I need some help with this issue that has been making my life miserable. I hope someone knowledgeable will be able to advise me on what I need to do. I spent a very introverted life. I was a virgin while marrying. I found sex in marriage boring actually ! I couldnt make it pleasurable for her either. Then we got into some ego conflicts and finally separated. I lost my job too. I am unable to find another partner nor am I too keen as the wounds from my failed marruage havent healed completely. Now here is the strange issue. I have been […]
I need some help with this issue that has been making my life miserable. I hope someone knowledgeable will be able to advise me on what I need to do. I spent a very introverted life. I was a virgin while marrying. I found sex in marriage boring actually ! I couldnt make it pleasurable for her either. Then we got into some ego conflicts and finally separated. I lost my job too. I am unable to find another partner nor am I too keen as the wounds from my failed marruage havent healed completely. Now here is the strange issue. I have been […]
So I am new at this site and am seeking advice. I am in my mid twenties and am a relatively successful individual. About 6 months ago my life turned upside down when I was diagnosed with a cosmetic skin condition call fordyce spots on my lips. The problem with this condition is that it is progressive meaning it gets worse with time and that there is currently no cure out on the market. Over the past few months I have quit my job lost most of my friends and have detached from family, religion, and basically anything else that requires social interaction. I have […]
I’m sending up a prayer
To the emptiness up stairs
I cry in desperation
And hope that someone hears
I’ve been taught so much
About clinging to my fears
And how a single touch
Can dry up every tear
Who is my saving grace
Does my hero have a name
Should I be looking to myself
To numb all of my pain
I’m tired of trying
Id rather hold your hand
I wouldn’t feel like dying
If someone tried to understand
My friends, do they know how unhappy I am with life? Just curious. They notice I’m always the first one awake as soon as the sun starts coming up but do they know that when I’m laying with my eyes open I’m thinking about death and some more shit? Or that when I get frustrated its nothing controllable and do they notice my triggers? Do they notice I don’t laugh when they joke about people with depression or other mental illnesses?? Should I explain it to them?? How do I do that??
I miss him and his birthday is near and so it’s mine.
Should I call him? Just to tell him that I miss him so…
Should I ?
I loved him. And there’s feelings remaining. But it’s been a while, I don’t want to give the first step after a while and then leave him with the feeling of talking to me just cause my birthday is a day after his. So, I don’t.
I don’t know what to do with my life. My life is so monotone. I go to university everyday, I don’t even know what would I do with all stuff I learn in university. I go to university everyday, I attend the class then go home straight away. I go to university everyday, but I don’t have any friend. I go to university everyday, but I don’t know what will I do after I graduate.
I love looking above the sky, seeing the clouds moving and changing shapes. I love looking above the sky, seeing the sun shines brightly. I love looking above the sky, thinking […]
So my friends boyfriend is telling me that I’m fucking up their relationship. I don’t know how and he won’t tell me how. I don’t want him to break up with her and he’s making it seem like he’s going to because of me.. Should I just stop talking to her so I don’t cause problems..?
Last summer, I was at a camp and one day I was really upset. My friends kept knocking on my door but I didn’t answer because I didn’t want to speak with them. After about 10 minutes, the counselor came knocking and I opened the door. To sum things up about the 6 hours after that, they thought I was attempting to kill myself. It was 6 hours of interviews, crying and honestly, a lot of people thought I had died. I told them people had misinterpreted the things I wrote in my notebook, the things I said and this one event. They believed me. […]
And here are 100 reasons to keep going.
A few might be similar to each other, but nothing’s perfect.
You should live:
1. Because you care about the world.
2. There’s a lot to live for.
3. You have dreams to fulfill.
4. Life eventually gets better.
5. You’re afraid of death.
6. Because you can flip your life around.
7. Because people need you to live.
8. Because someone out there loves you.
9. For religion.
10. To help someone worse off than you.
11. To find the perfect job or career.
12. To fall in love.
13. Because there’s a reason we’re on this […]
Ive thought about it long and hard! I have this plan running away!! killing myself!! Should i? let me explain!
Age 9-I was taken away from my dad and moved to Ohio
House 1- My mom sister(Aunt) It was horrid..My cousin took a knife to my throut and i got beat for it, that was the last day i was there.
House 2- was my other aunts house and we got in a huge fight and she moved out.. we sleft on the floor all through christmas and for my 10 birthday
House 3- An apartment with just me and my mom, i was left home alot, she worked […]
I’m so sorry mom, I betrayed you numerous times. But this time, I am deeply sorry. Besides all the medicine, I really don’t know why I’m so fucked up .. I lied about that vape pen . It is mine . I lied about the wine. I did drink it all . Do I regret it ? YES . Would I take it all back ? YES . Sometimes I think of why I’m still living . You yell at me and tell me to pack my things and move to my dads . Well you know I wont . You know I hate my […]
So I’ve been with this guys for almost 2 years. He’s a great guy and we used to be inseparable, but it’s becoming clear that we’re not meant for each other and have nothing in common. However he knows about my depression and my previous suicide attempt so I think that’s the reason he hasn’t broken up with me. I plan to leave the world next week (have surefire method) so I’m debating whether or not I should breakup with him first. Thoughts?
My tears can’t stop falling,
And it feels like dying.
Please someone tell me how to stop loving someone so much. So fucking much. Should I tell him? I don’t want to lose my best friend ever. I’d prefer to be miserable for the rest of my life instead that he stops talking to me and treating me like his best friend.
The more I sit here in this dark wrecked place I’ve made for myself I wonder why? Why did things work out like this? Why did everything change? Could I have done more? Should I have done less? Should I have begged and pleaded? Why? Why is this all so crazy? What is all this insanity? I’m going insane? I’m dead I’m dying… Why? Why must I have to keep going on? Why can’t I just be released from all this agony?!?! A thousand tears and nothing left to weep.. Now what? Where do I turn? I have nothing.. No one.. Please… I’m so […]
See, after the last girl that seemed crazy about me turned me down and wanted to be friends (and I was stupid enough to believe things would be different this time) I want to know, how do I get a girlfriend? Should I just make my standards so low I can’t possibly get rejected? Just go for people with no self-esteem and don’t actually look like girls to begin with? Is that the key, just have no standards whatsoever? Or should I just say screw it and end my life, because I’m sick of this.
I hate the feelings I have. Its the worst. Everyday is the same lonely day. I don’t trust people their all the same. Everyone is ether boring or uninterested and no one is the same anymore. I feel so different from everyone else. Sometimes it feels like I’m the only one who’s alive and everyone else is dead, and sometimes it feels like I’m dead and everyone else is living. Should I exist at all? I feel like I really shouldn’t at times. I don’t feel like I should even be here anymore I’m so sick of the same people and the same conversation, I just […]
I’m fairly certain I’m going to kill myself before the new year. I’ve just had enough of living and not being happy. I’ve never done heroin before but I bought some about a year and a half ago just for when I decide to kill myself. I plan on OD’ing so I’ll atleast go out with a false sense of happiness. Should I do this before or after Christmas? I’m supposed to go home Christmas Day to visit all of my family.
I’ve been basically alone for 2 years straight, my family is “against” me for a couple of reasons. But anyway, i feel like i have no purpose to go on, really, i’m depressed, i don’t have REAL friends, i was bullied last year in school, and my family thought it was just a “phase”, i’m constantly critiziced for my looks and ideals, i’ve had so many people going in and out of my life, so many liers.
I have nothing to do with my life, i’m not interested in studying a career, i don’t have a hobby even tho i’ve tried many things.
I consider […]
My mind won’t focus on anything but suicide. Everyday I envision the multiple easy ways I could end it. I don’t only think about them, I visualize them. Like mini hallucinations. I’m terrified of what my brain is doing to me. Should I check myself in somewhere?
Anyone who says suicide is a choice is full of shit. Suicide is a battle, one you only hope you’ll survive.
All advice is welcome, and yes, I’m medicated.