I gradually begin to understand that love is beyond time and age. No matter how old the person we love becomes, we still fight for their happiness and see everyday with them as a gift to cherish. And there is happiness that comes along with every single day that passes.
There is a lot more to love I am yet to learn. And with you, I am learning, step by step, every single day.
Addendum of Shone Lexter
“Angela cried again. The beads of tears flowing down her cheeks. She didn’t let out a single sound. Her tears, I dislike the most. Then all over again, I found my reason to live. I found a reason to fight. I’ll have to learn to let go of everything else and just focus on Angela. I need to make that sad soul happy… To bring laughter to her lips… To give her strength in every breath she takes. I have to stop being selfless. I need to start fighting for my priority, and not let even time and space stop me… No […]
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My heart is completely broken. Reality is setting in that I am now single and alone. My heart is pounding but my body feels numb. I can’t even eat, it just makes me feel sick. I’m at work right now wondering why the hell I didn’t just kill myself last night. I can’t handle all of these emotions running through my head. I can’t think straight about what I’m going to do with my life. Leaving is a way out of this all and it seems to be the perfect answer. I just want to be held. I want someone to smooth my hair over […]
I’m so tired of being alive. But it’s like I don’t even belong in death. Like I could never deserve such a privilege. I’m stuck, in between life and death and no matter how exhausted I am, I just seem to go on like a curse inside of me. I just want to lay down, crash and never wake up. But every single morning, my eyes open and my conscious never stops murmuring words here and there. So many years have passed now but it’s all so confusing to me, cause my memories are all a blurry haze and I keep forgetting to dislike the […]
I’m tired of punching walls, I’m tired of feeling sad, I’m tired of having an empty burn inside my chest, I’m tired of hearing voices, I’m tired of being surrounded by people who don’t know my name. I’m tired of wanting to end my life every single day. i really wish i wasn’t so tired..
This is the first year where I will not have a family to celebrate my birthday with. I’ve received a card in the mail every single year from my parents, respectively, and this year, I won’t get that. I won’t get anything. Not that I need to receive something for my birthday but I’ll be completely alone.
The cuts of the one group of people who are supposed to love me no matter what are deeper than any knife or blade. What am I to do?
I can already feel my soul ripping apart. It’s going to hurt and it’s going to cause me to slip even […]
Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about my friend who – surprise surprise – killed himself. It’s been over 3 years since he left. I was so crushed and felt SO guilty for about a… month. Yeah, it took me only like 30 days to get over the fact that somebody important to me died and that I might have actually pushed that important somebody a little towards the edge. Guess I’m one cold-hearted motherfokker. But despite not really giving a single disco dancing piece of poo about this once-so-tragic-but-not-anymore occurrence, I can safely say that I will never forget this little drama boy.
But hey, […]
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What’s your excuse for all of this?
It’s 12 o’clock and it’s times like these I know for sure won’t be missed
but for now, it’ll always be raining in my mind
I can’t take back what I said, words that go your way seem to disconnect
It’s burning me inside and out, but yet my heart’s so cold.
It’s another night I have to face being all alone.
I never thought it was possible, but I’m seeing shades of grey.
This weight you left me, just gave you away.
I won’t face today, all my thoughts keep bringing me down
Not a single […]
wow…. reading through a few peoples stories i have def found the right site. i had no idea anything like this existed. wish i had found this place sooner.
basically i have been in a living hell for the past 4 years, on a downward spiral is an understatement. short version is probably very familiar to a lot of others here.
a toxic mixture of a bad choice of friends, all kinds of drugs and what i can only describe as “shitty luck” has left me with constant uncontrollable anxiety/panic, painful intrusive memories that i wish i could forget, loss of ALL social function etc etc and […]
There is a boy,
inside he is sad,
he keeps it bottled in,
and this makes him mad.
Why cant the world see,
the pain that makes him be,
no one to understand him,
he wants to be set free.
The world is not right,
and his mind just collides,
theres no disfinct reason,
for why he burns inside.
Nothing to him is clear,
he sheds but a single tear,
it trickles down hs face,
over his cheek a moderate pace.
It falls through nothingness,
the nothingness he feels,
to hit the ground,thud,
with that tear, he disappeared.
For the past four years I’ve struggled with PTSD, Anxiety & Depression, but the thing is I think I had anxiety and depression before I even figured out I had it…5 years ago I was 15,lost and confused.. To start off my first year of highschool was a fail and I pretty much quit the first week, I went to one class everyday for a week because all of it was over too whelming for me and I didn’t understand why I figured you know it’s highschool it’s probably over whelming for everyone, but I knew it was different for me when I started thinking […]
I’m suffocating.
I don’t know any other word for it.
I’m slowly suffocating in this life and I’m dying inside.
My mother asked me today, “Would you mind if I smoke?”
She knows that I HATE when she smokes. I’ve tried to help her stop smoking for the past 13 years and it seems like every time I think she;s getting better, she’s just faking it.
She told me she hopes that I can forgive her.
But how can I forgive a hypocrite? When I started smoking, she almost threw me out of the house. When I […]
What the fuck would you do when
Most friends are not as close as they should
When politics and world’s health hurts
When you’ve been brilliantly single more than idiots more than bad people deserve
I’m not depressed, I just hate the system we live in, politics and the games people play
It made me sick, I’m stuck inside myself,
Nothings changing, Watching everyone,
Every moron be happy and progress
While I dream of not waking up
While the earth is dying from millenials of greed. conversely the only thing giving me hope is the imminent apocalypse.
It’s not depression, it’s my today, it was
I don’t come on this site often, only when I feel shitty. Please try to comment if you can so I can get as much advice as possible. I was given a load of shit when I was born and honestly, not one single thing has changed. I have a sister that has mood swings and has some form of autism, my mom wants me to be her slave, among other things. I mentioned in my last post about my mom being in a wheelchair and I don’t mind helping her, but she does nothing else for me. My dad lets me do stuff with him […]
This will be my last post here if I am lucky.I have attempted to hang myself twice till now but failed miserably.Within the next 24 hrs,I will try to find strength to hang myself for the third time and hopefully this time God will be more kind to me and accept my resignation from this life.If you hear from me again it is unfortunate and I failed for the third time.Before I leave,I would like to thank wndoz8er,salt,kills and others for reading my posts and supporting me.I was only a member of suicide project for just 15 days and I feel I have known you […]
I wish I were dead. I wish that, every single hour of every single day. I can’t actually do it myself. I can’t bring myself to be the one to do that to my parents. They wouldn’t understand, they would think it was their fault. In truth, I am privileged to have the parents that I do. It never feels like enough. I’m 28 years old, I’m single. And not just normal single, like, still a virgin, never even been kissed or asked out on one single, solitary date. Pathetic. Its driving me crazy. When I was younger my mom used to joke to her friends […]
I met him last year around the end of August beginning of September. He was so nice to me. And he started flirting with me and saying how I was cute. Now I never really had a guy say this to me as I spent many years being called ugly and unattractive and you know. I started to devolop feelings for him and started to trust him. I loved his personality and it’s like, he was it for me. But I started to realize at the end that he only liked me for sex. It was lust for him. He only wanted my body. Every […]
If you sit waiting for peace you will never find it. If you sit around simply hoping that life will get better that you will get a sign that there is a reason to continue, you will get nothing. ACTIONS, very important thing here. Without that you can’t expect anything. You have to do things to better your life and it’s not gonna happen over night maybe not in a week or a month or 5 months. Just think of it in terms of losing weight and getting toned, you can’t expect to be completely in shape in a month especially if you haven’t fully […]
So old.
Yet still single.
Never had a boyfriend.
Will I become one of those cliche
40 year old virgin
Should I just be in a relationship for the sack of being in a relationship?
Even if I don’t feel a connection.
What is wrong with me.
I hate my life…
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