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Always here, never noticed

by InvisibleBoy
written by InvisibleBoy

I don’t even know where to start, but then again it’s not like anybody will read this right?  I’m just that invisible to the world.  Invisible to my family, my presence always went by unnoticed.  I would say I’m invisible to friends but I don’t have any.  They all got relationships and forgot that I existed.

I hate being gay, I wish I wasn’t.  I hate being black, I wish I wasn’t.  I hate being alive, I wish I wasn’t.  Does anybody know exactly how it feels to be an over weight homosexual?  Can’t make friends because most are homophobic towards me.  Can’t make gay friends […]

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Mirror on the wall

by starsonthewalls
written by starsonthewalls

Standing in front of a mirror has never been more freighting.

seeing every flaw,every imperfection,every blemish on your body.

its a nightmare.

you stare too long and then you start to see how your hair isn’t quite right and your eyes are shaped weird.

you get lost in this feeling Of disgust and despair inside but outside you show no emotion.you’re in a silent war against your self.

and all you want is for someone to see,to hold you tight and say you’re beautiful.but no one will.

and suddenly you’re looking back at the mirror and you see is ugly.if only someone would say you aren’t

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If I kill myself I still dont win.

by lifeishorrible
written by lifeishorrible

If I kill myself I feel like I still don’t win.People are still gonna talk about me like did Carlos really kill himself??What a *****,what a wuss.& my brother??He’s gonna talk non-stop shit about me.I don’t know why he hates me.I don’t love him cause he’s my brother,I just him love & It hurts my heart to know he hates me.To everyone I’m sorry I’m a fuck up.I’m sorry I suck at everything I do.

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Where do I even start….

by xoltan
written by xoltan

Hey all, this is my first time posting here. But I really need someone to talk to… Let me start off by saying I feel like a rat in a cage. Feeling I’m lost in a world I don’t understand and it never stops and it never starts. It’s the constant loneliness of the world. I Don’t think I’m all in this world. I don’t think I’ll be here too long…. Everyday is the same thing, I want to just quit my job and runaway from life, people, just everything… I’m 20 years old about to be 21 in nov and I cant even drive.. I […]

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The Past …

by Dawg
written by Dawg

To get over the past, you first have to accept that the past is over. No matter how many times you revisit it, analyse it, regret it or swear/curse it ... it's OVER. It can hurt you no more.

And you cannot CHANGE the PAST … the endless stress, worrying, beating yourself up and regrets DO NOTHING except wear you down, eat away at your sanity and immune system and waste time. Learn from it and move on … tomorrow is another day and another […]

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hard work vs intelligence

by shadowmask
written by shadowmask

I want to be a Surgical PA. I’m currently a senior in HS and I know I may not be smart enough to carry out this task. I work very hard though and if I study and practice I do end up getting a good grade. Although in medicine you can study for hours and still not get a good result. If this is my fate I dont want to start just to quit. Those of you who have higher education, or are in medicine what is your opinion?

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It gets better?

by Derk
written by Derk

I don’t know where to start.

I was raised as a Jehovah’s Witness. That alone was absolute hell. Every day was about reading the bible and going door to door to convert people. I never had time to be a kid. To make it worse fun was practically a sin. When pokemon came around I wasn’t aloud to play, because Pokemon were “Demons”. When Harry Potter came around I wasn’t aloud to read, because harry potter is a “Warlock.” Instead I spent my entire youth learning how to speak in tongues, how to convert someone, that I’m a bad person. There were no holidays in my […]

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when the ground leaves your feet

by 061106
written by 061106

For the past year everything has been going wrong. I keep falling down deeper and deeper, I don’t even know what the light of hope looks like anymore. My senior year was supposed to be my year to shine but it wasn’t, from start to end everything screwed up. Apart of me feels like god has really forgotten about me this time, of everything that has happened I have the need to look past him and wonder if I should even question his existence. In September, a month after school started I got into a school bus accident with an eighteen wheeler, I got seriously […]

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Texts i never sent him

by brokenprincessteen
written by brokenprincessteen

How i fricking miss you and your texts. How i fricking miss how we talked for hours. How you came after me. How we liked each other. How we would go home together. How you would ***** about her to me. Now tables have turned. Im lonely. You are with her. Everywhere. So close. I never was. So physically close. Do you like that. But i didnt want to freak you out. I could have flirted with you the way she always does. But i didnt want to be her. But now you prefer her dont you. You dont even say hi. You fricking dont […]

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3 years

by drowningagain
written by drowningagain

Last monday marked the year mark since I tried to  commit suicide, it’s been a very hard three years, somedays I just break down crying wondering how I ever got to this point in my life.  I’ve been this way my whole life, I can remember suffering with depression as a child waiting to grow up thinking I would grow out of this.  Thinking that the heavy sadness I felt was just a phase.  It’s a sadness that has taken over my life and i wonder how different things would have been if only I had, had the courage to seek help when I was […]

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Dark Times

by darktimes7
written by darktimes7

Hello,

I have recently being going through the hardest time of my life and I have been attending some talk therapy sessions.

I have been told talking about my problems helps but I don’t want people knowing about my problems at the same time so I decided to start an anonymous blog regarding my experiences and I would just like to share the blog with you if thats ok.

http://darktimes7.wordpress.com

Thank You.

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I am terrified

by marine105
written by marine105

Right now, as of this moment and the myriad of moments preceding this one, I am terrified.

Why? I don’t know.

I suffer from a fear that I cannot name or pinpoint.

It’s not a fear of something real.  It’s not a rational fear, proportionate to the degree of danger I’m facing.

It’s an all-consuming entity, enraptured with me and enveloping me in its inescapable grasp.

 

I work a job, something that I’ve been able to manage (to some extent) for about a year and a half now.

I’m about to start a new work schedule, and I’m working a bit more than I’m used to.

Even though I know I can […]

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Broken

by noir
written by noir

I know what you are thinking, you are depresed cause you broke up.

Well yes i am, i started dating my couple on 13/4/2013, as you can guess for me it was quite hard to get a couple i had to decide if i needed a guy or a girl (that was actually realy realy hard to me cause in the inside i want to be loved and protected and cared, but  in the outside im still male so i have to wear that mascarade of strongness and self security, so yeah for me it was a riddle, and still, anyway…) i met many people in […]

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Tomorrow starts “anew”

by lostchild445
written by lostchild445

I keep dreaming of a different life
I keep hoping to be a better person
I keep praying for a brighter sun
Yet I keep holding this knife

A new start they say
Its your chance to be whatever you want
But every time I try to imagine, my mind taunts me
With these fantastic images of what may be one day

You’ll be a hero, a friend, a savior
You’ll change the world for the better
You’l finally forget her
You’ll finally change your behavior

These pictures in my head
I can see they are lies
And I know that even if I tried
Soon, I’d just […]

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We Are All Legends

by teardownthewall
written by teardownthewall

I saw someone write that they are Sisyphus and I thought it was poetically fitting for people in our condition. I myself am Atlas, damned to carry the world on my shoulders without given a moment to shrug. We are all legends and gods in our own right. Perhaps that’s why our deaths are so tragic.

I’ve finally decided to take that final step and let the world roll from my shoulders. I’ll give myself a month to tie loose ends and let my family adapt. I told them I’ll be leaving in a month. They think I’m just going to move away, having no idea. […]

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am i the only one..

by the boy
written by the boy

that is tired of getting that same shit in the face by people who just got what do i know have a boyfrend who broke up with them and then they start saying their life sucks and no one knows pain evry day i fucking go with a preesure in my eyes like i am going to cry i have lost so must family got bulied beaten and forced to do stuff i dont want i now i just dont know. im in hell cant get out of hell but i can lay down and give people an step more to get out.

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Does therapy work?

by DawgMom
written by DawgMom

Seriously. When you’re as depressed, unable to trust, wounded, afraid, anxious, angry, and lonely as many of us are, can we really be helped by a therapist? I used to think so but it almost seems like it makes things worse because the therapist thinks they want to help but have no idea what they’re in for. Once they find out they can’t handle it and start taking things personally and then react instead of guiding.

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