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I just can’t

by crazycatlady 8/15/2014

written by crazycatlady

I had my daughter when I was 21, and her dad left when she was three. From then on, it was just her and me. Over the years, as she got older, she and I became best friends, and I sort of just let my other relationships die. It was easier. I’m awkward, and relationships aren’t easy for me. With her, it was. I feel like I kind of grew up with her…well, as much as I’ve grown up. We had a lot of fun. She was this bright light in my otherwise very dark life.

Last summer, I met this guy. He was younger than […]

8/15/2014 10 comments

Fleeting Moments

by Deezy57 8/15/2014

written by Deezy57

In fleeting moments, all is good.
But it never stays,
It always decays.
I fear I may never be understood.

Through the thick smoke, I see hope.
But to reach it, means effort,
Something in short supply.
Use too much, fail too often, makes you wanna die.

The inability to express haunts me.
Regrets in the past taunt me.
“What if, What if” clouds my mind
As I try and fail to leave it behind.

I might get through this,
Everything is fine right now.
But what about tomorrow?
Maybe it’s easier to cut my losses and take a bow.

8/15/2014 0 comment

am i beyond help?

by passionfruit3 8/14/2014

written by passionfruit3

I watched this movie today called gimmie shelter.the girl basically had a hard life crazy mother rich dad who didnt want her.but in the end she got her happy ending.i would say only in the movies but this was based off a true story.what i wonder is why cant i ever get things right.this girl probably still has worries and hardships but her life will still be better than mine. Cause she got the help she needed.im twenty one all i think about is suicide and its starting to seem like thats all i know.and that would be great except ive never made […]

8/14/2014 2 comments

I’m sorry. I don’t know.

by cheeseball 8/13/2014

written by cheeseball

I always have this urge, to hurt myself 1 way or another. But it’s always in my mind.

Before I sleep, I’ll imagine falling off the stairs, or even getting some mildly serious disease, enough to the hospital. On worse days, this’ll morph into funeral services for my own, or just methods in which I die and there are people around me.

Is it meant to be this way? This is my way of dealing with life? It feels so wrong, yet it sparks a feeling of warmth, love, peace and a sense of fitting in.

It it might seem superficial, but it’s my own way, right? It’s […]

8/13/2014 2 comments

It is like

by DeadGirlNotFound 8/12/2014

written by DeadGirlNotFound

Its not like Im some teenage girl going through tough times. iam a 20 year old adult who wants to be free, i dont care what it takes, i dont even care anymore about anything, i’ll be doing it for myself and only myself to free myself from this world, because this world is black, and i have seen colors, i have enjoyed here but not anymore, im not sad, i know this is the right thing to do and i will be getting hold of a gun soon, guns are fast, and they suit my personality.

8/12/2014 15 comments

8/11/14

by ItGirl 8/12/2014

written by ItGirl

I rarely come on this site…but I think it’d be a good time to post to get a little off my chest. I don’t know how to feel about life right now. I feel so alone and just overall confused. I really am looking forward to the day where I truly love myself and feel at peace. I don’t even know how I’ve made it this far. I know I’m a shitty person to the people that really matter and who will always be there for me. I’m so selfish towards my family, yet I never do anything about it. Another thing that is just […]

8/12/2014 4 comments

i can’t…

by meris 8/11/2014

written by meris

everything is crumbling beneath me, i’ve lost two jobs. me and my dad are getting evicted, and we have to move out by the 28th and we still haven’t found a house to live in. i wrecked my car the other day and the whole right side is totaled, then i found out, my windshield is cracked and now my battery is dead so we have to buy a new one. i’m sick of everything. and i’ve had close calls with attempting suicide again like one time, i was driving down the road and i was speeding and i almost just threw my car off […]

8/11/2014 4 comments

I can’t fix me,

by alina_01 8/9/2014

written by alina_01

I just mess everything up for myself, I don’t know why I cant just make the right choices for once in my life. I’m clinging on to an ex, hooking up telling him I love him still that I want him to be happy even if it isn’t with me. But I havent let go I can’t and I don’t understand why he won’t let go either. I over think it and wonder if maybe because this time I’m suppose to be strong enough on my own to let go. But I can’t just thinking about it rips me up from the inside out. But […]

8/9/2014 2 comments

So this is what it feels like?

by forgetting2forget 8/8/2014

written by forgetting2forget

I wonder how many of you on here actually went through with it, part of me doesn’t want to, the thought, the idea of just not existing, used to haunt me. But maybe it’s because part of me always knew I wasn’t supposed to exist in the first place. I was a mistake, and not just to my parents, but to the universe. I have nothing to offer except making other peoples lives as miserable as mine. Every time I’ve ever tried, at anything, I have failed. And those closest to me laugh about it. They laugh when I hurt, that has to mean something, […]

8/8/2014 5 comments

by dyingsoul 8/8/2014

written by dyingsoul

Nothings going right. No one understands. I can’t do this any more. I’m done.

8/8/2014 3 comments

Yesterday…

by Solarion 8/8/2014

written by Solarion

Yesterday my mom, brother, aunt, and I had a barbeque. I was washing a pan that my mom was going to put food on and asked my brother to hold some of the dishes because there was no space on the counter. He then asked me if I could do anything right. I told him to finish washing the pan (my aunt watched this and got mad at ME) and stormed outside to sit next to the barbeque. I told my mom about it and she pretended like nothing happened. I told my mom that smoke got in my eyes to cover my tears. I’m […]

8/8/2014 5 comments

I feel empty right now

by FeelingFunny 8/8/2014

written by FeelingFunny

I feel so empty

No, thats a lie

My thoughts fill me

spilling from my mind

Is everything a lie

Will I ever get the truth

Wasting away my time

Trying to help you

Im the one to blame

I saw it flash before my eyes

Visions of this happening

Before it came in time

Please just take my life!

I need to dissapear!

Im not comfortable in my own skin

I need to get out of here…

Watch as the bloods spills

Razorblades been stained

Take some more pills

Quiet the pain

8/8/2014 0 comment

enter new life hear take sword forget life for a week

by why i dont no 8/5/2014

written by why i dont no

my littel joke has always been i tick the remember me box when i sine in cos that way at least some one will its a sham that its becomeing more and more true iv just come back from a larp event a place were NO ONE GIVES A SHIT WHO YOU ARE OR WHATS WRONG WITH YOU AS LONG AS YOUR UP FOR FIGHTING RP AND DRINKING AS LONG AS YOUR A NERD OR A GEEK AND AS LONG AS YOUR NOT A DICK UP FOR A LAUGH AT EVREY AVALABUL TIME YOU ARE COOL non of them give a shit about my spelling or […]

8/5/2014 0 comment

holding on by a thread

by helpmelive90 8/4/2014

written by helpmelive90

I’m not sure where to begin, other than to say my life has completely spiraled out of control. And I am beginning to feel too weak to bear this on my own. I have a child and I am trying to keep it together for her, but when u have feelings of despair it is so so hard. Right now I am in therapy and will be seeing my doctor soon to possibly prescribe me for anti depressants. I am taking steps in all the right directions to try and get better. I just don’t know if this is even working. My daughters father, whom […]

8/4/2014 3 comments

im having a panic attack right now. ive been so good. but now. sigh

by LetItGo 8/4/2014

written by LetItGo

8/4/2014 29 comments

Don’t You Wish We All Had Amnesia?

by Lily_of_the_Valley 8/3/2014

written by Lily_of_the_Valley

“Amnesia”

( by 5 Seconds of Summer )

I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss, how it felt the way you tasted
And even though your friends tell me you’re doing fineAre you somewhere feeling lonely even though he’s right beside you?
When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?

Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

‘Cause I’m not fine at all

I remember the day you told me you […]

8/3/2014 0 comment

im deciding.

by paingoaway 8/3/2014

written by paingoaway

my life is crap. it will always be. i have bipolar disorder. i will always have it. why should i keep going? im not even sad right now, im just being honest. I have two people who im living for, my gf and my son. I cant provide for them because of my issues right now, plus horrible economy. im poor, and black. i have health problems. i couldnt find love if my gf left me, which she might. I have 1 other friend. I live with my folks, and my family is sick just like me. Im thinking of killing myself, and writing a […]

8/3/2014 10 comments

What makes you think you know everything?

by tctc 8/3/2014

written by tctc

What makes you think you know what’s best for you?
What makes you think you know what’s right and what’s wrong?
What makes you think you know the difference between good and bad?
What makes you think you know what you’re doing?

What makes you think you know everything?

8/3/2014 2 comments

Anyone willing to help?

by Infectious208 8/2/2014

written by Infectious208

More and more as the days go by, I am realizing that the only way i can feel normal or ok again is to not feel at all. I am getting worse and worse and all this pain consumes me more every day. Heres what i need and even though i know none of you, i have no one else i can turn to and trust so hopefully one of you can help me. I need someone whom, when i finally let go, will contact the few people in my life that matter and give them a message for me. yes, i know i could […]

8/2/2014 2 comments

Need help want to die while still being able to donate my organs

by DC00 8/2/2014

written by DC00

I’ve decided life really isn’t worth living, and want to die. I want to commit suicide while still being able to use my organs for donation, so I can at least save a few lives in the process. The problem is if I die and no one finds me right away then my organs will be no good. Also I read death by cardiac arrest as opposed to brain death will make it so my organs will be unable to be used. I figure since I’m going this route if I can do some good and save a few people in the process it would […]

8/2/2014 2 comments

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