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I just don’t know

by Thisismyname 6/22/2014

written by Thisismyname

So words are kind of failing me right now, i’m not really sure what i’m intending to type in this post but i guess we will see where it goes.

I’m just struggling to keep caring, to keep on going and to give a shit about what i do with myself any more. I’m stuck in this fucking void of self hate and i only hate myself more for being stuck there because i have absolutely no right to feel this way. I just don’t know what i’m supposed to be doing anymore, i’m just such a fuck up and i get everything wrong. I’m […]

6/22/2014 1 comment

by MysteryGirl 6/21/2014

written by MysteryGirl

The worst feeling for me is when my mum sees my cuts and scars and just gives me the most disgusted look and says “just stop that.. its wrong”.
Thanks mum i feel the love

6/21/2014 1 comment

A Whole New World

by Samantha 6/18/2014

written by Samantha

I dream of a world where people can just try to understand each other, rather than judge them for their problems. A world where no one is criticized for who they are and what they love. Unfortunately, a world of peace doesn’t exist.
I dream that I am on my own planet, where there is no misery, violence, hatred or discrimination, with only my closest friends, family members, animals and people who get me. Like I said… I dream. If only dreams could come true for those of us […]

6/18/2014 24 comments

planning for the future

by Mad-hatter 6/18/2014

written by Mad-hatter

I am a certified genius.

that’s a good thing and a bad thing.

I am a constant danger to myself. I know exactly how my body ‘ticks’. and I know how to make it stop ticking. I don’t need no knife or revolver I am able to use anything except the air filling my lungs. I have been planning my departure for almost 9 years now. escaping pain in it’s various forms.

heartbreak, impending failure, shame.

6/18/2014 98 comments

I feel confused

by lolzmay 6/16/2014

written by lolzmay

It’s been 19 days.

The medicine I’m on seems to have taken away the so familiar feeling of sadness I’ve had for as long as I can remember. The change is so sudden that I feel like I’ve been stripped of a part me, I part I loathed but at the same time loved. How is it possible that now that my depression is on the way to being cured, I don’t want it gone?

It’s as if I would rather stay with my roller coaster of a life then be happy. Do I really hate myself so much, or is it just her ensuring I never […]

6/16/2014 0 comment

I Am So Lost

by Lorrie 6/16/2014

written by Lorrie

I’m so tired.

I want to go to sleep and not wake up.

I take excessive amounts of sleeping pills just to escape reality. When I don’t have anything to help me sleep, I suffer from severe insomnia.

I can’t stop thinking about what’s happened in the last few years. It constantly rewinds and replays in my head. And since the punishment will be for a lifetime, there will be no relief – ever. How can I possibly make any sense out of this? No relief – ever? Why live? Why go on?

I’m numb.

I look in the mirror and I don’t recognize the reflection. It’s like I’m looking […]

6/16/2014 2 comments

I don’t want to kill myself.

by RainbowsnPuppies 6/15/2014

written by RainbowsnPuppies

I don’t want to die. I really don’t. Except everyday I go to sleep I wish this is the end. I wish I wouldn’t wake up. And every time I wake up I’m disappointed I did. And then I feel horrible about wanting to die when there are so many people who would give anything to live. So maybe I do want to die, but I just don’t want to kill myself. It’s why I had to stop the cutting, if I kept at it I would have killed myself.

There is a pit in my stomach and I don’t know why. Maybe it’s because I […]

6/15/2014 0 comment

I’m ready to stop crying for help

by Remnant The Unbroken 6/13/2014

written by Remnant The Unbroken

It’s like I’m destined to feel this desperate and guilty my whole life. Jesus please save me, help me, show me, do something to let me know you’re there and not just a story for us to feel good about. I want to meet you when I die, not a black void.

6/13/2014 10 comments

The pain

by Zo 6/12/2014

written by Zo

I guess the days are painful. A type of pain that will never go away. There is nothing I can do about it. Nothing that anyone can do about it. The pain will never stop. I cry for help, but there is no point. The pain will never subside. The more I beg my mind for mercy, the more in punishes me. The mind is powerful, finding enjoyment and release in the most painful of things. The splitting and burning sensation of ones skin, the self inflicted pain creating such indescribable pleasure is frightening. The pain is good.

6/12/2014 0 comment

Why is finding a therapist so hard?

by k2fraser 6/11/2014

written by k2fraser

It may be more accurate to say Iâ€™m looking for a soul-healer. I donâ€™t mean anything religious, but back in the time of the ancient Greeks, people would go to a philosopher to discuss the troubles of life, the troubles of the soul, in an attempt to find meaning or peace or whatever. But in todayâ€™s world soul-healing is now psychology and falls under the purview of medicine and the law.

Ideally, the client/therapist relationship should be a safe place for the client to talk to the therapist about anything. I believe that the only way the client/therapist relationship can work is if the client can […]

6/11/2014 8 comments

Is There A Meaning?

by NeverMeant 6/10/2014

written by NeverMeant

This is my first post on this website. I found it while searching how to successfully make a belt into a noose, just so I would always be prepared. It’s exam study week for my university right now, I’m studying science and so far I’ve done fairly well, but my mind is blank this week. I have been considering not attending my exams, I’m not sure why I’m even at university… It’s not like there’s any purpose to it all anyway. I’ve been thinking about staying home and drinking until I have the courage to end it all instead, there’s just no purpose. I asked […]

6/10/2014 6 comments

No more cutting and bye bye Brandon.

by Lime17 6/9/2014

written by Lime17

Last night we had a fight. I haven’t spoken to you since you told me you liked me and since I told you about my cutting and eating disorder. And then we stopped talking. Why? It can’t be answered with any fairness because you decided to stop texting anyone to see who would answer. Did i text? No. Why? Because how am i supposed to talk to you after I’ve just opened up to you and after you just confessed your feelings for me. Awkward? Hell yes. It was so awkward to talk to you because YOU made it awkward but now when we fought […]

6/9/2014 1 comment

Just some of my thoughts

by hopeforhappiness 6/8/2014

written by hopeforhappiness

I spend a lot of time thinking about the future. Wondering of ill travel the world, make it in broadway, get married and have kids, or give up Â before I get the chance.

I wonder what what it is inside of me that makes my body ache and makes my mind fill up with hate. I don’t know how to stop it. I know that I should probably get help. Tell a parent. But in reality if I tell them all that goes on in my head they’ll send me away because “I’m a danger to myself.” And I wouldn’t be able to handle that. I […]

6/8/2014 0 comment

Alone

by weareinfinite_13 6/6/2014

written by weareinfinite_13

I used to be popular. Grades and everything was perfect. But the girls I considered my friends weren’t friends at all. They bullied me and I let it go on for quite some time. Ripping my journals, calling me names, making fun of the way I dress, spreading rumor, making me cry, and laughing at my failures. That’s when I ended my friendship with them. It just became worse. I started talking to new people, making new friends and they started making and spreading rumors to them about me in an attempt to stop then from talking to me. I became friends with a couple […]

6/6/2014 2 comments

I tried to hang myself today

by lorhak69 6/5/2014

written by lorhak69

I thought partial suspension with a drop would be easier than partial suspension without a drop. I was wrong. It still requires willpower to (step off)/kick the drop point. I managed to step off after a while. Unfortunately, I was able to get back on the drop point. Moreover, I found that the drop point was too low as my toes touched the floor. Furthermore, my left hand was trying to stop me. On Friday morning this week, I will try again. I will do so from a higher suspension point so that my feet are off the floor. I will also tie my hands […]

6/5/2014 8 comments

How do you overcome this

by Zo 6/5/2014

written by Zo

I spend my spare time crying mostly. Often I cannot stop. Forgiving myself has come to be one of the hardest things on my agenda. The most difficult thing to overcome. Who knew that the hardest thing to overcome would be yourself. Who knew that in one moment you will barely be able to overcome the choice of eating breakfast or not.

6/5/2014 4 comments

no option left but suicide

by passionfruit3 6/4/2014

written by passionfruit3

I have become determined to prove myself and make others stop treating me like i dont matter.Im going to try a more serious attempt and gods will be done.I thought i had a reason for doing it but i dont.Apart of me says good riddance to this god awful planet apart of me says one more chance.Im getting older ill be twenty two in september.My sister will be off having a life in college.all my brothers and sisters will have left me.my parents will be dead ill be lost and confused I hate people who cry about boyfriends and girlfriends on here.i want to commit […]

6/4/2014 1 comment

RIP Sonnie

by suicide_rampage 6/3/2014

written by suicide_rampage

The darkness consumes me
Like an infection to an open wound:
I was never treated,I was never healed.
Scabbing up and bleeding again,
When will it stop, when will it end?
Darkness brings what daylight fears,
The contagious sorrow that I’ve felt for years.
The cries for help, but no one hears.
The lies of smiles, when really I’m in tears.
This terrible free fall I’m in right now:
I’m scared of hitting the ground, but know I never will.
“Just be strong, I need you now” he said..
But where was I?
And why must he be dead..
I don’t understand, I just don’t […]

6/3/2014 0 comment

Take it all away…

by Alesana 6/3/2014

written by Alesana

This has got to stop… the constant depression, self doubt, pain… I don’t know anything beyond pain now, to the point where I wanna cause myself more pain because I just want to hurt as much as possible… I don’t mean a thing in anyone’s life… I can’t do anything for anyone… why am I even here…

6/3/2014 1 comment

I can’t stop…

by brebrook 6/3/2014

written by brebrook

I can’t stop cutting myself. I honestly am sitting on my bed with a knife in my hand cutting away at myself like it’s nothing, but I’m used to it. And I’m so sorry, but I have to admit, I like the way it feels. I love the way I feel the shearing pain of blade against skin as the voices that overtake me slowly fade into a whispering echo in the back of my mind. I feel the stickiness of the blood. I can’t stop. I don’t know why I try. No one can help me and I know that. Don’t tell me it […]

6/3/2014 1 comment

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