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Selfishness

I don’t like people anymore

by FrenchyGirl 8/20/2015

written by FrenchyGirl

I’ve been a very sensitive person, who loved other people very much.

I was always ready to help them, to support them by listening them.

I realized that people uses me like a diposable tissue, throwing me away when I stop to be useful to them.

I realized that I can open my heart to other people, but they never open their heart to me.

I realized that I can help other people, but when I am the one who needs help, nobody is there, neither the person I’ve helped, neither the other person.

I stopped helping, listening, or socializing, it hurts too much.

I realized I’ve never met a good […]

8/20/2015 21 comments

A fair world

by nesternest 6/15/2013

written by nesternest

I’m always imagine a world without the existence of money. Why did money exist? Money causes unnecessary hardship and jealousy. If we can help each other regardless of status and selfishness, wouldn’t it be wonderful. The resources are already exist on the earth, but why some receive more than the others. Humans are evil, we grab the resources and claim as ours, we control the needs through money. Why greed and selfishness exist. I can’t wait for an asteroid to hit the earth. And I’m so tired to impress others, nobody is going to appreciate me if I have no status and ain’t rich.

6/15/2013 2 comments

life is so damn pointless

by Lestatbarrenheart 5/17/2013

written by Lestatbarrenheart

It is sad, when you think for just a little why, that she will be different. Everyone is all the same,though.
I have been hurt, and betrayed, and let down countless times.
I hate fucking life. I had a gun in my mouth last week, but I kept thinking, what if i go to hell, or the place after is worse. But i am in hell. This world is full of nothing good, just evil and ugly things. Would be good if we all died. Fuck happiness, fuck love. It means nothing to anyone. Love, it is a fucking word people use on a whim. […]

5/17/2013 1 comment

not tonight; too much to do

by wormandrazor 4/28/2013

written by wormandrazor

but soon. i’m ~30. this is a long time coming. it’s been in the back of my thoughts as long as anything else at this point. i guess it just got to be where i was impossibly tired of failing at getting better, not hurting people by being unstable, etc. i always felt too much of an obligation to my family/friends/significant others, or just got scared. the utter frustration of repeated failure eventually ground that fear down. it’s a relief! it’s the first thing that’s made sense in a long time. the only odd thing about it is the surreality of getting one’s affairs in […]

4/28/2013 3 comments

Why the drama

by restlessmindseeks 4/11/2013

written by restlessmindseeks

There’s no such thing like a purpose or a meaning in life, in fact the whole universe exists without a special reason or purpose. People invented the notion of “purpose in life” so they could cope better with other people’s mistakes, selfishness, cruelty, or because they envy other people’s realisations and thereby they feel less worthy to society and need something to make them go on. It’s a form of self defense, I think. So why is it bad to want to stop carrying traumatic,bad memories or incurable diseases with you? Because other people would suffer from losing you?

We are conditioned to think we have […]

4/11/2013 5 comments

It’s going to happen.

by LonelyLostRainbow 12/30/2012

written by LonelyLostRainbow

I have no real reason to kill myself. I guess I’m being really selfish and unreasonable. My boyfriend left me oh..about month and a half ago. I really loved him..no..I was obsessed with him. I still am. After he left me I threatened to kill myself and his mother found out. He still really cares about me, he only left in the first place because he thought I could do better. It really destroyed me inside. I’ve done awful things. I’ve cut, I’ve lied, I’ve threatened to kill myself, I’ve tried to blackmail him and I’ve used other people. I feel worthless, unattractive, unable to […]

12/30/2012 8 comments

Am I being selfish?

by Abselom 11/18/2012

written by Abselom

My best friend wants to die, she plans to kill herself really soon.. but i dont know how soon. she was suppose to die last night without even telling me. she promised me she would get better, she said she would do it for me. but she lied. I dont want her to die, i dont want to loose her. i know that she can get better.. but she doesnt think she can.. but i KNOW she can..

am i being selfish that i want her to live? that i want her to survive and grow through this and be the person i KNOW she is..? […]

11/18/2012 3 comments

Too old for goals

by dethzbetr 9/29/2012

written by dethzbetr

I am a 40 year old married father of 2 piece of shit. I have been trying to kill myself since the age of 8 and never finished the job because I am afraid. I am diagnosed w/ bi-polar disorder/PTSD/ADHD. I am unemployed and draining the life out of my family. I have no purpose on this earth, no talent and no drive. I am on 6 medications and my wife has been stealing my anti-anxiety, ADHD and sleeping meds. When I confront her she just denies everything and says I’m crazy. I may be emotionally disabled, but I am not retarded, so […]

9/29/2012 5 comments

just another one of many and tired of it

by NotReallyHereAtAll 9/5/2012

written by NotReallyHereAtAll

I hate that I am really just another miserable, angsty teenager. I really hate that. I hate that so many people feel this fucked up, I hate that I am not the only one that feels this way. I just hate that even my sadness is unoriginal.

On a better day this may be a comfort- that other people feel the same. But not really and not at all right now. I want to own my sadness, I don’t want to share it. And I suppose that that makes no sense- why would anyone be so possessive of pain? Â I don’t know, all I know is […]

9/5/2012 0 comment

Ramblings of a Tweaking Sulk

by uprooted 8/18/2012

written by uprooted

I seem to stumble on this website at the oddest hours of night.Â

It’s only 4:43AM, and I can’t sleep. This is a self induced insomnia. For the first time in ages I scored Adderall and I felt like myself this evening. All good things come to an end, I’m facing the enviable come down. Maybe it’s my brain reeling from the dopamine flood it just endured. I’ve just gotten to thinking that being a depressed addict is probably one of the worst illnesses in the world. Use to live, and when the dope runs out, curl up and die.

It makes me nostalgic. I miss when […]

8/18/2012 3 comments

My Suicide Note

by nofear 8/2/2012

written by nofear

Right now, I am contemplating life. What’s the point? Purpose eludes me. At this moment, I don’t see much point in going forward. My life is mediocre at best. And even if it gets better.. what is “better,” and what is it really worth? Does better mean more money? At this moment, I couldn’t care less about money. Money can’t buy happiness or love. It could buy me a house, but what would I do in it that I don’t already do (eat, sleep, bathe, find ways to entertain myself..). I could go back to school.. to do what? Get a better job to make […]

8/2/2012 3 comments

Thinking

by SomeMalaise 7/12/2012

written by SomeMalaise

I read Splinter’s post http://suicideproject.org/2010/08/lets-face-it-were-all-evil-in-some-way/ which was brought to the fore and I cannot stop reading it over and over and over. And this person is gone after really fighting. After really doing the unimaginable. I sit here sad for various known reasons and the urge to do something is sitting there. But what in the hell am I supposed to do? I thought about writing a small thing about why people commit suicide. It would involve as much of the truth as I know. But i realize I get burnt out easily. If i start writing can I continue and finish? Would eyes […]

7/12/2012 10 comments

Mess

by r-gervais-wattie23 6/16/2012

written by r-gervais-wattie23

Hey guys here is my story of selfishness, and my un valid reasons for wanting to take my life. Im 23 I live in the UK. Basicly think im a person who just doesnt know how to survive in realworld and make sensible adult decisions. Been to university twice to persue my dream career of becoming an actor or a drama teacher. Both times ended up dropping out due to just [artying all time and making terrible choices. I spend money like an absolurte moron take out payday loans just to spend money to try and make myself feel better. Last octoper I self admitted […]

6/16/2012 2 comments

Not Afraid

by Everlasting 5/30/2012

written by Everlasting

I have been unafraid of dying for quite some time now, many months in fact!

I now live a life of selfishness, indifference and meaninglessness all rolled into one. It is all pointless, and in this I seem to have found a way of staying alive. It will not last long though I think, but give it a try, if not for a bit.

Enjoy

5/30/2012 2 comments

Peter uk 23

by r-gervais-wattie23 5/22/2012

written by r-gervais-wattie23

5/22/2012 0 comment

So very tired of exsitence

by thoth2012 5/16/2012

written by thoth2012

Hi all, It is very sad that we are forced, I am forced to live in a world that kills all life so freely and they justify it in their minds as either a good thing or a needed evil. Our world Governments kill without pause. But If I want to Leave what I view as a painful and unjust life I am considered of ill mental health. I have been diagnosed with major depression for many years. I have been on many drugs, did therapy from 1991 to 1997, I am 55 yo. Gay and blah, blah , blah. I am looking for a […]

5/16/2012 0 comment

Why I do it

by CountedUpMyDemons 4/30/2012

written by CountedUpMyDemons

So I’ve thought a lot about why myÂ incessantÂ mind always draws me back to ending it. Â I’ve been down that thought pattern too many times to know that it accomplishes nothing. Â Every time I get to the breaking point, I can’t help but consider my family and those who know me. Â They hold my hand back simply by knowing I exist. Â I never decide to stay here for myself, but selfishness is so tempting. Â To imagine an eternal sleep that never involves the harsh ups and downs that life causes. Â That’s why I really do love the “to be or not to be”Â soliloquyÂ from Hamlet.

I don’t suffer […]

4/30/2012 0 comment

Selfish. Living or Dying.

by U.N. Owen 3/30/2012

written by U.N. Owen

This is not a judgement on anyone’s life or lifestyle.Â

I have noticed how the pro-life people always say that suicide is a selfsh act because it will hurt people who are left behind. Or maybe it will leave certain responsibilities unfinished or undone.Â Â This is true to an extent.Â What they are saying is that others lives and comfort matter more than yours on all levels and you should bear suffering and responsibility for the sake of others in your life.Â Except for a little personal pleasure that you should seek out meaning by serving others.Â It is a vlaid viewpoint.

There are people all over […]

3/30/2012 19 comments

What I Want

by NotReallyHereAtAll 3/19/2012

written by NotReallyHereAtAll

I think I want the world to end.

I want the whole Mayan calender 12/21/12 thing to be true.

If the world does end then, that’s a week before my 17th.

I can’t ever imagine myself being older that I am now, is that a sign?

I feel so selfish for wanting the world to end.

But that is what I want.

I want to wake up one day but not wake up the next.

But I can’t do it for myself.

Because that would destroy my family.

Also, I’m far too stubborn to give up on life.

It makes me laugh that my stubbornness is basically what’s keeping me alive.

What does that say about […]

3/19/2012 3 comments

I want to disappear.

by NotReallyHereAtAll 3/10/2012

written by NotReallyHereAtAll

I want to disappear. I don’t think I want to die as such, I just don’t want to exist, either.

That’s it really, I just don’t want to exist anymore. If I could just flick a switch and not be here anymore, I would. I would do it straight away, no questions asked. I suppose that switch is basically a permanent one, a switch of life or death.

That’s the thing though, I’m unsure whether it’s suicide I want. I want to not be here but I don’t want to be dead.

So am I suicidal? Is it suicidal to just want to disappear?

I hate the word ‘suicide’, […]

3/10/2012 33 comments

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