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its been a long time…

by ALLbeletsHAPPY 5/25/2016

written by ALLbeletsHAPPY

Its been a long time since ive been here.

I was 14 or 15 when i found this site and im 19 now. Its pretty crazy to be back on here but i need some kind of support. Dont get me wrong ive grown a lot and for a while i felt happy. I thought things get better but they dont. Happy fades and misery will take over soon enough. Except now im miserable about more serious things like being able to pay for a roof over my head. I feel like im drowning and theres nobody at the surface to pull me up.

Sometimes when im […]

5/25/2016 5 comments

A Funny Thing

by mranony 5/17/2016

written by mranony

I just had one of those days where it will suddenly hit me that life is an unpredictable little fucker. Even if I’m the main character of my own story, protagonists still die.

Sometimes I feel so confident that I wouldn’t die today. And it’s just really funny.
Sometimes, I think I won’t die unless I want to.
I feel so confident that the one who’ll kill me is me.
And that’s really funny.

5/17/2016 4 comments

A song to chill

by Der Wahnsinn 4/7/2016

written by Der Wahnsinn

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aEFxM3Q2kbg
My sickness slips inside you
Drowning in my poison
Desperately I hide too from heaven
Now we’ll be together
I can make you better
Siphon your pain in me, so I bleed

Feed your dreams to fishes
Lie about your wishes
Eat away at your time, seconds are mine
Sometimes it seems we’re toxic
Wake me up and shock it
My low self-esteem
Can make me scream

In my tears
Don’t let me drown
My fears don’t make a sound
My tears
Don’t break me down
In my tears
Don’t let me drown

It’s only my psychosis
Feeling thorns of roses
Fill the void inside me
So you see
Feed me tranquilizers
Calm the storm inside us
It’s so perverse to say
That I’m blind

In my tears
Don’t let me drown
My fears
Don’t make […]

4/7/2016 0 comment

Sad and Mad

by MaybeElena 3/31/2016

written by MaybeElena

Those are the only two emotions I feel anymore..

When I’m mad I turn into a monster, and feel like I have zero control over myself. This rage is like a hurricane destroying everything, and everyone in my way.

When I’m sad I cry about every little thing, and I mean EVERYTHING.. Someone looks at me the wrong way, and I start tearing up. Something very minor happens in a T.V show, I start balling my eyes out.

My mother is always saying that I need to get out of this “funk” I’m in. What she doesn’t realize is that I honestly cannot remember a time where I […]

3/31/2016 5 comments

Sometimes the demons win

by Sui the Bunny 3/29/2016

written by Sui the Bunny

3/29/2016 4 comments

Sometimes a happy childhood can do more harm than good

by Hampshire_Girl 3/4/2016

written by Hampshire_Girl

Reading people’s reasons for being on SP, I feel in comparison, that I have very little to complain about. My childhood was mostly a very happy and stable time in my life.

I realise now though that the insular life we led was because Mum and Dad were so in love, that they only needed each other and that was enough for them. This doesn’t mean I didn’t feel they loved me, I always knew that. It’s just I grew up with a sense of exclusion, of being judged and constantly found wanting and just not being good enough. After going through counselling, I […]

3/4/2016 0 comment

Sometimes, the prettiest smiles hide the deepest secrets. The prettiest eyes have cried the most tears and the kindest hearts have felt the most pain.

by Luke2015 2/22/2016

written by Luke2015

2/22/2016 3 comments

Jumbled Mess

by NicoleK 2/13/2016

written by NicoleK

I don’t know if I’ll come out of it this time. I dip pretty low, but somehow I find my way out of the mire enough to catch a breath. But this time is different. I don’t have anything to motivate me…well, except my debt. Seriously, debt is the only thing that gets me out of bed in the morning. I guess if I decide not to kill myself, I’m afraid I’ll have ruined my life too much if I don’t pay my bills. Everything I do anymore is motivated by fear–not love or passion or even just a simple desire to do that thing. […]

2/13/2016 4 comments

I try. Or… try not to. Sometimes.

by Cordless 2/12/2016

written by Cordless

So, how is everyone today…?

2/12/2016 33 comments

held on

by bluest 1/5/2016

written by bluest

What’s the allure of fantasizing about death? It makes no sense. You know (talking to myself) that you don’t want to die. All you want is for things to be different. Sometimes it seems so hard, too hard, to change things. I want to own people is what my problem is. I want their attention and admiration and as time goes by the illusions are falling away and I can see emptiness. I’m starting to see that my thinking doesn’t add up. So what is the way to think? I’ve been reading about suicide all night and the two things some people say help are […]

1/5/2016 0 comment

no one understands

by anonymous 12/26/2015

written by anonymous

I want to die at the same time i want to live. I want to go forever in peace but I want to explore life in different perspectives. I live in hell, and everyday is a battlefield and i want to feel what heaven feels like. I’m craving for some time alone. I want to go to a place away from socialization, i want to walk away from everything even just for a while. Sometimes, i want to live and every moment, i’m searching for peace.

12/26/2015 6 comments

Protected: first world problems

by whiskered-fish 12/6/2015

written by whiskered-fish

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

12/6/2015 10 comments

Self-Destruct

by Sev 10/21/2015

written by Sev

40 cigarettes a day
2g of coke a week
a lot of weed a month
Countless bottles a month

The fucked up part, is that i’m not feeling sad… i really don’t care about me
Sometimes i still think about ending myself
I feel like i embraced my misery… i’ve accepted myself
As the fucking piece of shit that i am

10/21/2015 4 comments

Does anyone ever wonder…..

by SiLlYrAbBit 10/7/2015

written by SiLlYrAbBit

if there is someone out there as “messed up as i am that would love me as i am?” Sometimes, i wonder this, but i highly doubt it…b/c even the “sad, lonely people….want hot, cute, wonderful people. And, i am none of these. So, i want to die…I’ve tons of other issues too! 🙁

10/7/2015 2 comments

I dont know what to do

by Jein 10/3/2015

written by Jein

Its hard.
Really hard.
Ever since I started to fuck up the only light that lead me out of that dark place.

Now that light is closer to me, though it feels a lot dimmer.
I fucked up. I fucked it up.
I killed it. I destroyed its own self and now im messing around with things i think I know to try and fix it.

I make the light dimmer.
I know i need to learn to be able to stand alone.
I can. Can I?

Is it really me all the time?
It is.. is it? I think it is..
Times have changed and the light […]

10/3/2015 0 comment

Will be the last?

by mranony 8/31/2015

written by mranony

The thought of death always occur to me. Eating, showering, every fucking time. But as always, I stay at the gray area. Always. Always. Both doors open at the same time. Change or death? Both seems so nice. Bipolar? Me? I dunno, man. I don’t get a fucking thing. Sometimes, I’m too high to function. Sometimes, I’m too low to function. AND WELL SOMETIMES I’M JUST A FUCKING COWARD. I am the worst. The most disgusting asshole. I am fucking weak. A coward. I am ugly. My body is too fucking thin. Like fucking 33kg. My jaws are too large. But nevertheless, my lover loved […]

8/31/2015 6 comments

That kind of day

by plasticflower 8/6/2015

written by plasticflower

Today is one of those days when it’s difficult to just exist. When thinking is your worst enemy. When you just want to disappear.
Even though it hasn’t been a particularly bad day, nothing feels right. I’m such an useless pessimist.

-V

8/6/2015 2 comments

benzos make things worse?

by stormfall 6/30/2015

written by stormfall

Amongst other things my doc has fed me a steady diet of benzos. Not sure if it helps or hurts. It helps with anxiety maybe makes depression worse. They are pretty safe but im sure they are harmful. Sometimes i stare at the bottle and wonder… so peaceful so obtainable so tempting…

6/30/2015 9 comments

So I have a choice, options

by jennjenn 5/14/2015

written by jennjenn

I’m here. I’m with a man that I love, but idk how much he loves me. I’m still here, but he needs me for work. I know he could do it by himself, but it’s easier with two, and he wouldn’t have to pay a helper/assistant. Sometimes he acts like he really loves me. Sometimes he’s a monster. Says I have alot of making up to do. I was a horrible drunk for our first year together, so now I have to suffer. We haven’t had sex in over a year. This blows my mind. He’s amazing in that way, but now we […]

5/14/2015 10 comments

by joinjeremy 4/18/2015

written by joinjeremy

F***ing 2073,

Gradually Overcoming Obstacles by God’s Love & Eternity its my Dr*g Of Choice… Sometimes

This is 100% fictitious, but is that not reality?.. Especially if your name is Jeremy in 2073..

Join?

4/18/2015 1 comment

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