately and I just realized that no one in this god damn world cares and loves me. I mean all I do is bring agony and pain to my family and friends. I keep on making them sad and disappointed because of me. Which has led me to the conclusion that I will commit suicide soon as in really soon. I might use a gun, or jump from a certain height, or even drink poison or something like that. Because right now I give up. I don’t care about my life anymore. Peoples lives would be better without […]
If I were to describe myself in one word it would be just that: weak. I hate myself so much I can’t stand to look in the mirror everyday. I hate myself for allowing all of these awful things to happen to me. If I would have just listened to my gut instinct and walked away from a lot of situations (including meeting you), I wouldn’t be in this position right now. I hate you and more importantly, I hate myself for not staying away from you. You have completely wrecked every part of my life and I know that it gives you an immense […]
I am a 16 year old boy and have been suffering depression for the past 4 years and still on going. I’ve had problems with my brother and parents, my friends and my faith, and lastly myself. I don’t know what’s happening to me. I have complied with my parents and doctors rules and still nothing. I’m totally lost right now. I have attempted suicide many times but have failed in the process and I have been confined in the psychiatric unit twice already, but nothing still seems to have changed expect for the fact that my condition keeps getting worse and worse. I hate […]
I don’t want to be dead. I don’t want to live. Limbo is the only answer. Sorry no cheer here- but I do mean the things I posted to threads today. But still- blah.
I literally have nobody right now and I feel so alone and so empty I feel so much pain I cant stop crying I just want to die I don’t want to wake up someone please help me I cant take another second of this please!!!!!
I know it’s a bit late to start a new years resolution. But I decided the other day that I should start writing one or two good things that happen each day for a year and at the end read them all. Sounds like a good idea right? Sounds like it will make you notice the positive things in life, help become a more positive person. Not for me. It’s done exactly the opposite. I’ve realised what a miserable life I have, how cynical and negative I am. I can barely find a good thing that’s happened today and for me it was a busy […]
When I said that I felt absolutely nothing, it was a lie. I did feel I just ignored it and refused to face the reality before me. I’ve made and still make poor decisions and I’m lost and confused and don’t know what the right thing to do is. I fell out of love with my ex the only guy I fell completely in love with. The whole process was excruciating but I finally realized I needed to let go. Just because I don’t love him anymore doesn’t mean that it doesn’t hurt, because it does still hurt. Remembering all the good and all the […]
I want to die!
– But I kept thinking what my family would feel, I am looking for hints as to how they would accept my death. I dont want to be selfish and just kill myself without thinking of what other people whom I think, would not care or people who I wouldnt even have the slightest idea that would care would feel if I committed suicide. I am waiting for the right time that I think that nobody would ever care for me, then its alright to die. the funny thing is it never happens, everytime I have the urge to commit suicide, someone or […]
If I killed myself right now, everyone around me would laugh.
My friend Crystal ( my persian cat) died on the 31st Jan 2011, she was my only friend, with my anxiety and avoidant personality disorder, I have never connected with anyone or shared how I was feeling with anyone, I have been completely alone. for over 15 years or so. Work I don’t know if I will have a job by the end of the week, positions will be going, mine may be one of them, I won’t cope with that. Been in and out of hospital in the last 15 years or so because of suicide tendencies and self harm. But I think the […]
Do you have permanent scars? Self inflicted or not?
I’ve got a few scars on my body but you can’t notice them. Worst is on my right foot when I ran through a glass door. One on my right palm when I fell on some wet wood and sliced my hand on some metal shit. Another on my right wrist (off to the side) from last year I accidentally cut myself trying to put the lawn mower in the car. One on my left elbow from a sporting accident.
I’ve got one across my cheek but I don’t think it’s deep enough to cause permanent scarring, […]
I have been in this depressed state for as long as I can imagine. I am now 20 years old and have been feeling hopeless ever since I was about 11 or 12. I’ve hated my life since then and nothing has gone right for me. This is the first time on this, making this my first post. I have had such a lonely life for as long as I can imagine and I’ve never felt worse than I do now.
I am basically the black sheep of my entire family. I do not talk to anyone, no on invites me to anything (from my cousins), […]
Feeling so alone right now. Been a deeper funk than usual the past couple of days and can’t get out of it. I want to be alone but I’m also lonely. I’m just drowning in my thoughts. I can’t shut my brain off. All i want to do is cut.
I was a rebound. We weren’t even dating for 2 days. She didn’t even want me. Right when someone better came along she wanted to leave. So why did she even say yes in the first place and why does this hurt so much. It’s like I can’t stop crying..
So, mood drop. Woo….
My nephew punched my little brother -like they always play around, and my brother punched back – again, as they always play.
But this time my nephew was being whiny because his mom is here. And she’s starting shit, woo!
I’m so close, to fucking stabbing her. I’m sick of this shit, so fucking sick… She calls us bad people?
She was outside yelling at my brother about how we ALWAYS abuse her children, and her daughter was sitting at the table with my dad and I LAUGHING HER ASS OFF
“I think she’s got it backwards,” her daughter told us. “She’s the one who beats […]
Anyone else like this? Comment!
I have a friend
His name is knife
Quiet, sharp and always right
He won’t judge me
For my actions
He listens, he gleams and then he strikes.
Carves a tombstone for my pain
Dipped in red ink and washed in rain
Cause you know what they say
An inch of sting
Is better than a lifetime of grey ache.
I really want to go back in Japan, I want to feel my mom’s love right now, I feel so alone even though they’re right here besides me, I know they care but I guess the care that I’m looking for is not here, and sometimes I feel like I don’t belong here…….
here in this house……
I feel like a stranger who went missing in some place I don’t know and stayed here because I don’t know how to go back home.
i wish someone could relate
Probably I’ll be flamed by some people here, but the chances are – if nothing changes, in a few years I won’t be here anymore anyway. I guess, it’s better to regret having tried something, rather than regret not having tried it…
Why post it here instead of trying some singles / dating sites? I tried it. I won’t go into details, otherwise my post would be too long.
I’m looking for a soulmate. People believing in the right to die and not scared of death […]